I haven’t been updating this blog recently because I’ve been working on my non profit, Doors To Joy, Inc.
The Cork Road story is being published over there. I haven’t yet figured out what I’ll post here and what I’ll post there in the way of revelations and such. The purpose of my life is to be transparent. Gads, the older I get the harder it is to graciously agree with God to do it. Funny, all these years of wondering the purpose of my life in one sentence, and there it is. wow. NOW, this minute 10.52a.m. 1-17-20, I UNDERSTAND what Dad meant when he said *I* am the gift as much as the gifts he gives me to share.
I have SO MANY teachings the Lord has given me in the last year. December 2019 was a prolific month. It had me swirling in confusion, anger and betrayal.
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When God releases blessings or breaks strongholds, it happens over time for many people. For instance 2005 was the year of things coming full circle. The year of breaking old cycles.
But it didn’t start happening for me until 2017.
God is opening up revelation. If we will but spend time with him and get it. That’s where so many fail. Not spending quality AND quantity time with the Lord. It’s not a matter of works, or ‘press in and strive’, it’s a matter of spending daily time with him.
The ultimate irony. JoAnn McFatter said she heard the trees talk to her. I said it was witchcraft. Now, 10 years later, the bushes and flowers talk to me.
Satan had me so bound up in black and white’ism that I couldn’t HEAR the forest for the trees.
Are you sad? Are you depressed? Do you feel like no one loves you or understands you? Do you wish you had at least one good friend?
Were you molested, abused, ridiculed or tormented? Did one of your parents walk away and leave you, whether for a week or forever?
Are you secretly sad? Is your skin a color you wish it weren’t? Do you wish you were smarter, prettier, taller, shorter? Do you want to be loved, accepted, approved and liked?
God wants you to know something.
You are his Princess. He made you on purpose. There is nothing wrong with you.
God is not in control of everyone. There are people in this world that do not acknowledge him as Lord. They are their own god, they do what they want, when they want to do it. You have probably experienced this at some point in your life.
However, God knows your hurt, He sees and He feels your pain. He knows, because he’s felt just the same. There is a beautiful song, written by Dallas Holm that goes like this:
Jesus knows your hurt
“The pain some people bear no one would believe; The hurt that’s sometimes there makes it hard to see That in the darkest hour there is still a way; Listen to these simple words I say;
Jesus knows your hurt, Jesus feels your pain; Jesus knows just how you feel, ’cause He’s felts just the same; Jesus knows your need better than you do; Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you!
Sometimes you feel alone, does He really car? Has He left you all alone, and does He hear your prayer? Well, He has never left you or forsaken you one day; Listen to these simple words I say;
Jesus knows your hurt, Jesus feels your pain; Jesus knows just how you feel, ’cause He’s felts just the same; Jesus knows your need better than you do; Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you! Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you!
Jesus knows your heart, better than you do. And God wants you to know, you are his Princess.
God made you unique. He gave life to you, because He wants you on this earth, fulfilling your life’s destiny. He wants you to have joy and peace and prosperity. He wants us to praise him and glorify him in all we do. He wants us as his family. That’s why He made us!
God loves you
Above all, God wants you to know he loves you. He wants you to know he made you the way you are. He also wants you to know that he, who is the King of Kings, made you and gave you gifts! He made you special.
Sure, there are rough edges on you, just like there are on everyone else in this world. However if you give your heart and life to Jesus, he will make sure you get healed of all the pain you’ve endured. Holy Spirit will smooth the rough edges and heal your heart.
I would guess 99% of people come from dysfunctional families. Women all over the world have been cussed, cursed, used, abused, attacked, screamed at and generally mistreated at the hands of someone in their life.
BUT – God wants you to know who you are. You dear girl, are God’s Princess, his creation, his adored daughter. You are his gift to the world.
He loves you. He’s aware of you. He accepts you just as you are.
You didn’t just happen. You aren’t a mistake. He didn’t mess up when you were created. You weren’t behind a door when beauty and wisdom and patience were handed out. You didn’t come from under a rock and you were not the-last-banana-on-the-boat.
You were created ON PURPOSE – BY GOD
Our Father made you the way you are. You are awesomely and wonderfully made. Gifted, talented and skilled. If you think otherwise, then you are listening to someone else. You my friend, are God’s ‘On Purpose Princess’. To God, you are #1. He loves us all the same, which makes all of us, #1. God does not have favorites. He sees each of us as special. So beautiful, so sweet.
Yessss, some of us don’t feel so sweet or beautiful. We know what we’ve said, we know what we’ve done. We know what’s in our hearts. Well, God does too. And that is the reason He sent Jesus, his Son, to die for us, each of us, on the cross. Jesus took away all our sins and sicknesses. All you have to do is believe it. Why is that all you have to do??? Because the work of having someone die for you, has already been done.
Once you believe Jesus died for you on the cross, you ask him to forgive you of all the sins you have committed. Then ask Him to live in your heart. Take your self off the throne and allow Jesus the Christ to be the Lord of your life.
Once you do this, you will have salvation. That means when your body dies, your spirit will live always with God. Our spirits will always live somewhere, either in hell with the devil or in heaven with God.
If you choose not to do this, God still loves you. The fact that He created you and accepts you is still valid. However it also means you will not go to heaven when your body dies. Only if you believe Jesus died on the cross, shedding his blood, to wipe away the sins of the world, of you, personally, will that get you eternal life in heaven.
He wants you healed. He wants you whole. He wants to give you the plans He has for you. Plans to prosper you, to give you a future and a hope. [found in the Bible, Jeremiah, chapter 29 verse 11 usually written: Jer 29:11 ]
To do this, you need to belong to Him. You need to give your life to Him.
There is no time like the present to ask for forgiveness and accept Jesus as your Savior.
Your crown
And always, always remember, no matter what the devil on your shoulder tells you, no matter what other people may say to you, you shine up that crown, put it on your head and always tell yourself this:
I am GOD’S Princess on purpose. He makes no junk, he loves me as I am. I am the head and not the tail. I have a purpose and I am loved.
Are you thinking of moving to Pocatello or Chubbuck Idaho? Get a new job with the FBI or one of the other companies? Do you want to know what it’s like? Here is a brief synopsis. If you want to discuss this, head on over to facebook and join the group, ‘New To Pocatello’.
These are my observations in the 6 weeks I’ve been here:
There is a difference between moving here for a job and just moving here. I just moved here.
I miss being able to call a plumber, an electrician, a tile guy that glues vinyl flooring down, ANYONE that wants to work. I miss a pest control guy that charges a reasonable $36 for sprayingthe outside AND inside.
Here they charge $89 and up and only spray the outside.
Because there are so many houses going up, there is no one that wants to work on the small jobs homeowners/renters have. At least that’s how someone put it.
If you are handy, you can do a lot your self, if not, you are at the mercy of someone who doesn’t want to work/doesn’t want the job.
People move here from everywhere else, mostly cities that are larger than here. They EXPECT professionalism and professionals to do the jobs they are hired for. There isn’t much of that in Pocatello/Chubbuck.
EVERYONE has at least one dog. Most have 3. They do not control the barking. Some people have cats and let them roam your yard, so YOUR dog goes nuts.
A nice house is hard to find in a decent price range. That’s if you’re coming from somewhere that is not the affluent areas of D.C., or California, etc. They are building houses like crazy and people are buying before the house is finished or landscaped. In the $350K range. MANY houses have basements that are not finished.
The caveat on the basement is: If it has even one small corner that is not finished, you won’t be taxed on it. However many of the houses built in 2012 are completely unfinished.
Many houses are right next to the railroad. There is one railroad engineer that must feel it’s his duty to blow the whistle for LONG periods of time around 4 a.m.
There is snow here. It gets to -25 some days I’m told. The growing zone is 6A and 6B. Right now it’s Oct 13, 2018 and it’s cold. I’m from Phoenix, Arizona, this is cold at 45F.
Probably the two single biggest problems here are that every ‘professional’ says, ‘I’m so busy, I’m so busy’, and they never get your job done. EVEN if they say, as one did to me, “I won’t let you down”.
The other is the lack of decent houses. People put their homes for sale and do not paint a neutral color. You will see walls that are bright green, red, purple, black. They want to sell their home but don’t clean it up even for photos. I’ve never seen such behavior in my life.
Lilacs. They are everywhere in spring. Gorgeous, aromatic. Spring flowers everywhere. Great fishing I’m told. Great hunting. Lots of trees and water. But you pay for water here. Which is just so odd to me. We paid in Az, but that’s a State that isn’t overflowing with rivers of water.
Veterans Affairs in South East Idaho. There is a small clinic that basically does nothing. For anything, you have to drive the 2.75 hours to the VA hospital in Salt Lake City. They have no podiatry, no optometrist even. That’s not even not an eye DOCTOR, that’s an optometrist. Yep, I have a cataract presently in my left eye, thru which I can see nothing.
The VA in their wisdom think it’s best to send a half blind Vet on a 3 hr drive to get her eyes checked. EVEN though I have just had it done in Costco out of my own pocket in July. Yep. No matter what it is you need, other than drawing blood, you will have to drive to SLC. It ticks me off.
BUT! I discovered after the fact, that they will put you in lodging either the night before or the night after your appt so you don’t have to drive so far in one day. NO ONE at the local #PocatelloVA clinic told me that when I complained about having to drive so far. [you know I was ticked off huh?] More to come on the group. The group is pretty new, hope this link works. But you have the name of it, New To Pocatello .
Brain-washing. We think we know it all. We think we have the answers to everything. We think we can figure it all out or learn everything we don’t know. Some minds are not able to understand some things. Our minds are malleable. Our brain is, in essence, our mind.
brain washing
The most tender part of our whole being is our mind. It can be changed, it can be taught, it can be swayed, it can be persuaded.
Our mind houses our feelings and emotions, which is the heart.
Our mind houses our will. It’s where we are strong or weak-willed. Strong willed is doing things my way, whether or not its the right way. Weak-willed is doing things someone else’s way, without thinking it through. Not standing up for oneself.
Our mind houses where we think, how we think and if we think.
Our brain houses a portion of our spirit. Our human spirit is our personality, it’s where the dna gets passed down, which is then fed to other parts of our being.
When something is repeated often enough, some call it ‘brain washing’. It is normally seen as a bad thing because of those that have done it with evil intent to others. Think Patty Hearst, [robbing a bank], Jim Jones [drink the kool aid], Charles Manson [getting people to murder].
It’s why the military wants to train someone when they’re young, to train their minds to do what they are repeatedly told to do. It’s how cults are able to take people that are weak-willed, no matter what their age.
People that are vulnerable, without money, need love, searching for something they didn’t have as a child. Many times people are so weak in their minds, they can be taught to go places and do things they wouldn’t normally do.
It’s how foreign governments get people do spy for them and do their dirty work. Because people want prestige, money, ultimately because they are weak-willed.
In truth, it’s a twisting of something good. We all know things that are twisted out of context. Twisted out of the shape they were meant to be. Be it a sweater after it’s washed, or words that we didn’t ‘mean that way’, we have all experienced things being twisted.
brain=mind
The real term is called ‘washing your mind’ or ‘renewing your mind’. We need to ‘wash our minds’ every day. Wash our minds in the morning to gain a fresh outlook and wash them at night, to wash away things of the world we tend to dwell on.
There is only one thing with which we can wash our minds in a positive way and come away feeling helped, renewed and refreshed. That’s reading the Bible. To ourselves silently or out loud. We wash our minds when we read. We renew our minds when we listen to the Bible being read out loud.
The Bible is the only book that can teach, enlighten, comfort and point the way to goodness. The book that records what went on thousands of years ago, written down so everyone can know and benefit from its’ teachings. Reading the Bible takes the earthly world out of our heart and replaces it with the Spiritual world where Jesus is, allowing light and truth to enter to enrich our lives. Reading the Bible every morning and every night, renews hope, shows us how to think and what to think. It shows us ways of seeing things through a lens that isn’t clouded with deceit, lies and twisted emotions. It unravels anything twisted that came in during the day, showing us the path that is straight. It washes off and out the difficult, washing in the good, pleasant and comforting things.
Romans 12:2A [‘a’ means the first part’] says, “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think.” This is what the Bible calls ‘washing your mind in the Word’.
The term ‘brain-washing’ is a twisted version of what is meant to be good for us. It turns a positive into a negative. I propose there is no ‘brain washing’, however there IS ‘mind washing’.
If we meditate on what the Bible says, if we think about it and read the Bible first thing in the morning, the truth in it will permeate our minds and our memories. This will enable our minds to bring to the fore the positive things that are noble and good when bad things happen.
If we wash our minds every day and every night, there will come a time that the first thing out of our mouths when we stub our toe or get scared will be something good. Because it will be something we have spent time thinking about and putting in our brains. Washing our minds.
Brain-washing is bad. Washing our minds in the Word is good. Both can happen, but let’s not confuse one with the other. Whichever one we do or allow to be done to us, whichever one is fed more, is the one that will determine our behavior.
I realized, I have been living with fear. Not under fear. But with it.
Under fear, means there’s an oppression pushing you down. With fear, means that you’re trying to push through to the belief side. You keep trying and you keep trying, and you get there a little bit. But there’s still that niggling fear. That niggling question.
Creflo Dollar is doing a series on living under the Covenant. He explains in part 6, what the old Covenant is and what the new covenant is. I just watched it like 3 days ago and today is July 26th, 2018. I realized, that I’m under the New Covenant AND what it means!
When people have explained things about the Covenant, they always attached this fear on to it, saying ‘oh those old laws are done away with, but, you’ve got all these other rules, and laws, that you have to do. You don’t just have to love, you have to give everything you own to somebody else if they want it.’ That’s how I heard it.
It’s not just filters I haven’t had, it’s balance. I have wanted for years and years and years, to have an RV and drive around the country and see the different parts of the country. I’ve been to Germany, Italy, France.
I want to see the United States, visit museums, see the Everglades, ( not the alligators) lol.
but I’ve been fearful. I’ve been living with fear, trying to battle through fear.
I figured at the end of my life I would say well I couldn’t afford an RV, so I didn’t do it. But that was living with fear.
Under the New Covenant, because I have accepted what Jesus did on the cross, I am covered by the blood. The blood of Jesus, that he shed on the cross.
This blood is alive. It will always be alive! It’s what removes sin from our lives when we ask the Lord to forgive us. It’s powerful!
Because I am under the blood, all the things that Jesus went to the cross for, are mine. That blood takes away my sins, and it also takes away sicknesses, diseases, afflictions.
Most people say and teach, the blood takes away sins. I’ve never heard anyone teach the blood also heals us of sicknesses and diseases that afflict us.
And it DOES!
The blood. It’s the blood that Jesus shed. It’s because Jesus was the only faithful one. God made a covenant between him, and Jesus. Who is the Son of God, and who is the son of man. It is a great mystery, however it is a great truth!
God did not make this second Covenant, with man. The first Covenant, was perfect, and no one could keep it. And God made that Covenant between him and mankind. But the second Covenant, the one that is lasting and forever, the one he knew he was going to make, was between him, and his son, his faultless, sinless, son. The only faithful one.
The blood never fails.
People sin. People fulfill the lusts of their flesh.
People are disobedient. People are not perfect. The blood is perfect.
The blood never fails. People fail in their understanding. People fail in their thinking. People fail in their perceptions. People fail. The blood never fails. The blood never fails. If someone is not healed, it’s not because of Jesus.
The blood never fails. It is perfect. Perfectly healing. Perfectly delivering. Perfect in love, mercy, forgiveness.
The love of Jesus, is unfailing. It’s thru his blood.
I am excited now, to get rid of my stuff and get a van, and tour the United States of America. For a year, maybe two. The blood never fails. Since God is for me, who can be against me?
No weapon formed against me shall gain the upper hand or prosper.
Because I am under the blood, and the blood never fails.
When we are not with the Lord everyday in the morning, then a bridge a wall starts to be built up across the bridge that is built between us.
we have to get with the Lord in the morning, or whenever our day starts, because that is the start of our day.
What we put in our heads at the very beginning of our day, determines what will guide us the during the day. Especially in the finer points of the day. Like when we are angry, or someone cuts us off on the road.
We have to renew our minds in the word everyday. It washes our minds free of clutter. And renews our mind and our spirit with good things, which enables us to think more clearly, and to have a chance to act and react, and a godly way.
When we spend time with the Lord everyday a bridge is built between us and him.
This is essentially, the bridge of praise, worship, and prayer.
When we miss even one day, essentially what it does is it puts a rock in the entryway of that bridge. The more we miss, the higher the rocks are piled. Until sometimes, it becomes a wall.
That’s why, when we miss a day of being with the Lord, it seems harder to get back with him the day after, or the week after.
It’s because the bridge between us and him has been blocked with rocks and other debris of the world.
All we have to do, is praise him, spend time in worship, and in prayer. Talk with him. Listen to him. He definitely listens to us!
The bridge between us and Jesus is also the bridge over which our prayers travel and over which answers are released.
Every time someone prays, no matter who it’s for or what it’s about – as long as it’s to God – a spiritual bridge is built.
To strengthen the bridge, one must accept or have accepted Jesus as their Savior. Then pray, read the Bible, praise him.
This strengthens the bridge. Keeps the bridge open.
