How She Thinks

I’m Just Your Average Joe and Ecstatic!

I’m just your average Joe. That’s what God just told me in the hot tub. OHMYGOSH! FREEDOM!  I had a dream the other nite, you can find it under ‘just my stuff’ the post about ‘i don’t think i can do this’.

I get a tremendous amount of revelation in the hot tub. Water. I’m a water baby. I love water, I thrive with water around me. Hence, I’m in the desert. It’s God’s joke. lol

But, I have a pool and a hot tub. So I can be in hot water wherever I am! LOL I was middling in my brain about that specific post. I have a lot of stuff in there that’s personal. But if there’s one thing I know as much as I know my own name, it’s that God wants me to be transparent. He made me transparent. That’s all I’ve heard for decades is about how transparent I am. [I used to think it was a bad thing, now I just think it’s one of ‘those’ God things] So just now in the hot tub, as I was pondering the dream..clearly President Trump is God, so God blew his trumpet and loudly told a select few, it wasn’t on tv or a press conference, it was on the radio! People LISTEN to a radio, tv they watch and don’t pay a lot of attention too, they hear and don’t pay a lot of attention too. But the radio…people listen to it, because they want too. But only a select group of people listen to the radio. It is THOSE people I reach.

So I say to God, ‘I’m sorry I put that on there about faith, maybe I should take it off. I don’t want to be disrespectful’.

God says, ‘leave it there’. 

me, why?

God, because it helps others

me, but it’s disrespectful

God, not it’s not, it’s saying how you feel

me, who’s going to hear? I’m just your average joe.

God, yes, you are an average joe. People need to see that everyone is the same. Most of the time they see ‘big shots’ that are unattainable and unreachable but they don’t see the realness of life, of walking with me. You are showing others that you ALL think these ways at one time or another. Janine, it’s not so much about you, as it is I want my children at ease, not stressing so much about what they THINK they should do, what they THINK they should act like. You are my vehicle baby girl. You ARE willing. So many aren’t. 

Wow, this is huge. HUGE. This, THIS alone, set me free of a LIFETIME of living under the curse of being a perfectionist. I’m an AVERAGE JOE! HOW AWESOME IS THAT?  I no longer have to BE what ANYONE thinks I should be. I no longer have to prove ANYTHING to ANYONE at ANY TIME. I can soar with God. I can fly! I can BE. 

I can BE. If I’m overweight, SO WHAT! Am I loved anyway? YES! If I’m into herbs and flower essences and rocks and Jesus, SO WHAT! If I live however I want too, SO WHAT! I’M AN AVERAGE JOE! 

Average women

WHAT A RELIEF! I NO LONGER HAVE TO HAVE STATUS TO BE A PERSON! I NO LONGER HAVE TO BE IMPORTANT IN THE WORLD, I NO LONGER HAVE TO MAKE MY MARK [I already met my goal of helping others with the business I just sold] I no longer have to help others, teach others. I can just BE. I can learn about ME, BE ME, have fun. THIS IS MY YEAR! 2018 is MY health year, MY YEAR. 

I AM ÅVERAGE [that’s a halo over the A]

I       AM        AVERAGE!!!!!!!

average women

 

1-10-18 Let GO

God, I need you to let go

Me, I ‘m trying too. I’m trying so hard

God, stop trying, stop trying so hard, Just live, enjoy your life.

Me, but what about all these things I’m SUPPOSED to do, like pray and this and that and the other thing?

G, you’ve taken on more than you should. You said it yourself this morning. You took on things you shouldn’t have. MY yoke is easy Janine, don’t forget that.

Me, but God, I’ve been so disobedient and for so long.

G, yes I know. Did it break me? Did it break the bank?

Me, no.

G, then why stress over it? LET GO AND LET ME. Let me show you the things *I* want to show you, let me take you flying.

Me, rolling my eyes – there it is again

G, yes, there it is. Again. Janine, let go. Let go let go let go. Get that book of Gloria Copeland’s. Just LIVE your life, ENJOY your life. Don’t you think I AM can handle it and you? Don’t you think I AM can do what I’ve called you to do? Don’t you think I CAN?

Me. I dunno. I guess so, I guess not. I guess if I’m trying so hard, I’m not trusting

G, exactly. LET GO. It will come to you. Stop shoulding on yourself. Let go. Want to go for a ride? Go. Want to speak in tongues? Do. Want to listen to loud music? Do. LET GO

You have lived bottled up inside yourself all your life, for so long. I have taken the cork off but you keep putting it back on! Stop with that! Let your essence out of the bottle, the smell of you, the aroma of you, the joy of you, the laughter of you, the LOVE of you. Oh Janine, I have given you so much love to be given away. Just don’t abuse it.

Me, ok.

G, Janine, baby, look up.

Me, I did, eyes opened

G, what do you see?

Me, the ceiling

G, what do you want to see?

Me, you, your angels, neat stuff in the spirit world.

G, how do you see it?

Me, I dunno, close my eyes?

G, keep them open, how can you have an open eye vision if they are closed?

Me, point

G, when you least expect it, it will happen when you least expect it. This summer, this summer, I want you free as a bird. No cares, no worries, nothing holding you down.

Me, you’ll have to fix it so it’s that way.

G, I know. But YOU have to LET GO of control, fear, ties to the earth.

Me, ties to the earth???? Looking quizzically

G, yep. You want, you‘ve prayed, you’ve asked for, I see your heart. LET GO so you can SOAR so you can FLY with me.

Me, how?

Gd, stop putting on yourself that which you THINK I want you to do. I said that about the tea in the vision because that’s how *I* like it, not because YOU have to drink tea.

Me, I thought everything you say is a teaching thing I should do?

G, not always, sometimes we just talk. I just talk to you. Lighten up Janine. Remember the 2 yo. Remember how strong she is?

Me is? Not WAS?

G, no, is. She’s a part of you. You take her with you WHEREVER you go. You remember she is with you. If she can fight off the devil, so can you. Remember that.

Me, God, people have said to me that it’s odd to hear God as much as I do. Is it?

G, no, not when you’re listening. Not when it’s your predispensation.

Me, huh?

G, certain things for certain people. Special gifts for those that chose to follow the hard path.

Me, Really?? COOL!

G, ask S what her’s is. [I did, she didn’t answer]

Me, but you’ve ALWAYS talked to me like this!

G, because I’ve always known which path you would follow. I MADE you my girl. Remember? LOLOL

Me, yes. 🙂  but what about free will?

G, Janine when you first came to me, you told me things and released your whole self to me, you completely let me in. oh sure,  you have your own will, which you’ve exercised time and again haven’t you?

Me, yes

G, but like David, I know your heart. I know the heart of those that have been chosen to go down the hard path.

Me, if I was chosen, then how come you asked me if I wanted too?

G, because it’s always better to go willingly, as I’ve told you before. Willingly means you’re WITH me on this, you are aware and your heart and eyes are open, as opposed to hearing later, when not as much could be done. All in my time girl, all in my time.

Not Sure I Can Do This God 1-9-18

1-9-18. Yep, it’s been a while since I posted. Instead of going thru why, I’m just gonna post. Besides, I mostly am writing to God or myself anyway.

God, I’m not sure I can do this. I know I told You I would go forward with you in 2013, but at this point, I’m not sure I can. But I can’t go back. I am stuck. 

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This path you have me on, these flower essences and frequencies, this book You wanted me to write. It all feels like I’m reading things into things. I DO know YOU called things that were not, into being. But this isn’t like that. This is reading what *I* think it is, into it. 

God, don’t you trust me to speak to you thru my Spirit? 

Me, apparently not. I KNOW that you direct me even when I don’t know it. But are you doing this ALL the time? Noooo, Because if you were, I would not make so many mistakes. I mean, really God. You tell me SO MANY things and first off, it’s SO enlightening and exciting, but second, it’s FRIGHTENING to a person who is a lot more grey now, but still, the black and white rears it’s head. Like yesterday, in our convo, I guess I may as well put the whole thing here. Seriously God, I am really upset with You that You tell me to STILL put my personal stuff online. I think I’m just upset at this whole thing.

So yesterday, 1-8-18 [no, the number is not lost on me] and btw, that prophetic word Mike Maiden gave me in 2004 about the number 18, what does THAT mean??

“struggling with fear and mindsets. 

me, what about dealing with all these new agers? How am I supposed to differentiate? 

God, you don’t. 

me, what labels do I put on it?

God, no label, not everything has to have a label, some things just ARE

me, then how do I understand it? 

God, go with the flow. Set yourself free, stop putting a fence around yourself. *I* don’t do that to you. YOU do that to you. You agree with the devil and allow a fence to be put around you because you fear. You fear because you were born in sin and that’s what people do. They fear instead of fly. 

LORD! how are we supposed to FLY if we have all this fear in and around us?

God, By trust. In Me.

me, how are we supposed to GET there? 

God, surrendering to me. Flowers, plants, nature, commune with nature. Those other people are not so far off Janine, it’s who they are worshipping, not what they are doing. “

That, right there. God, you tell me stuff like that and it blows me away, freaks me out, I TRY, you KNOW I try. ‘not what they are doing’. God, seriously. I get that YOU think I’m the right person for this. I get that YOU take the stubborn and stupid to do those things that YOU want us to do, so YOU get the glory. I’m good with that. Except I think that doing this, I’m reading things into it. What if it’s not you? What if I’m wrong in a BIG way? Yep, fear. You betcha. [ maybe I should rename this blog, ‘notes from the stubborn and stupid’.  *rueful grin*]

 I KNOW I said I’ll fly with You, I’ll soar with You. I’ll have no fear. I’ve done fairly well, Until yesterday. I’m overwhelmed with trying to do things the way I think You’ve told me to do AND loosen up and have fun. 

So the rest of our chat? What brought this all up? The dream I woke up with. [ I want it on record God, that I greatly dislike putting my ‘stuff’ out there. If I dared to be blatantly disobedient, I would be. I know I’ll get over this, At some point]

The Trump Dream

I was at the White House. I had a female friend with me. She had dark hair. We were walking down a wide hall on the second floor. There was a guy walking toward us, it was “Jay” from Madam Secretary. I wanted him to like me, but he liked my friend and I was more interested meeting the President of the United States, so that was ok. 

We were in the Presidents office. he came in. We talked a bit. It was very informal. 

I wanted to be remembered for something. I wanted other people to know I had been there. I went up to where he was sitting and massaged his shoulders. There was a place that he found was painful on his side, by his ribs, when I massaged it. He was surprised it was there. 

I asked if he liked the massage, he shrugged and said yes. 

It was time to leave, although none of we visitors wanted too. President Trump had to get back to work. The gal friend had on, at this point, a maroon coat and a maroon, knitted, slouch hat. ‘Jay’ had on a very dark green, knitted, slouch hat. It was winter outside. There was snow on the ground, the trees were bare and white. It was cold. 

We all were walking down a wide hallway. We were laughing, the President would smile every so often. I asked President Trump for something from the White House, like a match book or something, so people would know that I had been there. He kept walking, not saying anything. He went down the wide staircase. We all went with him. 

President Trump knew I was afraid to fly and he was trying to get my mind off of it. He showed us the snack place. It was at the bottom of the stairs, there was a popcorn machine, the red and white kind, on a stand, off to the right. It had fresh popcorn in it and round bins of all different flavors, sweet and savory. I knew I couldn’t have the popcorn due to what it does to my gut, so I went into a room on the left. In here were all kinds of stuff. Coffees, sodas, but what caught my eye were all the chocolates. The finest chocolates in the world were in here. I started putting handfuls in my purse. Even though I knew I shouldn’t have sugar. I did it anyway. Then after I filled up my purse, I looked at it and thought, ‘I can’t even eat all that, I need to take it out’.

But before I could take it out, President Trump got us all together, he was trying to get us shooed out. I was trying to take a selfie with him and get him to laugh. Its rare that people aren’t laughing when they are with me. He was so tall. The gal friend and ‘Jay’ were laughing it up over their antics on the left side of Trump, I was on his right side. Then I said something that he thought was funny or something happened he thought was funny and he started laughing and he really loosened up. That’s when i got the selfie with him. He was bent over at the shoulders, toward me, laughing with me. 

I asked him if he would say something in public about me the next time he was in public, so people would know that I’ve been there. I wasn’t sure he had heard me, but I knew he had heard me. 

When I was home I heard on the radio President Trump said, “Janine has faith”.

I thought it would be on tv or a press conference. It was on the RADIO of all places! I thought it was odd but that’s what he said and that’s where he said it. I wondered how in the world did he know I have faith or not? And why did he say THAT as opposed to something else? 

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 The day went downhill from when God said, ‘it’s not what they are doing, it’s who they are worshipping’. I thought I figured out a lot of the dream. I don’t eat stuff that physically hurts me, but i do eat stuff that hurts me, but I don’t feel it or see it. Sugar is bad for the bones. I need bone growth. [yes, I’m standing on His Word, even that was brought into this mess yesterday] So I do things I know I shouldn’t, disregarding their effects on me. The flesh is weak. Apparently I only pay attention to those things I can see and feel. 

So my prayer was, ‘Father deliver me from mindsets of fear. Fear to step out, fear to FLY with You. I knew it was NOT fear of flying in an airplane, cause I’m not. I’m afraid to fly with God. Which means I’m not trusting Him. 

I have fear of FREEDOM. [gads what kind of revelation is THAT???] Fear of making a mistake. fear of people, putting more stock in people’s thought of me, than of God’s thoughts of me.  

Right before I went to sleep on 1-5-18, this is what God said to me: Helping people to have visions, see themselves in the room with God, with Jesus, and Jesus healing their little ones. Using flower essences, guided imagery.

I freaked out. I actually said on my note I wrote [in evernote]. oh my God. [I never say that]

I also remembered when I went out back to sit in the rocker, I had had another dream. That dream was that the HUGE passion flower vine I have in my backyard was completely bare of leaves. Completely. 

Then I did a freak out on text to someone. “Is there REALLY enough TIME left to take ME from where I am to where He wants me????? To where YOU are???? Do I HEAR well enough? Can I get PAST the mindsets? Can I? Is it possible to counter the rigidity of Christianity? [other people, not me ] And who the hell am I to think ANYONE will listen to me? Where in the world do I fit in NOW? 

Once I publish a book, or write on a blog or open my mouth, it’s gonna be all over but the shoutin’. Oh, my, God. 

This word that I got from a gal on facebook on 1-5-18: “As I prayed and asked Holy Spirit to show me something for you, this is what I got. I saw in a field you dancing and praising the Lord. Then I saw a dandelion all in seed. I heard the Lord say Blow on it my Daughter and the seeds that you plant will go far and wide. Not to underestimate your words. I am the one that carries them on the wind to many places. You are a planter of many seeds. Your harvest is plentiful. Look into my face and see the joy you bring me. You are my beloved and I am yours. Be filled with Joy this day. For my joy is your strength and I will provide all that you have need of. As you walk and talk with me I will show you many things. Get ready for your harvest. You have planted many seeds.

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And I’ve been under attack ever since without realizing it was an attack. I _must_ remember that ‘what if’ is fear. That anything negative in my head, is not God. It’s me or the enemy. If it’s me, then it’s fear and fear is the enemy, so it all goes back to – it’s the enemy or it’s God. I’m the pawn. Why would I ever think bad things of myself? [besides being wired too because of my past, but that’s different]. The Bible says we are the pawns. Ephesians 3:10 New Living Translation: God’s purpose in all this was to use the church [people are the church, NOT a building!] to display his wisdom in its rich variety to all the unseen rulers and authorities in the heavenly places. That makes us pawns. Pawns with a Purpose. PWAP. I’m a PWAP

So the upshot of all this? no leaves on the vine – passion is gone, healing is gone. [no idea, just trying for something]. Trump dream, I have faith. That and 2 bits will get me a hair cut. I need bone growth in my jaw. [yes yes, i hear myself]. 

wow. I think the cat is out of the bag now. Re-reading this for proofing. I might as well publish the book, write the blog and start talking it. I already walk it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

President Trump Dream 1-8-18

1-8-18 
I was at the white house. I had a female friend with me. She had dark hair. We were walking down a wide hall. There was a guy walking toward us, it was ‘Jay’ from Madam Secretary. I wanted him to like me, but he liked my friend and I was more interested in the President of the United States, so that was ok. 
 
We were in the Presidents office. He came in. We talked a bit. It was very informal. 
I wanted to be remembered for something, so I went up to where he was sitting and massaged his shoulders. There was a place that was painful in his right side, he was surprised it was there. I asked if he liked the massage, he shrugged and said yes. 
It was time to leave, although none of us wanted too, President Trump had to get to work. The gal friend had on at this point, a maroon coat and maroon, knitted slouch hat. ‘Jay’ had on a very dark green, knitted, slouch hat. It was winter outside.
 
We all were walking down a wide hallway, we were laughing, the President would smile every so often. I asked President Trump for something from the White House, like a match book or something, so people would know that I had been there. He kept walking, not saying anything. He went down the staircase. It was wide. We all went with him. 
PT knew I was afraid to fly (with the Lord) and he was trying to get my mind off of it, so we took us to this room where all this really fancy chocolate candy and snacks were. Off to the right, was an oldtime popcorn machine stand, with all different kinds of popcorn and flavors. I knew I couldn’t eat popcorn (digestion), so I went to the little room on the left. It was filled with the finest chocolates in the world and other candy & drinks, hot & cold. I went straight to the chocolates. I started putting handfuls upon handfuls in my purse. 
Even though I knew I shouldn’t have sugar. I still did it anyway. And then after I filled up my purse with it, I looked at it and I thought, “I can’t even eat all that”, that I need to take it out. But before I could take it out, President Trump got us all together, he was trying to get us out. I was trying to take a selfie with him and get him to laugh. He was so tall. He was talking to my girlfriend and the guy, and I wanted to get his face turned toward me, so finally I did. And I took the picture. And then I said something or did something, my girlfriend and Jay were laughing & acting silly. Then PT started laughing at what they were doing, instead of being so straight-laced and uptight, he started laughing, and then he started laughing with me and he really loosened up. And then that’s when I got the selfie with him. It was him, bent over toward me, laughing with me.
I asked him if he would say something in public about me the next time he was in public, so people would know that I’d had been there. I wasn’t sure he had heard me, but I knew he had heard me. ( Wasn’t acknowledged)
When I was home I heard on the radio President Trump said “Janine has faith!”. I thought it would be on TV or a press conference. It was on the RADIO of all places! 
I thought it was odd but that’s what he said and that’s where he said it. And I wondered how did he know I had faith? And why did he say that?

1-5-18 just a convo

1-5-18
God, why did you want me to do THAT, [the essences] instead of something else? Hidden riches in secret places?
G, yes. And more. There are things I want to teach you. 
me, Why me?
G, why not you?
Well, money.
Gd, you’re taken care of, aren’t you?
Me, yes.
G, well then.
Me, well, I want to travel.
God, and so?
Me, so I need more money
And how am I supposed to fit in the book writing stuff and HOW do you want me to publish other’s stories when they haven’t written them yet and HOW do you want me to go about writing them for them? [if you do want me to do that]And just HOW am I supposed to get paid for publishing others’ books?
G, time, time will tell. As you go along, obediently, you will see.
Me, struggling to not sound bad. yes, but it would be very nice to know a part of the plan.
G, the next vision session we have, I’ll tell you some. The sessions are important Janine, stop putting them off.
Yes Lord

What is “IT”????

People say, ‘he has ‘it’’, or “she has ‘it’”. Others say, “what IS ‘it’”?

No one seems to be able to put their finger on ‘it’. Let me tell you what IT is.

It’s an almost ethereal quality that is palpable, but until now, undefinable. It is the total opposite of self-absorbed, self-centered and selfish. 

It’s a part of the personality. It’s confidence, confidence in your personality, in who you are. It’s not depending on one’s looks to get by, it’s one who is interested in others and interesting.

It’s someone with a sense of humor, confident in who they are, what they have to offer. Confident you can make others laugh, or feel good, confidence that is past what you look like, past what you weigh.

“IT” is not something you can achieve, it’s a quality that comes with being kind, considerate, being comfortable in your own skin. Not thinking about your self, but thinking about others.

It’s chutzpah. It’s good looks and a sense of humor. It’s a sexual chutzpah that exudes sexuality which translates into sexiness, but it is not trying to be sexy, it’s not overt, it just is sexy. It’s sexual chutzpah. Confident in how you are received by others, knowing what to say, when and how to say it. 

It’s confidence. Being more interested in listening to others than wanting to talk about yourself. 

It’s joie de vivre. The art of living fully, laughing loudly. 

It’s the same confidence that exudes from you, when you are dressed up or dressed well. Beard trimmed, make-up on. It’s just further than that. It’s a part of the innate personality. It’s not ‘charm’, but charm has something to do with it. 

ALL this translates into a sense of sexiness. It’s less about what you look like, but all about how you live life, make others feel and CONFIDENCE in yourself. 

What Happens After Having Forever Love

 

Love, it comes in all shapes, all colors.

Love

There are all kinds of love as you know. You have now known forever love. Since you have, you now need to turn your attention to other kinds of love, even, yes even, falling in love again. Now that you have experienced deep love, falling in love and it being reciprocated, which is the true measure of falling in love, now that you have experienced it –

Love refreshed

You can turn your attention to the people in your life now and love with all your heart. Because, like loving God, true love is abiding. It won’t walk away, it won’t turn on you, it is always there, in your heart.

abiding love

Having that deep human need to be loved, filled, it did what it was supposed to do. It activated our hearts to love again. Yes, even falling IN love again. That’s what abiding love does. It means you can love again, with the same heart felt, deep abiding love. It is not a betrayal of the first love, it honors the first love, Because the first love was the opening of your heart TO love and opening our hearts to another means the first love did what it was intended to do. It gave us a *knowing*. That confidence that we are or have been, loved. It filled up our senses and satisfied our souls.

Love is not meant to be kept close to the vest. It is meant to be invested in others. It is meant to be given away in whatever measures the person and situation calls for.

So keep that first love in your heart, keep it there where it fills you up and when it’s time, let it begin to go to that special box you have in your mind, where you keep good memories that make you feel good, but that you don’t revisit often, if at all. It’s just a confident knowing that it’s always there and it was real.

New Love

And go on to live a full life, loving those you are around in the present. Honor the first, true love you had by giving love to another. Knowing, in your heart of hearts, that first, deep, abiding love, started you on the road to sharing love and that it’s still with you.                     

                                                                                                                        

Father, Do I Haveta Put These On…

Father, do I haveta put these on…

God, yes, why do you even ask?

Because they are SO PERSONAL GOD!!

Didn’t I ask you to be poured out this way?

Yes, but that was before, when it didn’t matter so much to me, that i was an open book and now I’m older and I don’t want to be so open. I really don’t want too. I really don’t want too.

God, ‘so what? Would you have me tell you to stop? Janine, you know how many people have stumbled across your site over the years. You know the pages have helped people and yes, there are those that have stolen what you have said and put it on their site. Yes, I will deal with them.

Neveryoumind about what you feel. Neveryoumind. Oh my daughter! YES I love thee, YES I cherish you, you KNOW that, but my people…Janine haven’t you been asking me for a vision of what I would do for the people of the Lord’?

Me, knowing what is coming…’yes Lord’. 

God, ‘this is it. If YOU won’t tell them, who will? I have done MUCH work in you Janine and there is much more to be done.

Me, thanks God [sarcasm]

God, See?? You took the negative, what you thought was negative. You betrayed your self in the thinking. Why didn’t you focus on the positive?

Me, because YOU ended it with the negative??

God, true, for a lesson.

Me, thank you God. [no sarcasm]

God, back to the lesson at hand.

Yes Father.

God, just do it baby girl. I know you don’t like this. I KNOW. I am so pleased you ARE doing it. Take off the thm stuff.

Me, yes Father.

God, this is about you and me. Not you, the world and me, but you and me. 

Yes, Lord. Father, I feel like I’m spilling my guts for all to see. It’s bad enough that I have felt certain ways and been and are ways. It’s bad enough that I’ve struggled for SO LONG with all this, and yes, people have seen it, but not EVERYONE LORD!

God, you’re concerned with judgements.

Yes Lord.

What did I already tell you?

Me, Basically, too bad.

God, Janine, you know I didn’t put it that way. Honey, there will always be people who judge. All you can do is follow me, follow hard after me and do what I tell you to do. Right?

Me, hanging my head, ‘yes Lord’.

God, where’s that smile?

Me, smiled, not a sincere smile.

God, you can do better than that. Where’s that smile?

Me, smiling. ‘I STILL don’t want to put all this out there.

God, ‘why not? leave out the above reasons, why not?

Me, because this is the stuff people hide. It’s the stuff that should be weeded out already, it’s the stuff that is so personal that when people see it, they think less of the person.

God, So that’s it. You don’t want people to think less of you.

Father, yes, I don’t want them too.

But baby girl, don’t you SEE? Everyone feels these ways at different times. All I want you to do is show them it’s normal and to know that I take care of them if they press into me. If they hunger and thirst after righteousness. Don’t you WANT to be poured out for me???

Me, gads God, when you put it THAT way! This is part of the stepping out?

God, yes, in a way.

Me, what do you mean, ‘in a way’?

G I have already told you to do this. Years ago. I expect you to continue until I release you from it. If I do. So this isn’t as much as ‘stepping out’ because you’ve already been doing it. It’s stepping through your fears, your self judgement and setting others free through your obedience.

Me, thank you Father for the explanation. Help me get to the place where I’m happy to do this.

G, I will my girl. I will.

Update 2 hours later: Me, so what it is, is it doesn’t matter how I feel, it matters how other people feel and how much enlightenment they get through me showing my pain and learning.

G, yep. And don’t you worry about it my girl. I am your father and I will protect you and I will never let you down. I love you with everything in me. I love you. You are my cherished daughter, just like you pray every morning. You. Are. My. Cherished. Daughter. 

How to Raise Your Credit Score

 

The ideal usage of your credit is 6% of less. Get that? Using 6% or less of your credit is what makes you look good on paper.

What is your credit score based on?

     1. The mix of credit you have. Revolving accounts, bank-issued credit card accounts,           installment loans. This accounts for 10% of your FICO score rating.

You can raise your credit score by paying your bills on time, dispute any credit report errors and keep debt under control. You can contact your lenders who may be willing to work with you to set up a different payment schedule OR lower the loan’s interest rate.

Learn to live within your means. Only charge what you can afford to pay off in full at the end of the month.

     2. Payment history, a whopping 35% of your FICO score is based on payment history. Late payments, collections, negative public records, this all is included. This shows lenders you are a good borrower, that you pay off your bills promptly.

     3. Amount of debt; this accounts for 30% of your FICO score. This includes revolving          utilization, accounts with balances, revolving account balance.

 This is trickier than it looks. My Experian score went down 20 points. Twenty points!! I got it figured out though. It’s because I wasn’t carrying a balance on anything. You HAVE to show you DO charge things and you DO pay off over time. but just _some_ things. So I charged some stuff and took two months to pay it off. So when it says to pay off everything in full at the end of the month, you need to carry a balance on your credit card every so often.

 A month after it was paid off, my score went up 13 points. So clearly, I need to do it again.

     4. Credit history length – this accounts for 15% of your FICO credit score. This is in regard to managing different types of credit accounts. What is the average age of your credit history and what is the age of the oldest account is what they look at.

     5. Amount of new credit. When did you open the latest account and how many inquiries were there in the last year. This accounts for 10% of your FICO score. So there you have it. How to get your credit score up.