How She Thinks

Thinking of Moving to Pocatello Idaho?

Are you thinking of moving to Pocatello or Chubbuck Idaho? Get a new job with the FBI or one of the other companies? Do you want to know what it’s like? Here is a brief synopsis. If you want to discuss this, head on over to facebook and join the group, ‘New To Pocatello’. 

These are my observations in the 6 weeks I’ve been here:

There is a difference between moving here for a job and just moving here. I just moved here.

I miss being able to call a plumber, an electrician, a tile guy that glues vinyl flooring down, ANYONE that wants to work. I miss a pest control guy that charges a reasonable $36 for spraying the outside AND inside.

Here they charge $89 and up and only spray the outside.

Because there are so many houses going up, there is no one that wants to work on the small jobs homeowners/renters have. At least that’s how someone put it. 

If you are handy, you can do a lot your self, if not, you are at the mercy of someone who doesn’t want to work/doesn’t want the job.

People move here from everywhere else, mostly cities that are larger than here. They EXPECT professionalism and professionals to do the jobs they are hired for. There isn’t much of that in Pocatello/Chubbuck.

EVERYONE has at least one dog. Most have 3. They do not control the barking. Some people have cats and let them roam your yard, so YOUR dog goes nuts.

A nice house is hard to find in a decent price range. That’s if you’re coming from somewhere that is not the affluent areas of D.C., or California, etc. They are building houses like crazy and people are buying before the house is finished or landscaped. In the $350K range. MANY houses have basements that are not finished.

The caveat on the basement is: If it has even one small corner that is not finished, you won’t be taxed on it. However many of the houses built in 2012 are completely unfinished.

Many houses are right next to the railroad. There is one railroad engineer that must feel it’s his duty to blow the whistle for LONG periods of time around 4 a.m.

There is snow here. It gets to -25 some days I’m told. The growing zone is 6A and 6B. Right now it’s Oct 13, 2018 and it’s cold. I’m from Phoenix, Arizona, this is cold at 45F.

Probably the two single biggest problems here are that every ‘professional’ says, ‘I’m so busy, I’m so busy’, and they never get your job done. EVEN if they say, as one did to me, “I won’t let you down”.

The other is the lack of decent houses. People put their homes for sale and do not paint a neutral color. You will see walls that are bright green, red, purple, black. They want to sell their home but don’t clean it up even for photos. I’ve never seen such behavior in my life.

Lilacs. They are everywhere in spring. Gorgeous, aromatic. Spring flowers everywhere. Great fishing I’m told. Great hunting. Lots of trees and water. But you pay for water here. Which is just so odd to me. We paid in Az, but that’s a State that isn’t overflowing with rivers of water.

Veterans Affairs in South East Idaho. There is a small clinic that basically does nothing. For anything, you have to drive the 2.75 hours to the VA hospital in Salt Lake City. They have no podiatry, no optometrist even. That’s not even not an eye DOCTOR, that’s an optometrist. Yep, I have a cataract presently in my left eye, thru which I can see nothing.

The VA in their wisdom think it’s best to send a half blind Vet on a 3 hr drive to get her eyes checked. EVEN though I have just had it done in Costco out of my own pocket in July. Yep. No matter what it is you need, other than drawing blood, you will have to drive to SLC. It ticks me off.

BUT! I discovered after the fact, that they will put you in lodging either the night before or the night after your appt so you don’t have to drive so far in one day. NO ONE at the local #PocatelloVA clinic told me that when I complained about having to drive so far. [you know I was ticked off huh?] More to come on the group. The group is pretty new, hope this link works. But you have the name of it, New To Pocatello .

 

Brain-washing

10-9-2018

Brain-washing. We think we know it all. We think we have the answers to everything. We think we can figure it all out or learn everything we don’t know. Some minds are not able to understand some things. Our minds are malleable. Our brain is, in essence, our mind.

brain washing

The most tender part of our whole being is our mind. It can be changed, it can be taught, it can be swayed, it can be persuaded.

Our mind houses our feelings and emotions, which is the heart.

Our mind houses our will. It’s where we are strong or weak-willed. Strong willed is doing things my way, whether or not its the right way. Weak-willed is doing things someone else’s way, without thinking it through. Not standing up for oneself.

Our mind houses where we think, how we think and if we think.

Our brain houses a portion of our spirit. Our human spirit is our personality, it’s where the dna gets passed down, which is then fed to other parts of our being.

When something is repeated often enough, some call it ‘brain washing’. It is normally seen as a bad thing because of those that have done it with evil intent to others. Think Patty Hearst, [robbing a bank], Jim Jones [drink the kool aid], Charles Manson [getting people to murder].

It’s why the military wants to train someone when they’re young, to train their minds to do what they are repeatedly told to do. It’s how cults are able to take people that are weak-willed, no matter what their age.

People that are vulnerable, without money, need love, searching for something they didn’t have as a child. Many times people are so weak in their minds, they can be taught to go places and do things they wouldn’t normally do.

It’s how foreign governments get people do spy for them and do their dirty work. Because people want prestige, money, ultimately because they are weak-willed.

In truth, it’s a twisting of something good. We all know things that are twisted out of context. Twisted out of the shape they were meant to be. Be it a sweater after it’s washed, or words that we didn’t ‘mean that way’, we have all experienced things being twisted.

brain=mind

The real term is called ‘washing your mind’ or ‘renewing your mind’. We need to ‘wash our minds’ every day. Wash our minds in the morning to gain a fresh outlook and wash them at night, to wash away things of the world we tend to dwell on.

There is only one thing with which we can wash our minds in a positive way and come away feeling helped, renewed and refreshed. That’s reading the Bible. To ourselves silently or out loud. We wash our minds when we read. We renew our minds when we listen to the Bible being read out loud.

The Bible is the only book that can teach, enlighten, comfort and point the way to goodness. The book that records what went on thousands of years ago, written down so everyone can know and benefit from its’ teachings. Reading the Bible takes the earthly world out of our heart and replaces it with the Spiritual world where Jesus is, allowing light and truth to enter to enrich our lives. Reading the Bible every morning and every night, renews hope, shows us how to think and what to think. It shows us ways of seeing things through a lens that isn’t clouded with deceit, lies and twisted emotions. It unravels anything twisted that came in during the day, showing us the path that is straight. It washes off and out the difficult, washing in the good, pleasant and comforting things.

Romans 12:2A [‘a’ means the first part’] says, “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think.” This is what the Bible calls ‘washing your mind in the Word’.

The term ‘brain-washing’ is a twisted version of what is meant to be good for us. It turns a positive into a negative. I propose there is no ‘brain washing’, however there IS ‘mind washing’.

If we meditate on what the Bible says, if we think about it and read the Bible first thing in the morning, the truth in it will permeate our minds and our memories. This will enable our minds to bring to the fore the positive things that are noble and good when bad things happen.

If we wash our minds every day and every night, there will come a time that the first thing out of our mouths when we stub our toe or get scared will be something good. Because it will be something we have spent time thinking about and putting in our brains. Washing our minds.

Brain-washing is bad. Washing our minds in the Word is good. Both can happen, but let’s not confuse one with the other. Whichever one we do or allow to be done to us, whichever one is fed more, is the one that will determine our behavior. 

What we plant & water, Grows

7.8.18 Bridges

When we are not with the Lord every day in the morning, [or whenever your day starts], then a bridge, a wall, starts to be built up across the bridge that is built between us.
We have to do this at the start of every day, because that’s the armor of God on us to deal with whatever comes at us that day.  What we put into our heads at the beginning of our day, determines what will guide us during the day. Especially in the finer points of the day. Like when we are angry, or someone cuts us off on the road.
We have to renew our minds in the Word every day. It washes our minds free of clutter. Renews our mind and our spirit with good things. This enables us to think more clearly and to have a chance to act and react in a godly way.
When we spend time with the Lord every day, a bridge is built between us and Him. This is the bridge of praise, worship and prayer. When we miss even one day, essentially what it does is it puts a rock in the entryway of that bridge. The more we miss, the higher the rocks are piled. Until sometimes, it becomes a wall.
That’s why, when we miss a day of being with the Lord, it seems harder to get back with him the day after, or the week after.
It’s because the bridge between us and him has been blocked with rocks and other debris of the world. 
All we have to do is praise him, spend time in worship and prayer. Talk with him, Listen to him. he definitely listens to us!
The bridge between us and Jesus is also the bridge over which our prayers travel and over which answers are released.
Every time someone prays, no matter who it’s for or what it’s about, a spiritual bridge is built. It’s to whom that prayer is sent that matters.
To have a bridge full of love and life, one must be a follower of Jesus. 
To have a clutter-free bridge, one must pray, read their Bible and spend time with the Lord, daily. This strengthens the bridge and keeps it open. 

Living WITH Fear, Not Under It.

on 7.26.18 I realized…

I realized, I have been living with fear. Not under fear. But with it.
Under fear, means there’s an oppression pushing you down. With fear, means that you’re trying to push through to the belief side. You keep trying and you keep trying, and you get there a little bit. But there’s still that niggling fear. That niggling question.
Creflo Dollar is doing a series on living under the Covenant. He explains in part 6, what the old Covenant is and what the new covenant is. I just watched it like 3 days ago and today is July 26th, 2018. I realized, that I’m under the New Covenant AND what it means!
When people have explained things about the Covenant, they always attached this fear on to it, saying ‘oh those old laws are done away with, but, you’ve got all these other rules, and laws, that you have to do. You don’t just have to love, you have to give everything you own to somebody else if they want it.’ That’s how I heard it.
It’s not just filters I haven’t had, it’s balance. I have wanted for years and years and years, to have an RV and drive around the country and see the different parts of the country. I’ve been to Germany, Italy, France.
I want to see the United States, visit museums, see the Everglades, ( not the alligators) lol.
but I’ve been fearful. I’ve been living with fear, trying to battle through fear. 
I figured at the end of my life I would say well I couldn’t afford an RV, so I didn’t do it. But that was living with fear.
Under the New Covenant, because I have accepted what Jesus did on the cross, I am covered by the blood. The blood of Jesus, that he shed on the cross.
This blood is alive. It will always be alive! It’s what removes sin from our lives when we ask the Lord to forgive us. It’s powerful!
Because I am under the blood, all the things that Jesus went to the cross for, are mine. That blood takes away my sins, and it also takes away sicknesses, diseases, afflictions.
Most people say and teach, the blood takes away sins. I’ve never heard anyone teach the blood also heals us of sicknesses and diseases that afflict us.
And it DOES!
The blood. It’s the blood that Jesus shed. It’s because Jesus was the only faithful one. God made a covenant between him, and Jesus. Who is the Son of God, and who is the son of man. It is a great mystery, however it is a great truth!
God did not make this second Covenant, with man. The first Covenant, was perfect, and no one could keep it. And God made that Covenant between him and mankind. But the second Covenant, the one that is lasting and forever, the one he knew he was going to make, was between him, and his son, his faultless, sinless, son. The only faithful one. 
The blood never fails.
People sin. People fulfill the lusts of their flesh. 
People are disobedient. People are not perfect. The blood is perfect.
The blood never fails. People fail in their understanding. People fail in their thinking. People fail in their perceptions. People fail. The blood never fails. The blood never fails. If someone is not healed, it’s not because of Jesus.
The blood never fails. It is perfect. Perfectly healing. Perfectly delivering. Perfect in love, mercy, forgiveness.
The love of Jesus, is unfailing. It’s thru his blood.
I am excited now, to get rid of my stuff and get a van, and tour the United States of America. For a year, maybe two. The blood never fails. Since God is for me, who can be against me?
No weapon formed against me shall gain the upper hand or prosper.
Because I am under the blood, and the blood never fails.

Bridges Between Jesus and Us

When we are not with the Lord everyday in the morning, then a bridge a wall starts to be built up across the bridge that is built between us.
we have to get with the Lord in the morning, or whenever our day starts, because that is the start of our day.
What we put in our heads at the very beginning of our day, determines what will guide us the during the day. Especially in the finer points of the day. Like when we are angry, or someone cuts us off on the road.
We have to renew our minds in the word everyday. It washes our minds free of clutter. And renews our mind and our spirit with good things, which enables us to think more clearly, and to have a chance to act and react, and a godly way.
When we spend time with the Lord everyday a bridge is built between us and him.
This is essentially, the bridge of praise, worship, and prayer.
When we miss even one day, essentially what it does is it puts a rock in the entryway of that bridge. The more we miss, the higher the rocks are piled. Until sometimes, it becomes a wall.
That’s why, when we miss a day of being with the Lord, it seems harder to get back with him the day after, or the week after.
It’s because the bridge between us and him has been blocked with rocks and other debris of the world.
All we have to do, is praise him, spend time in worship, and in prayer. Talk with him. Listen to him. He definitely listens to us!
The bridge between us and Jesus is also the bridge over which our prayers travel and over which answers are released. 
Every time someone prays, no matter who it’s for or what it’s about – as long as it’s to God – a spiritual bridge is built. 
To strengthen the bridge, one must accept or have accepted Jesus as their Savior. Then pray, read the Bible, praise him. 
This strengthens the bridge. Keeps the bridge open.

Parallel Universes

The Lord and I are having ‘sessions’ these days. This is where he and one of my no-longer-wounded-usually parts, talk and he teaches her. Most of the time they don’t know Jesus. It’s been a wild ride Mr. Toad. In these, Jesus is my Daddy. He’s not ‘God’, he’s my Daddy. He is giving me a story, called The Cork Road and he’s giving me lessons in and outside the story. Since no one taught me anything growing up, he is teaching all of us now. One age at a time. 

Yesterday morning, 7/11/18, he was telling…let me back up a bit. I am now at 8 yrs old. We’ve been thru the other ages. Eight has proven to be extremely traumatic. I have also been at this age longer than the other ages. Eight is when everything culminated. Abandonment, neglect, all those things. I won’t bore you.

In these times with Daddy, I ask questions. There is a backstory to all this, of course, but I’m not going there now. Yesterday I was asking what worship is and if it’s better to pray out loud or in my head? 

He said, “You can pray in your head. Anytime. But if you’re talking to the devil, since you have a voice, you need to use it out loud. The only way you can speak to him, is out loud. If you have a voice. If you don’t have a voice, if you are deaf, then you sign it.

Claiming my promises? Out loud. If you have a voice, it is best to do it out loud for the promises and binding and such. If you are praying in tongues? You can do that in your head or out loud, you can pray in your head or out loud.”

“THANK YOU JESUS!”

“My pleasure my girl.”

The next bit was on worship. It’s long and I won’t put it here. It’s really interesting though. He had me look up definitions and tell him what they said and what I thought they meant. So at the end of it, I asked, ‘so Daddy, what is worship?’

“What do you think it is baby girl?”

“Well Daddy, from what I read, I think worship is studying your word like we just said. And I think it’s loving on you. Telling you how wonderful you are and great you are and all that. And also being obedient. And being aware of you. That’s really hard, to be aware of you all the time. Do you know that?”

“Yes baby, I do.”

“I think worship is being mindful of you in my life and acting on that instead of..whoa! Wait a minute God! If that’s the case, then if I say something from your word, or positive, but really, from your word – when something bad happens? Then that means I’m worshiping you, right?”

“Yes baby. You have a very good mind Janine. You are a very intelligent young lady.”

[he calls me Janine when he’s talking to ALL of us] {{I get this might be weird for you, but just flow with it}}.

He called me a young lady! I’m smiling all over the place and I sat up straight.

So that was yesterday morning. Last nite/wee hours of this morning, I have a huge recollection of something. I realize that what I thought before, was me thinking thru my feelings. This remembrance gave me clarity thru my mind, not my feelings. There is a difference. With feelings, you only think it was that way, or you feel it was that way, when it may not have been. It’s kinda like perception – thru feelings. I’m pretty sure you, the reader ‘gets it’.

But this memory recollection, took me down the path of remembering a WHOLE LOT more and realizing, my memories from my feelings WERE accurate and I saw just how accurate they were.

I was sobbing. Absolutely sobbing. I was floored that not only were my feelings accurate, there was so much more and it was all accurate. I KNEW I needed to respond well from the lesson that morning.

Because I was in the middle of all these feelings, there are only so many scriptures that will come up in my memory. I was also eight years old during some of this, as well as the current age.

I gave the only scriptures I knew. I am the apple of his eye. He loves me with an unfailing love. I am the apple of his eye.

I KNEW from what he told me earlier that I needed to speak positive things from his word. Not just ‘positive things’, but from his word. And I knew I had to forgive. I did. I forgave everything of this person [my mother] that I could think of.

Today I see a deeper truth. It’s like we are all in parallel universes. If we response from our flesh, our anger, that is the devil side. If we respond with the word of God, that is the God side. IF we respond to ANYTHING in our flesh, we will walk in that universe and reap the results. If we respond from the God side, we will walk in that universe and things will be different.

I was on the precipice last nite. However as an 8 yr old, I’m more inclined to do things how Daddy says, because I’m not all tainted with the flesh yet. I spoke the word in both ages. I forgave and today…toDAY, I am slightly in shock. But if I had responded thru the flesh, I would be numb.

We all walk in parallel universes. We can choose which outcome we want in our lives. 

Demons On The Doorstep

While in prayer today, 4-5-18, the Lord said when we judge someone else, the demons of that person are allowed to stay on our doorstep. They are allowed to attach to us, because we are agreeing with evil.

We are not to judge another. We are to forgive everyone. Even if they do something really bad or mean against us, we are to forgive them. To judge another person is to throw God off His throne and tell Him we can do it.

That’s like saying, I can fly this jet and take over the controls, even though we’ve never had pilot lessons. So you’re up in the air and then what?

As a human, it is our right to judge. But as a child of God, it is not our right to judge. We are to give our rights, all of them, to God. Let Him do what He needs to do, what He wants to do. Yes! It’s hard! NO! It’s not impossible!

We cannot leave bad reviews on a website about person or business, unless we have been released by God to do so. When we do that, we are then putting that person in prison, through judgement. Other people, Christian or not, read the bad reviews, then they will judge that person or business, from that review. Then it continues to exacerbate the problem and it becomes a huge problem to unravel. 

This is exactly how Satan runs this world. He gets at the underlying problems. Once there is this huge ball of judgement, it affects everyone involved. Demons are allowed on our doorstep, they are allowed to be in our homes and attach to us because we have judged another.

I repented for a lot of stuff. I took reviews off Yelp. I do not want to be agreeing with the devil in anything. I release it all to God, HE can take care of it.  

Do You Think It’s Gone?

Do you think it’s gone? Do you think because you are this age, that your childhood is gone and you can’t get it back? Do you say to yourself or God, “I can’t re-do it! I can’t get it back. what do I do”? Do you think you are lost or too far gone in any way? PLEASE stop thinking that way. Try to stop thinking that way. Try for yourself. If you follow Jesus , there is nothing further from the truth.

I know this because for the past 3-4 months, Jesus/God has been teaching my little ones. I better explain that. We are all made up of the ages we grew up through. And, if something bad happened to you at a certain age, that will create what is called a “wounded part”.  This wounded part has it’s own personality, it’s own anger, it’s own fear, it’s own attitude. Usually these wounded parts are trying to help the core person in some way, in ways they think are appropriate. But rarely is it appropriate. 

Some people call them alternate personalities, but that’s a scary term to my little ones. Besides they weren’t ‘alternate personalities’ because they never shut down reality for my core person and acted on their own. So, they are wounded parts. They are wounded little ones. [Others call them fragments, but mine are all people and they are real, they are not a fragment. That’s me, you can call them whatever your heart wants too]. I had a lot of wounded parts. I went through inner healing and deliverance for 9 or 10 yrs. I’ll probably write a book on it one day. 😉 

Some of my back story sucks. Let me say this and I think you’ll understand. My parents had one child, my sister. My mother wanted another child. It was me. But all she wanted was another child. She didn’t want to raise it. So she didn’t. My dad taught me some stuff, different times when she would send me away to live with him or my grandmother. Needless to say – I didn’t learn the things kids with one or two caring adults in their lives learn. I didn’t really ‘raise myself’, cause I didn’t know anything. This has made my life exceedingly difficult to get through. I managed in some areas, others have been sorely lacking. 

I read Ana Werner’s book, “The Seer’s Path. In it she has us do an exercise to start seeing in the spirit. I’m already a seer, so that wasn’t hard. However, when I started this, I met with Jesus and He told me ‘this is going to take a while, are you willing to sit with me and do this’? I said yes. LITTLE knowing what it would entail.

So what is Jesus doing?

He’s taking me through each age and healing and teaching. DON”T THINK something can’t be undone!! IT CAN BE. Thru Jesus. I am now at 7 years old. I just transferred to 7 from 6 last week, March, 23, 2018 to be exact. That’s also when I learned, as a 6-7 yr old, that God is real, He’s not a figment of my imagination. I do hear Him and He really, really loves me. I know He loves me because He’s listening to me. He’s answering my questions, He never once has told me to shut up, or stop talking or stop asking questions. That’s love. 

Always happy girl

He has taught me so many things already. Some of them He’s taught by words and some by, the only way to say it, is osmosis. He’s teaching me things underneath the words and lessons. I know this, because I am acting and speaking differently than before. As an adult.

I want to encourage you to never think your past is done and can’t be undone. It CAN be undone with and through Jesus. There are stories Jesus wants to write with others. You may be one. Those who have had a bad childhood, no matter whose fault it was, no matter the reasons why. It could have been just a short space of time or a long space of time. Since 99% of people come from a dysfunctional home, I would guess you had something rough in your life. Jesus wants to sit with you and He wants you to come to Him and take the time to listen and write your story. It will take time. He wants to be with me every day, to tell the story. This is besides prayer time. When I am in this stage, I actually regress to that age and sound like a kid. 

I will start posting installments of the story. Now mind you. I have this blog because God told me to put my personal journal online, that it will help others. So when I post the installments, some of them are just lessons, a part of the story. Yep, I’m gonna let you in on all the ‘stuff’. I will put it under the category of The Cork Road. Because that’s what Jesus calls the story, The Cork Road.

I promise you, if you take the time to sit and be still with the Lord, to envision yourself with Jesus at a table [what does the table look like? what do you see around you?], to talk with Him, to spend time with Him and I’m talking time, not 5 or 10 minutes, but 30 or more; He will give you a story. He will heal your little ones. It just takes one step and it has to start with you. 

There is POWER in Our Hands!

3-23-18 Wednesday, Praying Medic was speaking at Prepare the Way International. He spoke on a LOT of things, one of them was power and authority. So I’m looking up ‘how to release the power’. I found this on the power in our hands
 
I sure hope it blesses someone else as much as it has blessed and enlightened me. This explains SO MUCH to me. WHY I feel a tingling in my hands and WHY I feel heat sometimes and why sometimes I don’t feel heat, but others do.
WHY the enemy tried to take me out by falling face first on the concrete, and both my hands breaking.
 
It explains WHY I can feel pain sometimes in people’s bodies and WHY I can feel the frequencies in plants. man oh man oh man.

Bridge People prophecy

3-22-18 God has assigned and is assigning different people to be bridges between generations. These people have thought they don’t fit anywhere. They have felt stuck between two worlds. However! These people are precisely this way. There has not been a mistake. God does not make mistakes.

They are bridges for bringing people from where they are, to a new place. A broader place in the Lord. Forward, onward. Never stagnating. The Lord is stretching these ‘people bridges’. You may feel like plastic wrap, stretched to it’s max. You will not break. As the stretching takes place, you will hold there for a bit, then be stretched again.

The ‘bridge people’ are forerunners, prescients, passionate lovers of God and people. They are a people that God has taken from fearfulness to fearlessness, ever onward and ever being stretched. These ‘bridge people’ will usher in the new wave of the new way God wants to move in. God is wanting His children to come further, come deeper into Him. He is wanting His children to experience more of Him, further, deeper than ever before. This can only be accomplished through letting go of fears and going deeper into God, soaring with Him on the heights of new things.

Issiah 43:19 KJV

19 Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.

DO NOT lose heart my children. Do not lose heart. I AM is with you. I AM will protect you. There is no place you can go, nothing you can do that will separate you from Me. I love you with an everlasting love. I want you to soar with Me. I want you to come to new heights, new depths in Me. You are my own, my very own. I never lose sight of you, you are engraved on the palms of My hands.