How She Thinks

I Asked God What He Wanted-His Reply

3-9-18 

Stop praying for power and pray from power. Larry Sparks.

Father, what do You want to release in the earth at this time? Father what do you want?

G, are you ready?

Me, I think so. yes.

I want revival more than you do. However I want my body to come into agreement and love one another. I want prayer through love, not through personal wants. I want those Chinese children taken care of as well in Yunnan Province. Oh, how my heart aches for them. But who will go? Who will pray? Who will pray for those areas of the world that are still lost? Yes! Oh yes! There are still areas of people that are lost. My Word goes out mightily in many corners and ditches of the world, but not all have heard. VietNam, Cambodia, prayer my girl, prayer will release my Spirit in all areas where He has not gone. Because I only go where I’m invited to go and through your prayers, you invite me into those areas! Prayer is mighty, it is strong and it is mighty and prayer releases the anointing, the Spirit, to go, to be, to do, to love.

I want people to hook up and pray. I want circles of praying people, joined together in spirit. I want two by two and more. Coffee tables, prayer rooms.People praying together or alone   

I want people to know that even one voice raised in prayer is vital. Janine, get that song out. Attach it to this Word.

Me, Yes Lord. Here

“My people don’t faint for lack of knowledge, in some instances they have to much knowledge and it stifles them. People need to get out, to go, to do. Stop stuffing yourselves with more knowledge and put into action what you already know. STOP being afraid of people and be more concerned with what *I* will do if you don’t. I am a loving Father, however if people won’t go and do, I will find someone who will.

Everyone wants to be someone, have status, that is not my way. Too many people are afraid of what others will think and they forget Who gave them what they know in the first place.

I want my children to just get up and do. Spread my love. Like you tell your newsletter subscribers, ‘give someone a smile’. If not you, then who? If not now, then when?

I want my people to grab the harps they have hung on the willow trees and come alive, sing a new song, be joyous. This is not a time to fear, it is a time to rejoice! I delight over you all with singing, won’t you delight with me? 

The time is now, the time is nigh. I want my people to stop pussy footing around and get in high gear. The time to strike is almost here. The shofar is about to be blown. Praise must go forward and in a far weightier and mightier way than it has before. There are so many children I have given songs too. So many prophets I have given words too. So many that are not heard. Besides that one list, there must be a clearing house for words I’ve given. There must be a room for songs I’ve given.

Would that my body would help one another in all these efforts. Would that my body would come together and love each other. How else will you show love to others? How else will anyone be provoked to jealousy to know me and what I bless you all with, if you don’t show anything about you that reflects me?

me, So Father, what you want is for praise to be mightier and heavier? How?

God – Just like people spend time in prayer, I want people to spend time in praise and worship. Just like there is 24.7 prayer, I want 24.7 worship. 

Praise

Me – wow. How?

God – just like Miss Billye Brim did with the 24/7 prayer clock, so do that with the 24/7 praise. 

me – And you want us to love each other, to help each other. Anything specific?

The Lord – If someone needs help cooking, if someone needs songs set to music, if someone needs a book reviewed – bless the hearts of those that started that group on facebook – [“The Write Time”] if someone needs socks mended or a shirt ironed. If someone needs to be driven somewhere. It’s time my people – who are called by my name by-the-way – stop working so hard for themselves, to get ahead, to do, buy, to be, and start looking around them to help others. We are family! There goes that song! ‘We are family, I got all my sisters and me’. Let’s have some fun! This is not a burdensome thing and I’m tired of that too.

Me – what?

G – people making things about me a burden. Striving, Ana said it well. Don’t strive.  Do things out of love. Back to the beginning. Stop stuffing yourselves full of more and get out and do.

Ana is no different than anyone else, she just did what I told her to do and didn’t hold back. This place that you all want, it’s right in front of you. You all have to do what I have told you to do and stop being afraid of their faces. If not you, then who?

me – yes Lord. Anything else? 

God- yes, one more thing. I am a loving God, I am fair and just. And I give grace. Lots and lots of grace. My children just need to take that first step. Just like when you have to take the first step when you’re going to belay down the mountain face, or put a song on youtube or go to the doctor when something doesn’t seem quite right. That first step is always hard. Whether in the world or with me. Especially for those that are afraid of what others will say or think about them. But I am God, I give grace upon grace. Just like you are to forgive 70×7, even in one day, so I give grace 70×7, as much as is needed. It’s a special forgiveness for slip-ups and disobedience. I am never disappointed in my children. I love you all. I long to bless all.

Thankyou Father.

G, now go post this.

Me, I will. Do you think you could talk shorter sometimes? This seems like an awful lot.

Jesus just smiled.

California-Arizona REVIVAL

I just watched a Facebook live with Ana Werner and Larry Sparks. Many years ago, the Lord gave me a vision of people praying all over Arizona. The four corners, standing on high places, praying. In parapets, praying.

Tonight while listening to them, at the very end of the broadcast, I felt the revival is coming. Word here.  It’s going to hit California, then Arizona, then spread North and East. I felt the Lord wants people walking everywhere in the States they are in, praying, praying, claiming neighborhoods, claiming cities, towns, States, Nations. I could see people walking from the top of California all the way down to the bottom and across. I could see the same in Arizona. Praying, worshipping.

For a little over a decade a group called Glory! International has ridden horses all over the United States of America, holding prayer and worship meetings. Go to their website, support them if you are called too. It’s a magnificent ministry and full of the power of the Lord.

I have walked up and down busy streets, praying for people. Praying at intersections. I will walk further now. How about you? Will I see you on the road praying and worshipping?  

 

 

Invested Love

Love
Standing the Test of Time

There are all kinds of love as you know. You have now known forever love. Since you have, you now need to turn your attention to other kinds of love, even – yes even, falling in love again. It can be done. You have experienced deep love, falling in love and it being reciprocated, which is the true measure of falling in love. You have lost that love. Through death or betrayal or some other way. But you’ve had it, you’ve known it, you’ve felt it.

Knowing what love is, knowing your heart has been filled with it in the past, you can now turn your attention to the people in your life now. You are now able to love with all your heart. Because, like God loving us, true love is abiding. It won’t walk away, it won’t turn on you, it is always there, in your heart. 

New Love

Having that deep human need to be loved, filled, it did what it was supposed to do. It activated our hearts to love again. Yes, even falling in love again. That’s what abiding love does. It means you can love again, with the same heart felt, deep abiding love. It is not a betrayal of the first love, it  honors the first love. First love is the opening of our hearts to love. Opening our hearts to another, means the first love did what it was intended to do. It gave us a *knowing*. That confidence that we are or have been, loved. It filled up our senses and satisfied our souls.  

Love is not meant to be kept close to the vest. 

Love is not meant to be kept close to the vest. Click To Tweet

It is meant to be invested in others. It is meant to be given away in whatever measures the person and situation call for. 

So keep that first love in your heart, keep it there where it fills you up. When it’s time, let it begin to go to that special box you have in your mind, where you keep good memories that make you feel good, but that you don’t revisit often, if at all. It’s just a confident knowing that it’s always there and it was real. 

Go on to live a full life, loving those around you now. Honor the first, true love you had, by giving love to another. Knowing, in your heart of hearts, that first, deep, abiding love, started you on the road to sharing love and that it’s still with you. 

Men In Charge-Women Relinquish

 

It’s godly [God-like] for a man to protect and take charge. It’s not godly for a woman to take charge. While men have to learn how to be with a woman – and sometimes it takes a long time – they still have to be in charge and the woman must stop being in charge. Especially women that are strong women, or women that were single moms. women have learned they must be in charge because of circumstances.

When women are around men, they need to be able to let the female side of them surface, not the take charge side. That is hard, switching back and forth and some women never attain it. 

Men tend to be lazy and not work hard at being in charge because they would rather just ‘let her do it, she wants too’. But that’s a lie, women don’t want too, they were forced too at some point in their lives. Also, some women haven’t learned the balance of being a strong woman and allowing the man to lead. It’s an art.

When a husband and wife have the headship correctly, it works. The marriage works. That’s how God intended it to be.  

For a man to say, “you’re my girl”, it speaks of something deeply inside him that is different from the deep emotion attached to “you’re my woman”. “You’re my girl is protective, as a man should be toward a woman. “You’re my woman” is thinking like an equal, still protective, but on an equal basis.

God makes lemon chiffon pie out of lemons. When we mess up in our choices, God can and does turn it around if we lean into Him and do our best.  

Violated Veteran

2-16-18 I realize I feel violated.

Around 2015 I met with Sherry Mercier, talking about the American Legion. She lost her leg because of bone cancer. She told me about Ft. McClellan being toxic. We were talking bones and I told her about a doctor I had who was alarmed at the degree of osteoporosis I had/have. She said there was probably a correlation. But I didn’t pursue it. WHY? Because I’m not a blamer. 

Medal

I and others in my prayer group have prayed about my bones, to grow, for 15 yrs. They seem to be dissolving, especially in my jaw. I have gone for prayer to Texas, every where asking for prayer for my bones to grow in. I know God heals. I’ve been a recipient of that healing power many times. However, I haven’t seen anything happening and it’s been so long.

At the end of Jan. 2018, I fasted about this for 3 days. I received no direction, no information. I received a lot of other revelation, but nothing about this. So last night, 2-15-18, running my tongue over one of the two implants in the lower jaw, I became alarmed. I have done my best to fight fear. To not think of bad things, to not fear but have faith. I have faith.

So a thought came to me to look up Ft. McClellan. I did. I was there for basic training July to August 1973. The ‘do you have a basis to file a claim’ site, does not list severe osteoporosis as one of their ailments, but they also say they don’t know all the ailments that would happen. 

Basic training graduation 1973 Ft. McClellan Me, 2nd row down from top, right side, 3rd one in. In this photo, Janelle Baert, Donna Wilson, Sadler, Lynn Wonder, Mary Margaret Strauss, Carol Vail, Sharon Zanowich, Banks, DS Ruff [drill doggie Cha Cha], DS Bailey, Cpl Brewster, Lt __, Capt ___, & others I can’t remember their names
Well, one of the questions I’ve always had, was, ‘did I do this to myself through not eating right? Did I do this to myself through something I did or didn’t do’? At least that has been answered. I did not.

The song ‘Hallelujah’ is on in the background. I am stunned. Tears course down my cheeks. I know God knows me and loves me. I know He joys over me with singing. I know He delights in me. I know He’s aware of what is going on. 

The one thing no one wants, is to live life maimed and/or in pain. 

There has been a bill before Congress since 2015 to get a health registry going for those that were at Ft. McClellan between 1935 and 1999. It has been renewed every year and is now before Congress with this number: H.R. 3666 – 115th Congress (2017-2018). 

This, article from 2014, < link – explains it well. 

I feel violated. Monsanto is the culprit here, along with the United States Military for trying to hide this and denying claims.

I knew I was signing up to defend my country. I did not think my country would be the one to hurt me and then cover it up. 

Later I will come out fighting. But today, sitting here stunned, I cry.

I leave you with the tune from Don Quixote, most of the lyrics by me. 

To dream the impossible dream
To right the unrightable wrong
We had basic at Ft. McClellan
We trained and sang marching songs

This was our quest
To fight for our land
No matter how hopeless
Together we’d stand

To fight for the right
Without question or pause
To be willing to march into hell
For our country’s cause

And we thought, if we’d only be true 
To this glorious quest
That our hearts would lie peaceful and calm
When we’re laid to our rest

But we found, we’re betrayed by our own. 
We are scorned and denied benefits
Now we strive to have health and live life
Pass the bill, there’s enough evidence!

 

 

 

Fire On The Altar

2-4-18 3 a.m.

I am CONVICTED of my selfishness and self-absorption. 

God told me to ‘use and sell flower essences’. He told me to write a book on it for people to understand it. God said ‘it’s mine and I want it back’. And I’ve been making it about me. MY fears, MY concerns, how I will look if I am wrong in the book.

God love me, I’ve rolled my eyes – more than once.

I am APPALLED at my behaviors and reactions. Thank God for His mercy and grace and PATIENCE. 

This is SO not about me. It’s not about me. It’s about God. It’s about what HE wants. It’s not about whether or not I think He’s crazy for asking ME to do this. Just who do I think I am, telling God He should pick someone else? Who am I to not joyfully embrace what He told me to do? WHO AM I to think I know more or better than God? That is my biggest failing. Oh God, forgive me. 

repentant heart

I am so…ashamed is the best word…of how I’ve acted with this and that I – who most will tell you is the least selfish person they know – I have taken pride in that. Oh God, forgive me. It doesn’t matter about others, what they think or don’t think. What matters is You and what you think and what You want.

I can not _believe_ how selfish I am! Look what the Moravians did. God, forgive me, forgive me. I repent. 

I am reading “Fire On The Altar” by  Frank “JJ” Di Pietro and J. D. King. What an AMAZING recount of the Moravians, John Wesley and others. 

 

Forgiveness And Hurt – How To Deal

Forgiveness and hurt. It’s not that I want to keep and hold on to the hurt, it’s that I want you to hurt as much as I hurt, because then you will know how much I hurt and you will care and you will not do it again. That’s what we all think anyway. It rarely works. 

So people continue to hurt people. I hurt you, you hurt me. Instead, there is a better way. Forgiveness sets us free. You don’t even know I’m angry at you if you are not around me. So stress, many sicknesses caused by stress and anger, these can all be gone from us if we forgive others. If we truly let go of the pain, the hurt, the wanting to get back at them. 

Hurt is unforgiveness. Release the hurt, release the unforgiveness. This means to let go of the pain, let go of the fear, let go of the anger. Let it go and get on with your life.

Read a book by John Bevere called, ‘The Bait of Satan’. or watch it here.

 

 

Graciousness – It’s Not Only A Word

There are two basic types of gracious people in the world. Those that are gracious from a kind heart and those that are gracious on the surface only. 

A gracious person will see everyone as equal and treat all with kindness and respect. 

I think for the most part, people put themselves and others in boxes. We should all remember, each person has giftings. Ours may not mesh with theirs and that’s ok! We’re not meant to mesh with everyone. But we should always be gracious.

Gracious means being kind and speaking thoughtful words. Graciousness is often superficial, but sometimes what is on the surface is good enough. Being gracious is being tactful, not hurtful. Being gracious means paying attention to those at a party that often feel left out. Being gracious is making eye contact with everyone in the group, not just one. Being gracious is calling a homeless person at a shelter, a guest. 

Being gracious means being compassionate. It means being courteous. 

A gracious person is slow to take credit and quick to lavish praise. Graciousness shows a propensity to be generous and helpful. The mark of a gracious person is how they treat someone who can be of absolutely no use to them. A gracious person asks for forgiveness if they offend another. A gracious person asks for forgiveness even when they know it wasn’t their fault. 

Gracious people give; they give of themselves, their time, their smiles, approval, friendship, money, gifts, with no strings attached. They are never greedy, stingy or grabbing. You don’t have to feel like you are walking on eggshells in exchange for their favor. Gracious people think about others, what they can give, how they can help – and they do it. They listen to another speaking, not forming what they want to say in their minds. 

A gracious person has warmth.  They may argue, but are not out of control and they are never cold to others. The opposite of love is not hate…it is cool indifference. Gracious people never exhibit cool indifference to others. 

We should treat everyone the same. Be kind, be thoughtful. Gracious words from a kind heart bring health to the body of the person speaking them.

My Road – Alone


originally published on another blog 2-1-17.

I ALWAYS felt alone. Rejected by my mother, I wasn’t the type of child she wanted. Rejected by my sister, she only wants perfect people in her life – I always felt alone. Molested by my grandfather, with no one to help because they didn’t know, I always felt alone. Full of fear and so alone.

Even the moon hides

When I became a Christian, I struggled in the Lord. OH! How I’ve struggled. I figured I wasn’t smart enough, good enough or worthwhile enough. I grew up thinking I never measured up, so how could I, as a Christian, measure up to all these things that Christians are supposed to be? I didn’t have the training others had, it seemed I just didn’t know enough or understand well enough. 

I was the johnny-come-lately, the one behind the 8-ball, the outcast, the black sheep. I was the one that wasn’t wanted or loved. The one that didn’t have anyone in her corner. Or so I thought. 

lonely little girl

I have been a follower of Jesus for 38 years now. Following hard after Him for 35 yrs. It was in 2015 that I realized God loves me. That’s a long time to struggle to understand it, find it out, figure it out. It was an epiphany. I had just told my earthly Dad he can’t tell me what to do in my life or run my life or talk down to me, and all of a sudden, I realized HOW God is my Father. How LOVING God is. 

I’d also had an epiphany of God loving me in 2002, going camping, late start, we set up camp in the dark, with a monsoon coming on. Woke up in the middle of the night with the foot of my sleeping bag outside the tent, where it was soaking wet. The water had wicked up the zipper, but I was dry and warm. There was damp on either side of my pillow, happy for me, when I sleep, I don’t move or move much. I had a deep fear of hypothermia at the time and I asked God to not let my head get wet. Upon awakening in the morning, both sides of my pillow were completely wet thru, but I wasn’t wet. 

Getting out of the tent, we saw a wadi. A wadi is a depression in the earth that looks like where a river should go, but it’s dry in normal weather. Until monsoons hit and then it’s a torrent of rushing water. Our tent was on the EDGE of the wadi. A few more inches and we would have drowned. That’s a pretty powerful God, that can stop someone from doing something in the pitch dark, without them even knowing it. 

On January 28, 2017, I had a new epiphany on prayer. 

I don’t know why this happened. I don’t know what I was praying about, or thinking about, or crying to God about, but all of a sudden I knew that the reason i am getting through areas of blockages in my life NOW, is because someone prayed for me! Some of my ancestors prayed for me!

I was floored, a feeling of relief washed over me, I started crying. [cause that’s what *I* do! LOL ] The scripture that says ‘there is a great cloud of witnesses around us’ Hebrews 12:1 – took on new meaning. 

SOMEONE PRAYED FOR ME! OMGOSH, I WASN’T ALONE! click on the title to listen

     Someone Prayed

As yet they did not know me
But they knew the Lord
They knew they’d have descendants
They relied upon His Word
When they’d say their prayers
They’d get down upon their knees
They prayed for their descendants
And one of them was me
Without their prayers from long ago
I would not be here
I always felt so all alone
And I was full of fear
I was meant to be destroyed
by satan oh but wait!
The prayers of my ancestors
Saved me from that fate.

 

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As I was reading Ephesians yesterday, I realized that Paul prayed for me as well! Ephesians 1:16-19; 3:15-19. 

The holy and revered apostle Paul, prayed for ME! OH. MY. GOSH! It all ties in!

So you see we are not alone. We not only have a great cloud of witnesses in the spiritual world around us, we also have the prayers of our ancestors surrounding us and uplifting us!

Sometimes I still get the fear that people will think I’m just absolutely so stupid that I didn’t know all this years ago. But even in the face of that fear, I still keep writing my journal online because God told me to do so in 2003 and He hasn’t said I could quit yet. [I asked in 2016, several times] So if what I write helps even one person, the ripple effect will be huge. So I just plow thru the feelings of inferiority and spill my guts for everyone to see, because this is one of the things God has told me to do. 

Just think! At some point [and I hope it’s soon!], I’m going to have confidence in myself and what I know. And won’t that be a fine day!