1-12-18 I’m currently reading Ana Werner’s book, “The Seer’s Path”. If you decide to read it, know that there are a lot of misspellings, one VERY graphic story in there that shouldn’t even be in there and the proofing was slip-shod. THAT SAID, I think you should buy it. [I’m over that ‘put up an affiliate link’]
It’s a REALLY good book. Ana has us practice doing visions early on. I’m further in the book, but I’m still doing the visions. Jesus said He wants me here ‘for a while’. It’s been a few weeks. He told me yesterday to ‘keep doing the visions, they’re important’. I have had tremendous emotional healing thru doing this. God also told me late Dec to “take a flower essence daily, I don’t care which one, just take it every day”. So I have been. I have them all over the house since I make them and it’s the focus of my new book, “Demystifying Frequencies and Flower Essences”. I generally end up with just once a day, but it’s every day.
I believe it’s because of the essence and practicing having the visions that I’m getting so much break through. Yesterday was huge. You can read it on here.
This morning’s vision, was me, at about 6, putting my hand in Jesus’ and we were walking along. I told Him I love holding hands with him. He smiled.
I probably need to back up some. Ana doesn’t cover this in her book. But when I first started with the visions, Jesus spoke, like we do, out loud, with his mouth moving. When I first had the visions, there was food there and drinks. He drinks tea most of the time, not coffee, because He said it’s cleaner and he likes it better. Remember, this is MY vision, it will be different in yours. *I* took that to mean I should drink tea more instead of coffee. I found out later, that wasn’t so. [go read under the link we talk, he and i]. But He Talked OUT LOUD. He SAID he was doing it that way for me, so that I would be comfortable. The food, the cups, talking out loud.
BUT NOW, I see, He’s doing the spirit to spirit talking. That just happened that I noticed, today. 1-12-18. He might have done it before, but I didn’t notice.
Today, when He smiled about me saying I love holding hands with him, he said, ‘that won’t always be so’, but it wasn’t loudly and it wasn’t scary. And He didn’t move his lips. [I’m just not gonna cap the H all the time, he’s not bothered if I don’t]. So we’re walking along and all of a sudden I’m a path, strewn with yellow leaves from a huge tree overhead that is dropping them. It’s FALL! I LOVE kicking leaves and crunching them underfoot. I KNOW Jesus is ahead of me and I’m hurrying to catch up, but enjoying the leaves, how pretty they are, they crunch and it’s just so pretty! I go around the bend in the path, the tree is at the bend and I see Jesus ahead of me, walking along slowly, scuffling thru the leaves, head down, like he’s thinking.
He knows I’m there [cause he’s God]. He turns around and kneels as I run into his arms, out of breath. I was SO happy! Happy He’s there, happy to see him, happy about the leaves. We started walking along, my hand in his. I asked, “why are the leaves yellow”? He said, “because you like them. They’re crunchy too, because you like it”. He smiled at me. “Did you feel the crunch”? “Yes”, I said. “I LIKED it”! I asked, “do the yellow leaves mean something else too”? He said, “yes, but that’s for later”.
I was in bed when I had this vision. Snuggled up under the covers where it was warm. I snuggled deeper because that’s how God makes me feel. Loved, warm and safe.
I am just reveling in the new knowledge I have that I’m average. It sure doesn’t mean to me what it means to most people. It means I don’t have to try [so] hard? No, it means I don’t have to try to be: I don’t have to be someone I’m not, I don’t have to heal anyone, I don’t have to teach anyone, I don’t have to excel at anything, I don’t have to be better than, or smarter than, or richer than, or louder than. I CAN JUST BE ME. OH! what a feeling! THIS is where SELF LOVE comes in to play. THIS is where ‘love your neighbor as yourself’ happens! I am now free, to not only love me, but to BE me.
So when i was in the spa room this morning, there’s still a lot of stuff I haven’t gotten rid of. God smiled and said, “because I know you like concocting things, so it’s still there for you to do, if you want too”.
I don’t have to keep all the stuff for a business. IT”S NOT MY PROBLEM. And since the Bible says I have whatever I say, I’ve been ‘saying’ all morning. I am so happy. I’m so grateful to Jesus/God for setting me free of that HORRIBLE bondage.
I really AM going to enjoy MY life!
I’m just your average Joe. That’s what God just told me in the hot tub. OHMYGOSH! FREEDOM! I had a dream the other nite, you can find it under ‘just my stuff’ the post about ‘i don’t think i can do this’.
I get a tremendous amount of revelation in the hot tub. Water. I’m a water baby. I love water, I thrive with water around me. Hence, I’m in the desert. It’s God’s joke. lol
But, I have a pool and a hot tub. So I can be in hot water wherever I am! LOL I was middling in my brain about that specific post. I have a lot of stuff in there that’s personal. But if there’s one thing I know as much as I know my own name, it’s that God wants me to be transparent. He made me transparent. That’s all I’ve heard for decades is about how transparent I am. [I used to think it was a bad thing, now I just think it’s one of ‘those’ God things] So just now in the hot tub, as I was pondering the dream..clearly President Trump is God, so God blew his trumpet and loudly told a select few, it wasn’t on tv or a press conference, it was on the radio! People LISTEN to a radio, tv they watch and don’t pay a lot of attention too, they hear and don’t pay a lot of attention too. But the radio…people listen to it, because they want too. But only a select group of people listen to the radio. It is THOSE people I reach.
So I say to God, ‘I’m sorry I put that on there about faith, maybe I should take it off. I don’t want to be disrespectful’.
God says, ‘leave it there’.
God, because it helps others
me, but it’s disrespectful
God, not it’s not, it’s saying how you feel
me, who’s going to hear? I’m just your average joe.
God, yes, you are an average joe. People need to see that everyone is the same. Most of the time they see ‘big shots’ that are unattainable and unreachable but they don’t see the realness of life, of walking with me. You are showing others that you ALL think these ways at one time or another. Janine, it’s not so much about you, as it is I want my children at ease, not stressing so much about what they THINK they should do, what they THINK they should act like. You are my vehicle baby girl. You ARE willing. So many aren’t.
Wow, this is huge. HUGE. This, THIS alone, set me free of a LIFETIME of living under the curse of being a perfectionist. I’m an AVERAGE JOE! HOW AWESOME IS THAT? I no longer have to BE what ANYONE thinks I should be. I no longer have to prove ANYTHING to ANYONE at ANY TIME. I can soar with God. I can fly! I can BE.
I can BE. If I’m overweight, SO WHAT! Am I loved anyway? YES! If I’m into herbs and flower essences and rocks and Jesus, SO WHAT! If I live however I want too, SO WHAT! I’M AN AVERAGE JOE!
WHAT A RELIEF! I NO LONGER HAVE TO HAVE STATUS TO BE A PERSON! I NO LONGER HAVE TO BE IMPORTANT IN THE WORLD, I NO LONGER HAVE TO MAKE MY MARK [I already met my goal of helping others with the business I just sold] I no longer have to help others, teach others. I can just BE. I can learn about ME, BE ME, have fun. THIS IS MY YEAR! 2018 is MY health year, MY YEAR.
I AM ÅVERAGE [that’s a halo over the A]
I AM AVERAGE!!!!!!!
God, I need you to let go
Me, I ‘m trying too. I’m trying so hard
God, stop trying, stop trying so hard, Just live, enjoy your life.
Me, but what about all these things I’m SUPPOSED to do, like pray and this and that and the other thing?
G, you’ve taken on more than you should. You said it yourself this morning. You took on things you shouldn’t have. MY yoke is easy Janine, don’t forget that.
Me, but God, I’ve been so disobedient and for so long.
G, yes I know. Did it break me? Did it break the bank?
G, then why stress over it? LET GO AND LET ME. Let me show you the things *I* want to show you, let me take you flying.
Me, rolling my eyes – there it is again
G, yes, there it is. Again. Janine, let go. Let go let go let go. Get that book of Gloria Copeland’s. Just LIVE your life, ENJOY your life. Don’t you think I AM can handle it and you? Don’t you think I AM can do what I’ve called you to do? Don’t you think I CAN?
Me. I dunno. I guess so, I guess not. I guess if I’m trying so hard, I’m not trusting
G, exactly. LET GO. It will come to you. Stop shoulding on yourself. Let go. Want to go for a ride? Go. Want to speak in tongues? Do. Want to listen to loud music? Do. LET GO
You have lived bottled up inside yourself all your life, for so long. I have taken the cork off but you keep putting it back on! Stop with that! Let your essence out of the bottle, the smell of you, the aroma of you, the joy of you, the laughter of you, the LOVE of you. Oh Janine, I have given you so much love to be given away. Just don’t abuse it.
G, Janine, baby, look up.
Me, I did, eyes opened
G, what do you see?
Me, the ceiling
G, what do you want to see?
Me, you, your angels, neat stuff in the spirit world.
G, how do you see it?
Me, I dunno, close my eyes?
G, keep them open, how can you have an open eye vision if they are closed?
G, when you least expect it, it will happen when you least expect it. This summer, this summer, I want you free as a bird. No cares, no worries, nothing holding you down.
Me, you’ll have to fix it so it’s that way.
G, I know. But YOU have to LET GO of control, fear, ties to the earth.
Me, ties to the earth???? Looking quizzically
G, yep. You want, you‘ve prayed, you’ve asked for, I see your heart. LET GO so you can SOAR so you can FLY with me.
Gd, stop putting on yourself that which you THINK I want you to do. I said that about the tea in the vision because that’s how *I* like it, not because YOU have to drink tea.
Me, I thought everything you say is a teaching thing I should do?
G, not always, sometimes we just talk. I just talk to you. Lighten up Janine. Remember the 2 yo. Remember how strong she is?
Me is? Not WAS?
G, no, is. She’s a part of you. You take her with you WHEREVER you go. You remember she is with you. If she can fight off the devil, so can you. Remember that.
Me, God, people have said to me that it’s odd to hear God as much as I do. Is it?
G, no, not when you’re listening. Not when it’s your predispensation.
G, certain things for certain people. Special gifts for those that chose to follow the hard path.
Me, Really?? COOL!
G, ask S what her’s is. [I did, she didn’t answer]
Me, but you’ve ALWAYS talked to me like this!
G, because I’ve always known which path you would follow. I MADE you my girl. Remember? LOLOL
Me, yes. 🙂 but what about free will?
G, Janine when you first came to me, you told me things and released your whole self to me, you completely let me in. oh sure, you have your own will, which you’ve exercised time and again haven’t you?
G, but like David, I know your heart. I know the heart of those that have been chosen to go down the hard path.
Me, if I was chosen, then how come you asked me if I wanted too?
G, because it’s always better to go willingly, as I’ve told you before. Willingly means you’re WITH me on this, you are aware and your heart and eyes are open, as opposed to hearing later, when not as much could be done. All in my time girl, all in my time.
1-9-18. Yep, it’s been a while since I posted. Instead of going thru why, I’m just gonna post. Besides, I mostly am writing to God or myself anyway.
God, I’m not sure I can do this. I know I told You I would go forward with you in 2013, but at this point, I’m not sure I can. But I can’t go back. I am stuck.
This path you have me on, these flower essences and frequencies, this book You wanted me to write. It all feels like I’m reading things into things. I DO know YOU called things that were not, into being. But this isn’t like that. This is reading what *I* think it is, into it.
God, don’t you trust me to speak to you thru my Spirit?
Me, apparently not. I KNOW that you direct me even when I don’t know it. But are you doing this ALL the time? Noooo, Because if you were, I would not make so many mistakes. I mean, really God. You tell me SO MANY things and first off, it’s SO enlightening and exciting, but second, it’s FRIGHTENING to a person who is a lot more grey now, but still, the black and white rears it’s head. Like yesterday, in our convo, I guess I may as well put the whole thing here. Seriously God, I am really upset with You that You tell me to STILL put my personal stuff online. I think I’m just upset at this whole thing.
So yesterday, 1-8-18 [no, the number is not lost on me] and btw, that prophetic word Mike Maiden gave me in 2004 about the number 18, what does THAT mean??
“struggling with fear and mindsets.
me, what about dealing with all these new agers? How am I supposed to differentiate?
God, you don’t.
me, what labels do I put on it?
God, no label, not everything has to have a label, some things just ARE
me, then how do I understand it?
God, go with the flow. Set yourself free, stop putting a fence around yourself. *I* don’t do that to you. YOU do that to you. You agree with the devil and allow a fence to be put around you because you fear. You fear because you were born in sin and that’s what people do. They fear instead of fly.
LORD! how are we supposed to FLY if we have all this fear in and around us?
God, By trust. In Me.
me, how are we supposed to GET there?
God, surrendering to me. Flowers, plants, nature, commune with nature. Those other people are not so far off Janine, it’s who they are worshipping, not what they are doing. “
That, right there. God, you tell me stuff like that and it blows me away, freaks me out, I TRY, you KNOW I try. ‘not what they are doing’. God, seriously. I get that YOU think I’m the right person for this. I get that YOU take the stubborn and stupid to do those things that YOU want us to do, so YOU get the glory. I’m good with that. Except I think that doing this, I’m reading things into it. What if it’s not you? What if I’m wrong in a BIG way? Yep, fear. You betcha. [ maybe I should rename this blog, ‘notes from the stubborn and stupid’. *rueful grin*]
I KNOW I said I’ll fly with You, I’ll soar with You. I’ll have no fear. I’ve done fairly well, Until yesterday. I’m overwhelmed with trying to do things the way I think You’ve told me to do AND loosen up and have fun.
So the rest of our chat? What brought this all up? The dream I woke up with. [ I want it on record God, that I greatly dislike putting my ‘stuff’ out there. If I dared to be blatantly disobedient, I would be. I know I’ll get over this, At some point]
The Trump Dream
I was at the White House. I had a female friend with me. She had dark hair. We were walking down a wide hall on the second floor. There was a guy walking toward us, it was “Jay” from Madam Secretary. I wanted him to like me, but he liked my friend and I was more interested meeting the President of the United States, so that was ok.
We were in the Presidents office. he came in. We talked a bit. It was very informal.
I wanted to be remembered for something. I wanted other people to know I had been there. I went up to where he was sitting and massaged his shoulders. There was a place that he found was painful on his side, by his ribs, when I massaged it. He was surprised it was there.
I asked if he liked the massage, he shrugged and said yes.
It was time to leave, although none of we visitors wanted too. President Trump had to get back to work. The gal friend had on, at this point, a maroon coat and a maroon, knitted, slouch hat. ‘Jay’ had on a very dark green, knitted, slouch hat. It was winter outside. There was snow on the ground, the trees were bare and white. It was cold.
We all were walking down a wide hallway. We were laughing, the President would smile every so often. I asked President Trump for something from the White House, like a match book or something, so people would know that I had been there. He kept walking, not saying anything. He went down the wide staircase. We all went with him.
President Trump knew I was afraid to fly and he was trying to get my mind off of it. He showed us the snack place. It was at the bottom of the stairs, there was a popcorn machine, the red and white kind, on a stand, off to the right. It had fresh popcorn in it and round bins of all different flavors, sweet and savory. I knew I couldn’t have the popcorn due to what it does to my gut, so I went into a room on the left. In here were all kinds of stuff. Coffees, sodas, but what caught my eye were all the chocolates. The finest chocolates in the world were in here. I started putting handfuls in my purse. Even though I knew I shouldn’t have sugar. I did it anyway. Then after I filled up my purse, I looked at it and thought, ‘I can’t even eat all that, I need to take it out’.
But before I could take it out, President Trump got us all together, he was trying to get us shooed out. I was trying to take a selfie with him and get him to laugh. Its rare that people aren’t laughing when they are with me. He was so tall. The gal friend and ‘Jay’ were laughing it up over their antics on the left side of Trump, I was on his right side. Then I said something that he thought was funny or something happened he thought was funny and he started laughing and he really loosened up. That’s when i got the selfie with him. He was bent over at the shoulders, toward me, laughing with me.
I asked him if he would say something in public about me the next time he was in public, so people would know that I’ve been there. I wasn’t sure he had heard me, but I knew he had heard me.
When I was home I heard on the radio President Trump said, “Janine has faith”.
I thought it would be on tv or a press conference. It was on the RADIO of all places! I thought it was odd but that’s what he said and that’s where he said it. I wondered how in the world did he know I have faith or not? And why did he say THAT as opposed to something else?
The day went downhill from when God said, ‘it’s not what they are doing, it’s who they are worshipping’. I thought I figured out a lot of the dream. I don’t eat stuff that physically hurts me, but i do eat stuff that hurts me, but I don’t feel it or see it. Sugar is bad for the bones. I need bone growth. [yes, I’m standing on His Word, even that was brought into this mess yesterday] So I do things I know I shouldn’t, disregarding their effects on me. The flesh is weak. Apparently I only pay attention to those things I can see and feel.
So my prayer was, ‘Father deliver me from mindsets of fear. Fear to step out, fear to FLY with You. I knew it was NOT fear of flying in an airplane, cause I’m not. I’m afraid to fly with God. Which means I’m not trusting Him.
I have fear of FREEDOM. [gads what kind of revelation is THAT???] Fear of making a mistake. fear of people, putting more stock in people’s thought of me, than of God’s thoughts of me.
Right before I went to sleep on 1-5-18, this is what God said to me: Helping people to have visions, see themselves in the room with God, with Jesus, and Jesus healing their little ones. Using flower essences, guided imagery.
I freaked out. I actually said on my note I wrote [in evernote]. oh my God. [I never say that]
I also remembered when I went out back to sit in the rocker, I had had another dream. That dream was that the HUGE passion flower vine I have in my backyard was completely bare of leaves. Completely.
Then I did a freak out on text to someone. “Is there REALLY enough TIME left to take ME from where I am to where He wants me????? To where YOU are???? Do I HEAR well enough? Can I get PAST the mindsets? Can I? Is it possible to counter the rigidity of Christianity? [other people, not me ] And who the hell am I to think ANYONE will listen to me? Where in the world do I fit in NOW?
Once I publish a book, or write on a blog or open my mouth, it’s gonna be all over but the shoutin’. Oh, my, God.
This word that I got from a gal on facebook on 1-5-18: “As I prayed and asked Holy Spirit to show me something for you, this is what I got. I saw in a field you dancing and praising the Lord. Then I saw a dandelion all in seed. I heard the Lord say Blow on it my Daughter and the seeds that you plant will go far and wide. Not to underestimate your words. I am the one that carries them on the wind to many places. You are a planter of many seeds. Your harvest is plentiful. Look into my face and see the joy you bring me. You are my beloved and I am yours. Be filled with Joy this day. For my joy is your strength and I will provide all that you have need of. As you walk and talk with me I will show you many things. Get ready for your harvest. You have planted many seeds.
And I’ve been under attack ever since without realizing it was an attack. I _must_ remember that ‘what if’ is fear. That anything negative in my head, is not God. It’s me or the enemy. If it’s me, then it’s fear and fear is the enemy, so it all goes back to – it’s the enemy or it’s God. I’m the pawn. Why would I ever think bad things of myself? [besides being wired too because of my past, but that’s different]. The Bible says we are the pawns. Ephesians 3:10 New Living Translation: God’s purpose in all this was to use the church [people are the church, NOT a building!] to display his wisdom in its rich variety to all the unseen rulers and authorities in the heavenly places. That makes us pawns. Pawns with a Purpose. PWAP. I’m a PWAP
So the upshot of all this? no leaves on the vine – passion is gone, healing is gone. [no idea, just trying for something]. Trump dream, I have faith. That and 2 bits will get me a hair cut. I need bone growth in my jaw. [yes yes, i hear myself].
wow. I think the cat is out of the bag now. Re-reading this for proofing. I might as well publish the book, write the blog and start talking it. I already walk it.