How She Thinks

TCR 12-15-18 thru 12-17-18

12-15-17

I’m sitting at a highly polished, wooden table with Jesus. And he’s serving me. He’s bringing me a cup and saucer and I’m bewildered, Shouldn’t I serve you?

No, I serve you. I always have.

I am just bewildered. I’m looking quizzically with my brow furrowed.

Then he says “well I can sit down and the angels can serve us”. So he sits down, and the angels serve us. They’re bringing cups and saucers and coffee and it fades away.

Jesus said “I do it this way when people first start coming to heaven so things won’t be so strange for them. They will see things as they’re used to them, but as time goes on, you won’t need these earthly ways of doing things. I don’t do things here in heaven the same way you do them on earth. Things are different here”.

He held out his hands to me and I put my hands in his and then I put my head on his hands and he stroked the back of my hair – my head. I went to bed because he was loving on me.

12-16-17

The second time I went to the table it was the same polished wood, beautiful wood, and he put his arm around me and I put my head on his shoulder and he said he’d lay with me on the bed with my head on his chest. So I went to bed like that.

12-17-17

Third Time it’s a round, glass tempered table. It had white doilies on it and a three-layered plate with petit fours on it and tea, or coffee, whichever I want. There was gold edging on the table, and the petit fours have pink icing, the way petit fours are supposed to be. Very pretty.

I believe it’s tea. Angels are serving us at the table. Jesus is always on the far side and he’s already there.

Jesus is leading me by the hand beside a brook and it’s all grassy and pretty. I asked Jesus, “how come I talk to God and God talks to me but it’s always Jesus that I see with me”? Jesus laughed and said, “because we are one and the same”. I asked “do you want me to call you something else instead of always calling him God? Do you want me to call you Holy Spirit or Jesus or something?”

“No, you can call me whatever you want.”

“where are we going?”

“up here a little way”.

I saw a playground with some monkey bars and swings. “Why is there a playground? And why do I feel so young”?

“because I’m going to heal you of some things from your childhood”.

I started crying and I said ‘Thank you. Will you show me colors? What are we going to do?”

“We’re going to just talk a little bit and share’.

 “Will you show me colors of the birds? Will you show me colors of heaven and food and all that’?

Jesus said “of course I will, but I want to heal you of some things first”.

‘thank you’.

“Do you want me to do anything Dad?”

He smiled gently and said “no. I’m really glad that you see me as your father now. That’s been a really important thing for you. There’s nothing that I want you to do. I just want you to spend time with me here and as you spend time with me here, I will heal you. There’s nothing for you to do Janine. You don’t have to do anything, you don’t have to measure up. You don’t have to say the right thing. As we talk and commune with each other and just talk, I will heal you. Come back often my daughter”

“I will Daddy!!!”

“What are we going to eat? Will you show me food in heaven? What are we going to eat? “

I heard nothing, I didn’t see where he was. ‘DADDY! Daddy!!’ I yelled with panic in my voice.

“Here I am. I want you to know that all you have to do is call for me. I will be right there. You may not see me, you may not feel me there with you, just know I am always with you. Just like you know someone always loves you, I am always with you.”

“You’re getting a lot of mileage out of that relationship aren’t you father?

“Yes I am my girl. Quite a bit, there was so much you needed to know, so much you needed to learn, so much you needed to have and so much you needed to receive.”

I see blueberries, but they’re purple and they’re sparkling. It’s like fruit made out of sequins! It’s a bowl piled high and heaping over with blueberries that are purple and shiny and sparkling.

And I see shiny translucent leaves, ‘God are those to eat’? Jesus laughed, and said ‘yes of course they are. Pick one up, you’ll see it falls through your fingers’.

I did pick one up, and it did fall through my fingers. ‘That was so weird father how do I eat it if it falls through my fingers’?

“Command it to stay together”.

Me, “Leaves I command you to stay together.”

So I ate one, and it was cool, and it was slick, it was not slimy, it tasted like green, like lime. It was fresh, I couldn’t describe it. It wasn’t tart, but it tasted kind of like it was tart, but it wasn’t. Kind of like a cucumber, cool and refreshing like a cucumber.

The sun is out, it’s a nice day. ‘Father? Why aren’t there any other kids here’?

“This is a date for you and I” He said.

‘Daddy, what are those square brown things’?

‘Pick one up and see’ he said

So I picked it up, and I turned it around, I looked at it, he said ‘rub the edges’ because the edges are very hard it seemed. So I rubbed the edges and it was soft and came off like meringue. They weren’t hard like it looked. They were square and brown, very dark brown, shiny. It felt like it was solid as well. But it was meringue and something else.

So I put it in my mouth, in my eyes grow big and wide! “Lord,! It’s sweet”!

Jesus laughed, and said “yes I know. We have sweets up here too!”

‘Daddy, will you heal me when I sleep too? I’m tired of being a little kid all the time. I can come back anytime, can’t I’?  

God said ‘yes you can, however when you start growing up and when you’re healed at the little one stage, the little one doesn’t come back so much anymore. Janine everybody starts here. Everybody starts at the child stage to be healed and to be refreshed and healed in thoughts, emotions, spirit and bodies’.

‘Father? It’s just that I’ve been dealing with the little ones inside me for so long’. God said, ‘yes I know, you’ve had a lot of things happen to you. I am going to heal your bones in this time. And it will take as long as it takes. Don’t fret about it Janine just flow with it, go with it.

‘father how am I supposed to start the things you’ve told me to do when I don’t know how am I supposed to be obedient to you, when you don’t tell me what you want? And your timing is not my timing so this healing might not be all that long’.

God, “bingo”.

‘Well father, the book is almost finished. I’m sorry it took me so long’.

G, ‘I forgive you baby girl’.

‘Daddy, I give you as long as you want, because your purpose is always perfect for me. I ask your forgiveness for chafing at the bit in Jesus name’.

‘I forgive you. You know I want what is best for you. Thank you for giving me carte blanche and the time’.

‘You’re really thanking me God?’

Yes, because it’s always easier, as you have already learned, to work with me, than any other way’.

‘Can I come back’?

‘Are you done now’?

‘Yes God, I’m tired and it’s hard to focus’.

‘Yes we can be done now. Come back with me every day. Come back and visit with me’.

‘Yes father, thank you for asking me. Thank you for healing me. (whispering) I love you back’.

 

The Cork Road

PRE-foreword.

This is a story given to me by Jesus. He has been urging me to consider sharing it all of this year, 2018. It’s been a struggle to do so. I don’t *have* too. However Daddy asks me to help others. It’s my calling. To heal in various ways. I have been set apart to do uncommon things. Today is November 4, 2018. At 4 p.m. I started this post. The number 4 in the Bible is letting in light, being creative. So here I go. And yes, it’s scary. But I’d rather do what Daddy wants, than to live in fear. 

This story has lessons directly to me, that teach me things that are a part of the story or that the story has brought up. Those will be either included or in a separate post, I’m not sure yet. The story goes to the middle of age 8 so far. 

I apologize beforehand if something is wrong. Like not spelling out a number under 10, or some thought is jumbled. I’m doing my best and it will have to be good enough. It comes to over 50k words with everything in it. So far.

I tend to capitalize for emphasis and at this time, I haven’t been able to break myself of it, so it is what it is. 

Foreword:

Each person, each human being is made up of all the parts of our lives. We are born babies and we grow. Every day, a child has things happen to them. Good and bad. If we do not have parents or caregivers, that are adults themselves – then we learn things that are not right. We learn things like anger. And sarcasm. We learn how to be a human being by those that are around us or over us. There is a significant portion of the world’s population, especially those in the USA, that did not have great role models. While no one is perfect, the parent we may have had, might have had issues they never dealt with, or perhaps they just weren’t around or didn’t care to operate as a parent. 

Each human being is made up of all the parts, all the ages through which we have lived. So there are those of us, that had really bad things happen to us when we were little. It is one of the goals of Jesus to heal spiritually, emotionally, and physically, all of the ages that make up a person. Jesus wants us every BIT whole. 

Jesus wants each one of us to sit with him so he can give us a story. He will heal each one of our parts. If they are wounded he will heal. Sometimes we need to go through people that are inner healing and deliverance counselors. Which I have done extensively with a glorious outcome. [of course]

The Holy Spirit heals our wounded parts, and then he gets the demons off of the little one – no longer a wounded part – and gets them out of us. It is a work done through Holy Spirit.

When things happen to us, it creates a wounded part. That wounded part separates itself from the identity of the core person. The wounded part is part of the person. However they have broken off of the person and they remain at the age they became wounded. They have feelings and emotions. Anger is the predominant one. They mostly have the negative emotions, because they were wounded. In order to deal with that drama, they broke off of the person. Some people call them alternative personalities, aka alters. But when I first started going to my Inner Healing and Deliverance couple, they called them wounded parts. I AM SO GLAD they did. If they had called them alters, I would have been out of there in a hurry. That would have meant to me, I was crazy. Demon possessed. There is no truth to that, as I am and was then, a born again Christian, but our minds play tricks on us when they are not renewed and healed. Some call them ‘fragments’. For me, the most accurate and the most revealing, is calling them wounded parts. There is no one that wants to be called a ‘fragment’.

These wounded parts are VERY real. They are a part of us. They don’t want to be called a fragment or an alternative personality. They want to be loved and treated with respect. 

What they do is helping the core personality, [that’s me, or you], in the best way they know how. However, they have extreme tunnel vision. All they know is the trauma and the resulting negative feelings and thoughts that they got from that trauma.

They are from the core person but are not the person. They have feelings and emotions and they act out when they are hurt. When they are not healed, they remain a wounded part. 

When the person becomes an adult, they have all these wounded parts inside them.

I’m going to use myself as an example. When I was small, my grandfather and some of his friends had their way with me. Each time this happened, it created a wounded part. As well, every time it happened a demon had a legal right to attach itself to that wounded part.

So, if I was molested at 3 p.m., then that would be one wounded part. If I was traumatized at 3:15, that would be another wounded part. Each wounded part is like a separate person, where they have feelings, emotions, and they act out. 

Some people have wounded parts, however they have learned to hide them a lot better than other people. A relative is one. I don’t know what happened to her, but she is a super controlling person. Controlling people are trying to control everything around them, because they feel they have no control on the inside of them. It is a wounded part. This person is not a born again Christian as yet. She doesn’t know anything about wounded parts or how much Jesus loves her. Yet. She is so controlling, that she has controlled her emotions and her feelings to such a degree, that it is rare for anyone to see her have emotions. To most people, she seems like a very gracious, polite person. To some people she seems quite loving. It’s all very controlled. 

While I, on the other hand, I was also controlling. Not nearly to the degree that she is, but I was. Why? Because the sins of the fathers and mother’s are passed down to their children and their grandchildren and their great-grandchildren etc.

For much of my life, my wounded parts were visible to everybody else but me. I thought I was just “that way”, and I needed to learn how to cover it up better, I needed to learn how to be different. Others saw the anger and the hurt, I just knew I needed to learn a lot of things, I just didn’t know what. Someone I knew for several years said she prayed about me once, asking God what was wrong with me. The Lord told her I had no filters.

What I have learned in the past, is that I need to run new tapes in my head. What I heard in my head was not good. Not good about me or others. My ‘self talk’ sucked. So I found different people that knew how to think about different things and I have been incorporating those things into my head, for years. Running new tapes.  Example, ‘everything will work out’. That’s my latest one. I repeat it until it’s remembered in my head and at some point, it will be engraved there. I give myself a new tape to run in my head.

My earthly father taught me some, the mother I had taught me none. I had no one to teach me how to perceive myself and the world around me. That’s a big deal. I was essentially given birth and then left to my own devices to learn anything. Anything meaningful about life and how to react and such. Sure I can track an animal, I can fish, clean that fish, shoot a gun and clean that gun, but the finer points on how to be a lady, how to sew, how to sit, how to act…eh. However what we What we don’t know is “wrong” as children, we learn is wrong through body language and words. No matter the age.

My grandmother, with whom I lived sporadically in my young life, taught me some things. But it was all outward things. Like putting your things away not throwing them on the floor. However, my grandmother had the patience of God. It was she that planted the seed of patience in me.

When we are born, we have learned nothing. We are blank canvasses. The sins that our ancestors committed have been passed down to us. Even some of their likes and dislikes are passed down to us.

Jesus is now showing me, it’s not so much about unlearning, as about learning the right things and the right way. That’s because my little ones are healed. 

Even before I knew what the words “prophetic” and “seer” were, I was prophetic and could knew when things were going to happen. It got so that my Dad would ask me if we were going to have a flat tire on our trip, because I always knew when we would. But when he asked me, I had no idea. I didn’t know how I knew, I just knew. 

When young, I thought I had ESP. [extra sensory perception] Which is exactly what is is, but from God it’s a seer and from the world it’s ESP. I found out there was a word for it during my presbytery in 1984, in which one of the ministers said, ‘a seer have you been and a seer will you continue to be….” WOW! There was a NAME for it even! [ a 2 page, single spaced prophetic word to me that no one has ever helped me figure out]

So while reading “The Seer’s Path” by Ana Werner, she said everyone can have visions, we just need to practice. Now I had always thought God had to give me the visions. What in the world was she talking about? She’s talking about how everyone can see certain things. Though not everyone is anointed as a seer, everyone can see. Just like all seers are prophets, but not all prophets are seers. 

I did not know that I could enter into visions with Jesus at anytime!

There is an exercise in the book where Ana tells us to practice going to a table with Jesus. So I did. 

Amazed. I was flat-out amazed. The Lord showed me that he had healing for me and all my little ones. He called them my ‘little ones’. Big deal there, which I didn’t discover til later in one of the lessons. That means they are no longer wounded. Some are still angry, scared even, but they are no longer wounded. They have all accepted Jesus as their Savior at this point in time. Jesus began to teach me. He began to take me on visions. He told me he wanted me to do this every day. 

This was in December of 2017 that this started. I did not do it every single day, and in February I got the flu. By the beginning of March I was doing it every day.

Jesus asked me if I wanted to hear a story. I said yes. Every single day practically of 2018 I have spent at least an hour [more like 2 or 3] with the Lord in a vision or writing this story. This hour is not included in my prayer time.

When the Lord and I are talking, no matter the age, the vocabulary I have now, is used when necessary. Not always though. You will see this as you read, as the younger ones don’t know the meaning of some words used.

When Jesus, as my Father is talking to all the parts, he uses my given name Janine. Otherwise he calls me terms of endearment or my childhood nickname.

He is my Daddy and my Mama. When I praise him, I call him Lord. That encompasses both God and Jesus.

When the little ones do not know him as Daddy, they call him whatever they are comfortable with.

The story is very raw and personal in places. I will do what I can to lessen the rawness, nah, I’ll do what I can to lessen the personalness of it. LOL I don’t have comments open because I don’t want too. Comments are not open anywhere on this blog. If you want a facebook group to ask questions or comment, email me and I’ll start one. jamajo7 at gmail etc.

All of the days are dated or numbered in some way. I will put each day on it’s own post within this category. If I can. We’ll see. WP and I eye each other warily. 

So with a wildly beating heart and my stomach in knots, LET US BEGIN. 

 

 

 

 

 

God’s on Purpose Princess

Are you sad? Are you depressed? Do you feel like no one loves you or understands you? Do you wish you had at least one good friend? 

Were you molested, abused, ridiculed or tormented? Did one of your parents walk away and leave you, whether for a week or forever? 

Are you secretly sad? Is your skin a color you wish it weren’t?  Do you wish you were smarter, prettier, taller, shorter? Do you want to be loved, accepted, approved and liked?

God wants you to know something.

You are his Princess. He made you on purpose. There is nothing wrong with you. 

God is not in control of everyone. There are people in this world that do not acknowledge him as Lord. They are their own god, they do what they want, when they want to do it. You have probably experienced this at some point in your life.

However, God knows your hurt, He sees and He feels your pain. He knows, because he’s felt just the same.  There is a beautiful song, written by Dallas Holm that goes like this:

Jesus knows your hurt

“The pain some people bear no one would believe;
The hurt that’s sometimes there makes it hard to see
That in the darkest hour there is still a way;
Listen to these simple words I say;

Jesus knows your hurt, Jesus feels your pain;
Jesus knows just how you feel, ’cause He’s felts just the same;
Jesus knows your need better than you do;
Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you!

Sometimes you feel alone, does He really car?
Has He left you all alone, and does He hear your prayer?
Well, He has never left you or forsaken you one day;
Listen to these simple words I say;

Jesus knows your hurt, Jesus feels your pain;
Jesus knows just how you feel, ’cause He’s felts just the same;
Jesus knows your need better than you do;
Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you!
Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you!

Jesus knows your heart, better than you do. And God wants you to know, you are his Princess.

God made you unique. He gave life to you, because He wants you on this earth, fulfilling your life’s destiny. He wants you to have joy and peace and prosperity. He wants us to praise him and glorify him in all we do. He wants us as his family. That’s why He made us!

God loves you

Above all, God wants you to know he loves you. He wants you to know he made you the way you are. He also wants you to know that he, who is the King of Kings, made you and gave you gifts! He made you special. 

Sure, there are rough edges on you, just like there are on everyone else in this world. However if you give your heart and life to Jesus, he will make sure you get healed of all the pain you’ve endured. Holy Spirit will smooth the rough edges and heal your heart.

I would guess 99% of people come from dysfunctional families. Women all over the world have been cussed, cursed, used, abused, attacked, screamed at and generally mistreated at the hands of someone in their life.

BUT – God wants you to know who you are. You dear girl, are God’s Princess, his creation, his adored daughter. You are his gift to the world.  

He loves you. He’s aware of you. He accepts you just as you are.

You didn’t just happen. You aren’t a mistake. He didn’t mess up when you were created. You weren’t behind a door when beauty and wisdom and patience were handed out. You didn’t come from under a rock and you were not the-last-banana-on-the-boat.

You were created ON PURPOSE – BY GOD

Our Father made you the way you are. You are awesomely and wonderfully made. Gifted, talented and skilled. If you think otherwise, then you are listening to someone else. You my friend, are God’s ‘On Purpose Princess’.  To God, you are #1. He loves us all the same, which makes all of us, #1. God does not have favorites. He sees each of us as special. So beautiful, so sweet.

Yessss, some of us don’t feel so sweet or beautiful. We know what we’ve said, we know what we’ve done. We know what’s in our hearts. Well, God does too. And that is the reason He sent Jesus, his Son, to die for us, each of us, on the cross. Jesus took away all our sins and sicknesses.  All you have to do is believe it. Why is that all you have to do??? Because the work of having someone die for you, has already been done.

Once you believe Jesus died for you on the cross, you ask him to forgive you of all the sins you have committed. Then ask Him to live in your heart. Take your self off the throne and allow Jesus the Christ to be the Lord of your life.

Once you do this, you will have salvation. That means when your body dies, your spirit will live always with God. Our spirits will always live somewhere, either in hell with the devil or in heaven with God.

If you choose not to do this, God still loves you. The fact that He created you and accepts you is still valid. However it also means you will not go to heaven when your body dies. Only if you believe Jesus died on the cross, shedding his blood, to wipe away the sins of the world, of you, personally, will that get you eternal life in heaven. 

He wants you healed. He wants you whole. He wants to give you the plans He has for you. Plans to prosper you, to give you a future and a hope. [found in the Bible, Jeremiah, chapter 29 verse 11 usually written: Jer 29:11 ]

To do this, you need to belong to Him. You need to give your life to Him.

There is no time like the present to ask for forgiveness and accept Jesus as your Savior.

Your crown

And always, always remember, no matter what the devil on your shoulder tells you, no matter what other people may say to you, you shine up that crown, put it on your head and always tell yourself this:

I am GOD’S Princess on purpose.  He makes no junk, he loves me as I am. I am the head and not the tail. I have a purpose and I am loved. 

Thinking of Moving to Pocatello Idaho?

Are you thinking of moving to Pocatello or Chubbuck Idaho? Get a new job with the FBI or one of the other companies? Do you want to know what it’s like? Here is a brief synopsis. If you want to discuss this, head on over to facebook and join the group, ‘New To Pocatello’. 

These are my observations in the 6 weeks I’ve been here:

There is a difference between moving here for a job and just moving here. I just moved here.

I miss being able to call a plumber, an electrician, a tile guy that glues vinyl flooring down, ANYONE that wants to work. I miss a pest control guy that charges a reasonable $36 for spraying the outside AND inside.

Here they charge $89 and up and only spray the outside.

Because there are so many houses going up, there is no one that wants to work on the small jobs homeowners/renters have. At least that’s how someone put it. 

If you are handy, you can do a lot your self, if not, you are at the mercy of someone who doesn’t want to work/doesn’t want the job.

People move here from everywhere else, mostly cities that are larger than here. They EXPECT professionalism and professionals to do the jobs they are hired for. There isn’t much of that in Pocatello/Chubbuck.

EVERYONE has at least one dog. Most have 3. They do not control the barking. Some people have cats and let them roam your yard, so YOUR dog goes nuts.

A nice house is hard to find in a decent price range. That’s if you’re coming from somewhere that is not the affluent areas of D.C., or California, etc. They are building houses like crazy and people are buying before the house is finished or landscaped. In the $350K range. MANY houses have basements that are not finished.

The caveat on the basement is: If it has even one small corner that is not finished, you won’t be taxed on it. However many of the houses built in 2012 are completely unfinished.

Many houses are right next to the railroad. There is one railroad engineer that must feel it’s his duty to blow the whistle for LONG periods of time around 4 a.m.

There is snow here. It gets to -25 some days I’m told. The growing zone is 6A and 6B. Right now it’s Oct 13, 2018 and it’s cold. I’m from Phoenix, Arizona, this is cold at 45F.

Probably the two single biggest problems here are that every ‘professional’ says, ‘I’m so busy, I’m so busy’, and they never get your job done. EVEN if they say, as one did to me, “I won’t let you down”.

The other is the lack of decent houses. People put their homes for sale and do not paint a neutral color. You will see walls that are bright green, red, purple, black. They want to sell their home but don’t clean it up even for photos. I’ve never seen such behavior in my life.

Lilacs. They are everywhere in spring. Gorgeous, aromatic. Spring flowers everywhere. Great fishing I’m told. Great hunting. Lots of trees and water. But you pay for water here. Which is just so odd to me. We paid in Az, but that’s a State that isn’t overflowing with rivers of water.

Veterans Affairs in South East Idaho. There is a small clinic that basically does nothing. For anything, you have to drive the 2.75 hours to the VA hospital in Salt Lake City. They have no podiatry, no optometrist even. That’s not even not an eye DOCTOR, that’s an optometrist. Yep, I have a cataract presently in my left eye, thru which I can see nothing.

The VA in their wisdom think it’s best to send a half blind Vet on a 3 hr drive to get her eyes checked. EVEN though I have just had it done in Costco out of my own pocket in July. Yep. No matter what it is you need, other than drawing blood, you will have to drive to SLC. It ticks me off.

BUT! I discovered after the fact, that they will put you in lodging either the night before or the night after your appt so you don’t have to drive so far in one day. NO ONE at the local #PocatelloVA clinic told me that when I complained about having to drive so far. [you know I was ticked off huh?] More to come on the group. The group is pretty new, hope this link works. But you have the name of it, New To Pocatello .

 

Brain-washing

10-9-2018

Brain-washing. We think we know it all. We think we have the answers to everything. We think we can figure it all out or learn everything we don’t know. Some minds are not able to understand some things. Our minds are malleable. Our brain is, in essence, our mind.

brain washing

The most tender part of our whole being is our mind. It can be changed, it can be taught, it can be swayed, it can be persuaded.

Our mind houses our feelings and emotions, which is the heart.

Our mind houses our will. It’s where we are strong or weak-willed. Strong willed is doing things my way, whether or not its the right way. Weak-willed is doing things someone else’s way, without thinking it through. Not standing up for oneself.

Our mind houses where we think, how we think and if we think.

Our brain houses a portion of our spirit. Our human spirit is our personality, it’s where the dna gets passed down, which is then fed to other parts of our being.

When something is repeated often enough, some call it ‘brain washing’. It is normally seen as a bad thing because of those that have done it with evil intent to others. Think Patty Hearst, [robbing a bank], Jim Jones [drink the kool aid], Charles Manson [getting people to murder].

It’s why the military wants to train someone when they’re young, to train their minds to do what they are repeatedly told to do. It’s how cults are able to take people that are weak-willed, no matter what their age.

People that are vulnerable, without money, need love, searching for something they didn’t have as a child. Many times people are so weak in their minds, they can be taught to go places and do things they wouldn’t normally do.

It’s how foreign governments get people do spy for them and do their dirty work. Because people want prestige, money, ultimately because they are weak-willed.

In truth, it’s a twisting of something good. We all know things that are twisted out of context. Twisted out of the shape they were meant to be. Be it a sweater after it’s washed, or words that we didn’t ‘mean that way’, we have all experienced things being twisted.

brain=mind

The real term is called ‘washing your mind’ or ‘renewing your mind’. We need to ‘wash our minds’ every day. Wash our minds in the morning to gain a fresh outlook and wash them at night, to wash away things of the world we tend to dwell on.

There is only one thing with which we can wash our minds in a positive way and come away feeling helped, renewed and refreshed. That’s reading the Bible. To ourselves silently or out loud. We wash our minds when we read. We renew our minds when we listen to the Bible being read out loud.

The Bible is the only book that can teach, enlighten, comfort and point the way to goodness. The book that records what went on thousands of years ago, written down so everyone can know and benefit from its’ teachings. Reading the Bible takes the earthly world out of our heart and replaces it with the Spiritual world where Jesus is, allowing light and truth to enter to enrich our lives. Reading the Bible every morning and every night, renews hope, shows us how to think and what to think. It shows us ways of seeing things through a lens that isn’t clouded with deceit, lies and twisted emotions. It unravels anything twisted that came in during the day, showing us the path that is straight. It washes off and out the difficult, washing in the good, pleasant and comforting things.

Romans 12:2A [‘a’ means the first part’] says, “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think.” This is what the Bible calls ‘washing your mind in the Word’.

The term ‘brain-washing’ is a twisted version of what is meant to be good for us. It turns a positive into a negative. I propose there is no ‘brain washing’, however there IS ‘mind washing’.

If we meditate on what the Bible says, if we think about it and read the Bible first thing in the morning, the truth in it will permeate our minds and our memories. This will enable our minds to bring to the fore the positive things that are noble and good when bad things happen.

If we wash our minds every day and every night, there will come a time that the first thing out of our mouths when we stub our toe or get scared will be something good. Because it will be something we have spent time thinking about and putting in our brains. Washing our minds.

Brain-washing is bad. Washing our minds in the Word is good. Both can happen, but let’s not confuse one with the other. Whichever one we do or allow to be done to us, whichever one is fed more, is the one that will determine our behavior. 

What we plant & water, Grows

7.8.18 Bridges

When we are not with the Lord every day in the morning, [or whenever your day starts], then a bridge, a wall, starts to be built up across the bridge that is built between us.
We have to do this at the start of every day, because that’s the armor of God on us to deal with whatever comes at us that day.  What we put into our heads at the beginning of our day, determines what will guide us during the day. Especially in the finer points of the day. Like when we are angry, or someone cuts us off on the road.
We have to renew our minds in the Word every day. It washes our minds free of clutter. Renews our mind and our spirit with good things. This enables us to think more clearly and to have a chance to act and react in a godly way.
When we spend time with the Lord every day, a bridge is built between us and Him. This is the bridge of praise, worship and prayer. When we miss even one day, essentially what it does is it puts a rock in the entryway of that bridge. The more we miss, the higher the rocks are piled. Until sometimes, it becomes a wall.
That’s why, when we miss a day of being with the Lord, it seems harder to get back with him the day after, or the week after.
It’s because the bridge between us and him has been blocked with rocks and other debris of the world. 
All we have to do is praise him, spend time in worship and prayer. Talk with him, Listen to him. he definitely listens to us!
The bridge between us and Jesus is also the bridge over which our prayers travel and over which answers are released.
Every time someone prays, no matter who it’s for or what it’s about, a spiritual bridge is built. It’s to whom that prayer is sent that matters.
To have a bridge full of love and life, one must be a follower of Jesus. 
To have a clutter-free bridge, one must pray, read their Bible and spend time with the Lord, daily. This strengthens the bridge and keeps it open. 

Living WITH Fear, Not Under It.

on 7.26.18 I realized…

I realized, I have been living with fear. Not under fear. But with it.
Under fear, means there’s an oppression pushing you down. With fear, means that you’re trying to push through to the belief side. You keep trying and you keep trying, and you get there a little bit. But there’s still that niggling fear. That niggling question.
Creflo Dollar is doing a series on living under the Covenant. He explains in part 6, what the old Covenant is and what the new covenant is. I just watched it like 3 days ago and today is July 26th, 2018. I realized, that I’m under the New Covenant AND what it means!
When people have explained things about the Covenant, they always attached this fear on to it, saying ‘oh those old laws are done away with, but, you’ve got all these other rules, and laws, that you have to do. You don’t just have to love, you have to give everything you own to somebody else if they want it.’ That’s how I heard it.
It’s not just filters I haven’t had, it’s balance. I have wanted for years and years and years, to have an RV and drive around the country and see the different parts of the country. I’ve been to Germany, Italy, France.
I want to see the United States, visit museums, see the Everglades, ( not the alligators) lol.
but I’ve been fearful. I’ve been living with fear, trying to battle through fear. 
I figured at the end of my life I would say well I couldn’t afford an RV, so I didn’t do it. But that was living with fear.
Under the New Covenant, because I have accepted what Jesus did on the cross, I am covered by the blood. The blood of Jesus, that he shed on the cross.
This blood is alive. It will always be alive! It’s what removes sin from our lives when we ask the Lord to forgive us. It’s powerful!
Because I am under the blood, all the things that Jesus went to the cross for, are mine. That blood takes away my sins, and it also takes away sicknesses, diseases, afflictions.
Most people say and teach, the blood takes away sins. I’ve never heard anyone teach the blood also heals us of sicknesses and diseases that afflict us.
And it DOES!
The blood. It’s the blood that Jesus shed. It’s because Jesus was the only faithful one. God made a covenant between him, and Jesus. Who is the Son of God, and who is the son of man. It is a great mystery, however it is a great truth!
God did not make this second Covenant, with man. The first Covenant, was perfect, and no one could keep it. And God made that Covenant between him and mankind. But the second Covenant, the one that is lasting and forever, the one he knew he was going to make, was between him, and his son, his faultless, sinless, son. The only faithful one. 
The blood never fails.
People sin. People fulfill the lusts of their flesh. 
People are disobedient. People are not perfect. The blood is perfect.
The blood never fails. People fail in their understanding. People fail in their thinking. People fail in their perceptions. People fail. The blood never fails. The blood never fails. If someone is not healed, it’s not because of Jesus.
The blood never fails. It is perfect. Perfectly healing. Perfectly delivering. Perfect in love, mercy, forgiveness.
The love of Jesus, is unfailing. It’s thru his blood.
I am excited now, to get rid of my stuff and get a van, and tour the United States of America. For a year, maybe two. The blood never fails. Since God is for me, who can be against me?
No weapon formed against me shall gain the upper hand or prosper.
Because I am under the blood, and the blood never fails.

Bridges Between Jesus and Us

When we are not with the Lord everyday in the morning, then a bridge a wall starts to be built up across the bridge that is built between us.
we have to get with the Lord in the morning, or whenever our day starts, because that is the start of our day.
What we put in our heads at the very beginning of our day, determines what will guide us the during the day. Especially in the finer points of the day. Like when we are angry, or someone cuts us off on the road.
We have to renew our minds in the word everyday. It washes our minds free of clutter. And renews our mind and our spirit with good things, which enables us to think more clearly, and to have a chance to act and react, and a godly way.
When we spend time with the Lord everyday a bridge is built between us and him.
This is essentially, the bridge of praise, worship, and prayer.
When we miss even one day, essentially what it does is it puts a rock in the entryway of that bridge. The more we miss, the higher the rocks are piled. Until sometimes, it becomes a wall.
That’s why, when we miss a day of being with the Lord, it seems harder to get back with him the day after, or the week after.
It’s because the bridge between us and him has been blocked with rocks and other debris of the world.
All we have to do, is praise him, spend time in worship, and in prayer. Talk with him. Listen to him. He definitely listens to us!
The bridge between us and Jesus is also the bridge over which our prayers travel and over which answers are released. 
Every time someone prays, no matter who it’s for or what it’s about – as long as it’s to God – a spiritual bridge is built. 
To strengthen the bridge, one must accept or have accepted Jesus as their Savior. Then pray, read the Bible, praise him. 
This strengthens the bridge. Keeps the bridge open.

Parallel Universes

The Lord and I are having ‘sessions’ these days. This is where he and one of my no-longer-wounded-usually parts, talk and he teaches her. Most of the time they don’t know Jesus. It’s been a wild ride Mr. Toad. In these, Jesus is my Daddy. He’s not ‘God’, he’s my Daddy. He is giving me a story, called The Cork Road and he’s giving me lessons in and outside the story. Since no one taught me anything growing up, he is teaching all of us now. One age at a time. 

Yesterday morning, 7/11/18, he was telling…let me back up a bit. I am now at 8 yrs old. We’ve been thru the other ages. Eight has proven to be extremely traumatic. I have also been at this age longer than the other ages. Eight is when everything culminated. Abandonment, neglect, all those things. I won’t bore you.

In these times with Daddy, I ask questions. There is a backstory to all this, of course, but I’m not going there now. Yesterday I was asking what worship is and if it’s better to pray out loud or in my head? 

He said, “You can pray in your head. Anytime. But if you’re talking to the devil, since you have a voice, you need to use it out loud. The only way you can speak to him, is out loud. If you have a voice. If you don’t have a voice, if you are deaf, then you sign it.

Claiming my promises? Out loud. If you have a voice, it is best to do it out loud for the promises and binding and such. If you are praying in tongues? You can do that in your head or out loud, you can pray in your head or out loud.”

“THANK YOU JESUS!”

“My pleasure my girl.”

The next bit was on worship. It’s long and I won’t put it here. It’s really interesting though. He had me look up definitions and tell him what they said and what I thought they meant. So at the end of it, I asked, ‘so Daddy, what is worship?’

“What do you think it is baby girl?”

“Well Daddy, from what I read, I think worship is studying your word like we just said. And I think it’s loving on you. Telling you how wonderful you are and great you are and all that. And also being obedient. And being aware of you. That’s really hard, to be aware of you all the time. Do you know that?”

“Yes baby, I do.”

“I think worship is being mindful of you in my life and acting on that instead of..whoa! Wait a minute God! If that’s the case, then if I say something from your word, or positive, but really, from your word – when something bad happens? Then that means I’m worshiping you, right?”

“Yes baby. You have a very good mind Janine. You are a very intelligent young lady.”

[he calls me Janine when he’s talking to ALL of us] {{I get this might be weird for you, but just flow with it}}.

He called me a young lady! I’m smiling all over the place and I sat up straight.

So that was yesterday morning. Last nite/wee hours of this morning, I have a huge recollection of something. I realize that what I thought before, was me thinking thru my feelings. This remembrance gave me clarity thru my mind, not my feelings. There is a difference. With feelings, you only think it was that way, or you feel it was that way, when it may not have been. It’s kinda like perception – thru feelings. I’m pretty sure you, the reader ‘gets it’.

But this memory recollection, took me down the path of remembering a WHOLE LOT more and realizing, my memories from my feelings WERE accurate and I saw just how accurate they were.

I was sobbing. Absolutely sobbing. I was floored that not only were my feelings accurate, there was so much more and it was all accurate. I KNEW I needed to respond well from the lesson that morning.

Because I was in the middle of all these feelings, there are only so many scriptures that will come up in my memory. I was also eight years old during some of this, as well as the current age.

I gave the only scriptures I knew. I am the apple of his eye. He loves me with an unfailing love. I am the apple of his eye.

I KNEW from what he told me earlier that I needed to speak positive things from his word. Not just ‘positive things’, but from his word. And I knew I had to forgive. I did. I forgave everything of this person [my mother] that I could think of.

Today I see a deeper truth. It’s like we are all in parallel universes. If we response from our flesh, our anger, that is the devil side. If we respond with the word of God, that is the God side. IF we respond to ANYTHING in our flesh, we will walk in that universe and reap the results. If we respond from the God side, we will walk in that universe and things will be different.

I was on the precipice last nite. However as an 8 yr old, I’m more inclined to do things how Daddy says, because I’m not all tainted with the flesh yet. I spoke the word in both ages. I forgave and today…toDAY, I am slightly in shock. But if I had responded thru the flesh, I would be numb.

We all walk in parallel universes. We can choose which outcome we want in our lives. 

Demons On The Doorstep

While in prayer today, 4-5-18, the Lord said when we judge someone else, the demons of that person are allowed to stay on our doorstep. They are allowed to attach to us, because we are agreeing with evil.

We are not to judge another. We are to forgive everyone. Even if they do something really bad or mean against us, we are to forgive them. To judge another person is to throw God off His throne and tell Him we can do it.

That’s like saying, I can fly this jet and take over the controls, even though we’ve never had pilot lessons. So you’re up in the air and then what?

As a human, it is our right to judge. But as a child of God, it is not our right to judge. We are to give our rights, all of them, to God. Let Him do what He needs to do, what He wants to do. Yes! It’s hard! NO! It’s not impossible!

We cannot leave bad reviews on a website about person or business, unless we have been released by God to do so. When we do that, we are then putting that person in prison, through judgement. Other people, Christian or not, read the bad reviews, then they will judge that person or business, from that review. Then it continues to exacerbate the problem and it becomes a huge problem to unravel. 

This is exactly how Satan runs this world. He gets at the underlying problems. Once there is this huge ball of judgement, it affects everyone involved. Demons are allowed on our doorstep, they are allowed to be in our homes and attach to us because we have judged another.

I repented for a lot of stuff. I took reviews off Yelp. I do not want to be agreeing with the devil in anything. I release it all to God, HE can take care of it.