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What Happens After Having Forever Love


Love, it comes in all shapes, all colors.


There are all kinds of love as you know. You have now known forever love. Since you have, you now need to turn your attention to other kinds of love, even, yes even, falling in love again. Now that you have experienced deep love, falling in love and it being reciprocated, which is the true measure of falling in love, now that you have experienced it –

Love refreshed

Now you can turn your attention to the people in your life now and love with all your heart. Because, like loving God, true love is abiding. It won’t walk away, it won’t turn on you, it is always there, in your heart.

abiding love

Having that deep human need to be loved, filled, it did what it was supposed to do. It activated our hearts to love again. Yes, even falling IN love again. That’s what abiding love does. It means you can love again, with the same heart felt, deep abiding love. It is not a betrayal of the first love, it honors the first love, Because the first love was the opening of your heart TO love and opening our hearts to another means the first love did what it was intended to do. It gave us a *knowing*. That confidence that we are or have been, loved. It filled up our senses and satisfied our souls.

Love is not meant to be kept close to the vest. It is meant to be invested in others. It is meant to be given away in whatever measures the person and situation calls for.

So keep that first love in your heart, keep it there where it fills you up and when it’s time, let it begin to go to that special box you have in your mind, where you keep good memories that make you feel good, but that you don’t revisit often, if at all. It’s just a confident knowing that it’s always there and it was real.

New Love

And go on to live a full life, loving those you are around in the present. Honor the first, true love you had by giving love to another. Knowing, in your heart of hearts, that first, deep, abiding love, started you on the road to sharing love and that it’s still with you.                     


How to Raise Your Credit Score


The ideal usage of your credit is 6% of less. Get that? Using 6% or less of your credit is what makes you look good on paper.

What is your credit score based on?

     1. The mix of credit you have. Revolving accounts, bank-issued credit card accounts,           installment loans. This accounts for 10% of your FICO score rating.

You can raise your credit score by paying your bills on time, dispute any credit report errors and keep debt under control. You can contact your lenders who may be willing to work with you to set up a different payment schedule OR lower the loan’s interest rate.

Learn to live within your means. Only charge what you can afford to pay off in full at the end of the month.

     2. Payment history, a whopping 35% of your FICO score is based on payment history. Late payments, collections, negative public records, this all is included. This shows lenders you are a good borrower, that you pay off your bills promptly.

     3. Amount of debt; this accounts for 30% of your FICO score. This includes revolving          utilization, accounts with balances, revolving account balance.

 This is trickier than it looks. My Experian score went down 20 points. Twenty points!! I got it figured out though. It’s because I wasn’t carrying a balance on anything. You HAVE to show you DO charge things and you DO pay off over time. but just _some_ things. So I charged some stuff and took three or four months to pay it off. So when it says to pay off everything in full at the end of the month, you need to carry a balance on your credit card every so often.

 A month after it was paid off, my score went up 13 points. So clearly, I need to do it again.

     4. Credit history length – this accounts for 15% of your FICO credit score. This is in regard to managing different types of credit accounts. What is the average age of your credit history and what is the age of the oldest account is what they look at.

     5. Amount of new credit. When did you open the latest account and how many inquiries were there in the last year. This accounts for 10% of your FICO score. So there you have it. How to get your credit score up. 


Reply to Bethel Church & Community on Kenneth Copeland & more

Bethel church and community on facebook asked me if I know what the gospel is, in no relation to what was being discussed, when I didn’t reply to their goad, they said if someone doesn’t say what the gospel is, they are not saved. This was all in response to the bashing, yet AGAIN, of Kenneth Copeland. Take note: ANYONE who trades on the WELL KNOWN name of another is a liar, a cheat and working as the anti-christ. This is NOT Bethel Church in Redding, Ca. This is several people who have an agenda to hurt the body of Christ. 

what went on before this 

Janine Joi That is not Copeland voice.

Reply1 hr


Janine Joi Even if that quote is attributed to him as anyone listened to the full context? Seems like a lot of people are quick to judge. I have learned a lot from Copeland I have been healed through his ministry of many things. Woe to the people who judge God’s anointed


Reply1 hr


Bethel Church and Christianity Janine Joi
1. Do we see in Scripture that Jesus had to be born again?.

2. Could anyone else have died for our sins and effectively served as the atonement other than Jesus?

3. What is the Gospel?

Reply1 hr


Janine Joi Your point?


Reply1 hr


Janine Joi I did not hear that in the snippets

Reply1 hr


Bethel Church and Christianity Simple questions. What do you think?


Reply57 mins


Janine Joi Truth be told, WE are given the authority God gave Jesus, to operate on earth, so if you wanted to look at it that way, you could say that makes us “little gods”. Anything can be taken out of context by anyone that hates another or what they do or what they have. I have work to do. I’m done with this convo

Reply56 mins

This is what Bethel TV said on FaceBook: all misspellings remain theirs

So what we’ve learned here today are a couple of things:

1. Support of false teachers will not be tolerated here…which Kenneth Copeland has proven himself to be many times over.

2. Many are deceived, which is why we try to ask questions that drive at the potential root of the problem. We want to share truth rather than just send people packing. And in sharing the truth, we hope those on the receiving end will hear the Gospel, and respond positively.

3. When we ask someone to share the Gospel, and they absolutey refuse to do so and even attempt to abruptly exit stage left, that reveals a reality.
The reality is, any genuine believer would willingly share the Gospel.

Any false convert or unbeliever, who doesn’t know the Gospel, will either share a false gospel, or refuse to respond.

Here is THE GOSPEL of Christ as laid out in Scripture:
God created us to be with Him (Gen. 1-2), but our sin separates us from God. (Gen 3)
Sin cannot be removed by doing good works or deeds (Eph. 2:8,9), so paying the price for sin, Jesus – upon living a perfect, holy, blameless life, died on the cross, taking the due punishment for our sin, upon Himself, and thus becoming the sacrificial lamb; by His death for His people (John 10), God has ransomed His sheep.
3 days later, Jesus, under His own power, rose from the dead, conquering sin and death (1 Cor 15:4) and now everyone who believes in Jesus Christ alone has eternal life (John 5:24) and life that is eternal, starts NOW and lasts forever with God. (Acts- Revelation)

Janine, if you’ve never come to Christ in saving Faith, if you’re believing you will be saved by any other means than by Grace alone, through faith alone, in Jesus Christ alone – not by works (Eph 2:8-9; Titus 3:5) – we want to ask you today to repent from your sin and come to Christ for saving Faith.

God’s word tells us, if you repent of your sin and confess with your mouth, that Jesus Christ is Lord, and you believe that wholeheartedly, God WILL save you.

He doesn’t save you to make your life easy, He doesn’t save us to increase our income as we give more money to the Church, and He doesn’t even save us simply as a get-out-of-hell ticket to eternity. 

He saves us from His own wrath, which was poured out on Christ on the cross.

This is the extreme God went through in order to, not make salvation a potential possibility, but to actually redeem His people who have “all sinned and all have fallen short of the glory of God.”

Will you come to Christ in saving faith?
If not, will you consider these things and read the Scriptures above and see if these things are So?
And depending on all of that, feel free to message us at any time.

(No further comments on this reply thread please.)

Here is my reply, all typos left in: “You have your mind twisted. Thinking everyone will tell you the gospel because you ask and if they don’t, they are not saved. I am saved by Grace, thru the atoning blood of Jesus. I am loved by God, Who is a Triune being, as opposed to the ‘trinity’. I speak in tongues, hear from God and it’s not MY faith that is on trial. You are judging another. I support those whose walk shows their talk is on. I read my Bible, I work out my own salvation with fear and trembling. I am not led astray by you or Kenneth Copeland Ministries I have been healed thru Kenneth Copeland Ministries Word of God they share. 

You, Bethel people are like a lot of others that pick things apart. It must be nice to be 100% correct in every thing you say and do. You are doing the disservice here, telling people Kenneth Copeland Ministries is a fraud. 

He has much because he gives much. He is faithful to God and to His Word. If we were as faithful to obey and give, we would have as much also. 

There is no one person who is 100% right all the time. It appears to be the fringe element that doesn’t have, to attack the others that do.

There are a LOT of people who do not read the Bible and do not listen to God and who just follow anyone that will tell them what they want to hear or what they think they just read. FEW search out the Word, narrow is the way and FEW follow it. 

Most people just follow along like stupid dumb sheep, allowing others to tell them what they believe and what they think because they are too lazy to find out for themselves and this is a perfect example of it. 

Whether or not you believe I am saved is none of my business. You judged me for not doing what YOU think I should do. I forgive you. I used to think Bethel church was maybe a good church, but you are huge like Kenneth Copeland Ministries, you have a TON of money like Kenneth Copeland Ministries, but the difference is, you blather on about another co-worker in the Kingdom, while Kenneth Copeland Ministries NEVER does.”


There are SO MANY people who judge another. Not everything Copeland says is 100% right, not everything I say is right, not everything you say is right. WE ALL need each other because irons sharpens iron. People STOP JUDGING someone else on what YOU THINK should be! Stop judging an overweight person as having no self control, no good judgement: Stop judging someone with one arm as not being able to drive, stop judging someone who doesn’t think exactly like you do about xyz. For pete’s sake, if WE don’t get along, if WE, as the body of Jesus, don’t stop infighting, what are we going to do? 

People are complaining about Congress, Trump, etc etc, but look at  your own life. Look at what YOU said and what YOU do. Keep your own house in order, be loving and kind, at the VERY LEAST forgive and STOP attacking each other. STOP IT! We are not doing ANYONE any good by attacking each other. !!!!


When You Know You Are Loved


not perfect

When you know you are loved, you don’t worry AS MUCH about what others think of how you look.

When you know you are loved, you have a calmness about life and relationships and things.


mistakes forgiven

When you know you are loved, you know, deep in your heart that mistakes you make, will be forgiven.


When you know you are loved, you walk straighter, you have a bounce in your step.


When you know you are loved, you have this assuredness in the deep part of your heart that you are not alone, you are worthwhile, you are worthy.





                   When you know you are loved, you have confidence


  • Confidence that you can 
  • Confidence that you’re not a bother
  • Confidence in how you act
  • Confidence in who you are
  • Confidence that you belong
  • Confidence you are protected
  • Confidence not ‘will they like me, but confidence that you are fine if they don’t 

If you know you are loved like this by a human, it points you to how deeply God loves you. If you know you are loved like this by God, you can do exploits. Click To Tweet


To my human – thank you for teaching me, thank you for your patience, for showing me love and for showing me how much God loves me, to what depth, with what kindness.

heart to heart


To my God, thank You for choosing a human with a heart like Yours, to show me to what depth and how much, You love me. Ephesians 3:18

Abundant love

Finding Out God Loves ME

11-22-17 I’m sitting here working on my book and I feel absolutely fine. I feel solid, like there’s no holes in me. and I think that is how you always feel when you know i love you.

Did you ever doubt it? Be honest. Did you wonder? 

God has been telling me to act, walk and talk like I know I’m absolutely loved. So I looked up definitions and wrote them down. in how people act when they know this. it all boils down to confidence. 

The only time i could pull from, was when you loved me. I was trying to remember how I acted, but it was the memories were fleeting. 


Its this credible, awesome absolute KNOWING, this feeling of being grounded, the feeling I can do anything because God loves me. That I am not wrong, that I am not bad, how could anyone BE bad when God loves them so much? I am not faulty, there’s no mistake. I am loved. 

THAT is how God loves me. 

I’ve been praying for this ‘knowing’ every day for MONTHS. and now I know. and I know because you kept me in your heart and you love me. 

Hows that for heavy? and delightful? 

And that is why I don’t need to talk to you all the time, every day, [like before]. That is why I encourage you to be the best you can be where you are. So you can know, when all is said and done, you did your best.  

And i know that I know, I’m in your heart and God loves me. 

This knowing, is what you’ve had all along. this knowing, in the deep bottom of your heart, you know you love me and it hasn’t bothered you and you haven’t been worried about it. Just like God’s love. _THAT_ is what I’ve always been amazed at, this KNOWING that people have. And now I know it too. I know I have a Father. Not only that, but I can say, “I have a Father Who loves me” and know it’s true. 




Remembering Love

11-22-17 I’m watching vids from long ago. I REMEMBER why you loved me so much. Because you are ‘the man’ with me. If you can take that and apply it to your life where you are, you will be happier I think. 

It’s godly for a man to protect and take charge. It’s not godly for a woman to take charge. While men have to learn how to be with a woman – and sometimes it takes a long time – they still have to be in charge and the woman MUST stop being in charge. Esp women that are strong women, or women that were single moms. Women have learned they must be in charge because of circumstances.

But when they are around men, they need to be able to let the female side of them surface, not the take charge side. that’s hard. 

Men tend to be lazy and not work hard at being in charge because they would rather just ‘let her do it, she wants too’. but that’s a lie, women don’t _want_ too, they were forced too at some point in their lives. Some women haven’t learned the balance of being a strong woman and allowing the man to lead. 

For some reason, you and I had it the correct way. We both liked it and it worked. That’s how God intended it to be.  

So take this lesson and apply it to your life now. Figure out whatever you need to figure out on what made you feel so good when you thought, ‘yeah, you’re my girl’. because thinking that way, is thinking in a protective way. Thinking ‘you’re my woman’ you saw me in a different way, an equal. 

Figure it out and be happy where you are.

I am not at all threatened by this. Because I know where I am inside you. I seriously thought you had forgotten about me.  If you work at it and are happy where you are, in what you’re doing, everything will feel better and work out better. it’s HARD work. But worth it. 

Even if you get to where you are so happy in your life that we don’t talk anymore, except as occasional friends from LONG ago, It’s ok. because you need to do and be – what God has called you to do and be. God makes lemon chiffon pie out of lemons. Not just common lemonade. He turns our ashes into beauty. He makes things right. We need to lean into Him. And I know, oh! I know today, how deeply I am in God’s heart, because of you. 

I will love you forever. 


I Have A Choice Today

which choice?

11-6-17 I have a choice today. A choice to stay angry and hurt at all the things my ex husband is doing, since he started staying with me 2 weeks ago while he’s in between jobs, or to choose to live my life differently. TODAY. I have been practicing forgiveness and praying for him for 2 weeks. That’s not an easy thing in itself already. It’s not like it’s a once a day deal. The reasons we are divorced are still there. We normally get along, unless we are together for too long a time. Three days is usually the max. This has been 2 weeks with one left to go. 

But this morning, before I even got out of bed, it seems to all have come to a head. I had a bad dream about him, caused by my own accusatory mouthiness the night before.  So all I have inside me is anger at him being the way he is and not caring enough about me, to make changes. At least, that’s how I see it.

A friend of mine on face book posted something this morning that said, “Be the gift, be gentle with each other today” and I realize I have a choice. That choice ‘they’ all say we have. That choice that is a step and is most of the time, hard to take, because it’s easier to wallow in self pity and staying angry because we’re so used to being angry at that person or situation. It is easier to stay in the crummy mood we’re in, because we’re so used to it. Or because making a decision to stop being angry means we have to change the way we’re thinking and change is hard. Or because we have to turn loose of being offended, of having our rights, the right to be treated better, the right to be loved, the right to hurt, we have to let that all go. 

I am smack dab in the middle of letting go of my right to be hurt because someone is being himself. [yes, the import of that is not lost on me] I am crying as I write this. It’s hard to be hurt and let it go. It feels like I am pushing down, burying, my feelings. Like I’m not allowing myself to hurt. But that is a lie from the enemy of my soul. Satan. That is an old ploy and I recognize it now. I am not burying my feelings. I am crying, therefore, I am feeling them. I am writing about them, therefore i am feeling them.  

Because I realize this, now I am set free in my inner woman. [woo hoo!] 

We all love having choices right? My choices are to remain in a state of stress, like it’s been for some days, or make a conscious choice, without using force on myself, to accept those things I cannot change and to stop trying to change those things that will not change. To tell myself, as we did in basic training, ‘this is not the Army, this is only basic training’,  AND to celebrate the days left of him being around AND to LAY ASIDE every expectation, every hurt that comes my way and leave it alone. Don’t pick it up, just leave it on the ground or let it zing on past me. Those poison arrows are, indeed, intended for me, but if I don’t pick them up, I can’t be hurt by them. It may seem like a tall order, but in reality, it’s making a choice to live in health. [God reminded me this morning to take a flower essence, I’ll have to see which one deals in stress]

TODAY, I make my choice to be unoffendable. I take back the power I’ve given to another to offend me, make me angry or hurt me. [the understanding of this concept is coming to me] I make my choice for my self. To attend to my needs. To love me more than another and in the doing, I will love them. Love your neighbor as yourself says the Bible. 

I choose to BE and ACT differently than I have recently, thereby changing how I feel in the process. To celebrate these days he will be here and to not expect to make silk out of a sow’s ear. [and I choose to leave the house for a while and to open the windows and doors to the beautiful 80F weather, exchanging the inside air for the fresh air and negative ions] 

                                                                           I choose life over death. 




Halloween as a Christian, Yes or No?

pretty cool photo I took of a rock

I believe it’s absolutely wrong as a follower of Jesus to participate in any way in halloween. There are those that feel it’s fine to do so, I am not one of them. There are those that say they ‘pray over each child that comes to their door as they give them candy’.

There is a tremendous amount of murders, rapes, adult and child snatching, blood letting and other things that go on for this day and night and the weeks leading up to it. How do I know this? I used to work for an agency in California where these crimes would regularly come across our desks. Always, during the days and weeks leading up to halloween, the details would be more gruesome, the things that happened would be worse than at other times of the year. Often it would be noted someone was a satan worshipper. 

Check out the recent interview CBN had with an ex Satanist regarding halloween. It’s not just the intent behind this night, it’s also the actions and that gives Satan a legal right to come in to a person’s life if they participate. It’s not a ‘celebration’, it’s participation. There is a different between a holy day aka holiday, and a day of participation. If you don’t participate in playing with ouija boards, or tarot cards, why would you play with halloween things? 

Whether or not one feels it is or is not right to participate, depends on what you have personally heard from the Lord on what to do, as well as your knowledge of where it comes from and your own, personal background. I would not want to be known as the house where Christians live and where they also participate in halloween. No child or anyone else for that matter, would know they are being prayed over. And praying over children can happen every single day in your neighborhood. It does not have to be just only on 1 day. I would hope those that use the excuse ‘we are praying over each child that comes to our door’ would be praying over these children every single day. Jesus has called us to be lights in the world of darkness, so if you want to participate I would suggest letting your light shine in a way that is obviously of Jesus. Not silently praying over someone. 

If someone wants to participate, plan it out, like some do for Christmas displays. And make it about a SEEN Savior, not handing out a tract which will be thrown away to make more room for candy in the bag. Not “praying silently over each child”. 

Here’s something to think about:  Person A: ‘are there any Christians in the neighborhood’?  B” yes, there’s some down at that house, but I don’t know how ‘christian’ they are, they celebrate halloween’. 
A. ‘celebrate halloween?? What do you mean, they ‘celebrate’ it’? 
B, ‘they give out candy and dress up and their kids go out getting candy too.’
1 Thess 5:22, abstain from the appearance of evil. 
Ro 14:16 do not let what you consider good, be spoken of as evil. 

It’s kind of like cussing, if the only words you can come up with when angry are the generally accepted cuss words, [not curse, but cuss] then that speaks of your intelliect and self control at the moment.  
If the only way you can show kids you love them is on halloween, that’s a sorry thing to say. 
I would NEVER want someone to say about me, ‘oh yeah, she’s a Christian and she celebrates halloween too’. 

                                                          I celebrate good things, halloween isn’t one of them.

Finally! Getting the Blog Active Again

Welcome! I’m glad you’re here! I’ve been working on getting this started again for several months. God has told me to get it done, along with the book I’m writing and several other things. I’m doing my best to be obedient. This was one of the last things to get started again. I’ve had other blogs that for one reason or another are now down. I started my first one before the name ‘blog’ was known to the masses. I hope you’ll poke around, I hope some of my writings will help, amuse or get you to thinkin’ about things.