How She Thinks

Ana’s Book, My Visions

1-12-18 I’m currently reading Ana Werner’s book, “The Seer’s Path”. If you decide to read it, know that there are a lot of misspellings, one VERY graphic story in there that shouldn’t even be in there and the proofing was slip-shod. THAT SAID, I think you should buy it. [I’m over that ‘put up an affiliate link’] 

It’s a REALLY good book. Ana has us practice doing visions early on. I’m further in the book, but I’m still doing the visions. Jesus said He wants me here ‘for a while’. It’s been a few weeks. He told me yesterday to ‘keep doing the visions, they’re important’. I have had tremendous emotional healing thru doing this. God also told me late Dec to “take a flower essence daily, I don’t care which one, just take it every day”. So I have been. I have them all over the house since I make them and it’s the focus of my new book, “Demystifying Frequencies and Flower Essences”. I generally end up with just once a day, but it’s every day.

I believe it’s because of the essence and practicing having the visions that I’m getting so much break through. Yesterday was huge. You can read it on here.

This morning’s vision, was me, at about 6, putting my hand in Jesus’ and we were walking along. I told Him I love holding hands with him. He smiled.

I probably need to back up some. Ana doesn’t cover this in her book. But when I first started with the visions, Jesus spoke, like we do, out loud, with his mouth moving. When I first had the visions, there was food there and drinks. He drinks tea most of the time, not coffee, because He said it’s cleaner and he likes it better. Remember, this is MY vision, it will be different in yours. *I* took that to mean I should drink tea more instead of coffee. I found out later, that wasn’t so. [go read under the link we talk, he and i]. But He Talked OUT LOUD. He SAID he was doing it that way for me, so that I would be comfortable. The food, the cups, talking out loud. 

BUT NOW, I see, He’s doing the spirit to spirit talking. That just happened that I noticed, today. 1-12-18. He might have done it before, but I didn’t notice. 

Today, when He smiled about me saying I love holding hands with him, he said, ‘that won’t always be so’, but it wasn’t loudly and it wasn’t scary. And He didn’t move his lips. [I’m just not gonna cap the H all the time, he’s not bothered if I don’t]. So we’re walking along and all of a sudden I’m a path, strewn with yellow leaves from a huge tree overhead that is dropping them. It’s FALL! I LOVE kicking leaves and crunching them underfoot. I KNOW Jesus is ahead of me and I’m hurrying to catch up, but enjoying the leaves, how pretty they are, they crunch and it’s just so pretty! I go around the bend in the path, the tree is at the bend and I see Jesus ahead of me, walking along slowly, scuffling thru the leaves, head down, like he’s thinking.

He knows I’m there [cause he’s God]. He turns around and kneels as I run into his arms, out of breath. I was SO happy! Happy He’s there, happy to see him, happy about the leaves. We started walking along, my hand in his. I asked, “why are the leaves yellow”? He said, “because you like them. They’re crunchy too, because you like it”. He smiled at me. “Did you feel the crunch”? “Yes”, I said. “I LIKED it”! I asked, “do the yellow leaves mean something else too”? He said, “yes, but that’s for later”.

I was in bed when I had this vision. Snuggled up under the covers where it was warm. I snuggled deeper because that’s how God makes me feel. Loved, warm and safe.

I am just reveling in the new knowledge I have that I’m average. It sure doesn’t mean to me what it means to most people. It means I don’t have to try [so] hard? No, it means I don’t have to try to be: I don’t have to be someone I’m not, I don’t have to heal anyone, I don’t have to teach anyone, I don’t have to excel at anything, I don’t have to be better than, or smarter than, or richer than, or louder than. I CAN JUST BE ME. OH! what a feeling! THIS is where SELF LOVE comes in to play. THIS is where ‘love your neighbor as yourself’ happens! I am now free, to not only love me, but to BE me. 

So when i was in the spa room this morning, there’s still a lot of stuff I haven’t gotten rid of. God smiled and said, “because I know you like concocting things, so it’s still there for you to do, if you want too”.

I don’t have to keep all the stuff for a business. IT”S NOT MY PROBLEM. And since the Bible says I have whatever I say, I’ve been ‘saying’ all morning. I am so happy. I’m so grateful to Jesus/God for setting me free of that HORRIBLE bondage.

I really AM going to enjoy MY life!

Not Sure I Can Do This God 1-9-18

1-9-18. Yep, it’s been a while since I posted. Instead of going thru why, I’m just gonna post. Besides, I mostly am writing to God or myself anyway.

God, I’m not sure I can do this. I know I told You I would go forward with you in 2013, but at this point, I’m not sure I can. But I can’t go back. I am stuck. 

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This path you have me on, these flower essences and frequencies, this book You wanted me to write. It all feels like I’m reading things into things. I DO know YOU called things that were not, into being. But this isn’t like that. This is reading what *I* think it is, into it. 

God, don’t you trust me to speak to you thru my Spirit? 

Me, apparently not. I KNOW that you direct me even when I don’t know it. But are you doing this ALL the time? Noooo, Because if you were, I would not make so many mistakes. I mean, really God. You tell me SO MANY things and first off, it’s SO enlightening and exciting, but second, it’s FRIGHTENING to a person who is a lot more grey now, but still, the black and white rears it’s head. Like yesterday, in our convo, I guess I may as well put the whole thing here. Seriously God, I am really upset with You that You tell me to STILL put my personal stuff online. I think I’m just upset at this whole thing.

So yesterday, 1-8-18 [no, the number is not lost on me] and btw, that prophetic word Mike Maiden gave me in 2004 about the number 18, what does THAT mean??

“struggling with fear and mindsets. 

me, what about dealing with all these new agers? How am I supposed to differentiate? 

God, you don’t. 

me, what labels do I put on it?

God, no label, not everything has to have a label, some things just ARE

me, then how do I understand it? 

God, go with the flow. Set yourself free, stop putting a fence around yourself. *I* don’t do that to you. YOU do that to you. You agree with the devil and allow a fence to be put around you because you fear. You fear because you were born in sin and that’s what people do. They fear instead of fly. 

LORD! how are we supposed to FLY if we have all this fear in and around us?

God, By trust. In Me.

me, how are we supposed to GET there? 

God, surrendering to me. Flowers, plants, nature, commune with nature. Those other people are not so far off Janine, it’s who they are worshipping, not what they are doing. “

That, right there. God, you tell me stuff like that and it blows me away, freaks me out, I TRY, you KNOW I try. ‘not what they are doing’. God, seriously. I get that YOU think I’m the right person for this. I get that YOU take the stubborn and stupid to do those things that YOU want us to do, so YOU get the glory. I’m good with that. Except I think that doing this, I’m reading things into it. What if it’s not you? What if I’m wrong in a BIG way? Yep, fear. You betcha. [ maybe I should rename this blog, ‘notes from the stubborn and stupid’.  *rueful grin*]

 I KNOW I said I’ll fly with You, I’ll soar with You. I’ll have no fear. I’ve done fairly well, Until yesterday. I’m overwhelmed with trying to do things the way I think You’ve told me to do AND loosen up and have fun. 

So the rest of our chat? What brought this all up? The dream I woke up with. [ I want it on record God, that I greatly dislike putting my ‘stuff’ out there. If I dared to be blatantly disobedient, I would be. I know I’ll get over this, At some point]

The Trump Dream

I was at the White House. I had a female friend with me. She had dark hair. We were walking down a wide hall on the second floor. There was a guy walking toward us, it was “Jay” from Madam Secretary. I wanted him to like me, but he liked my friend and I was more interested meeting the President of the United States, so that was ok. 

We were in the Presidents office. he came in. We talked a bit. It was very informal. 

I wanted to be remembered for something. I wanted other people to know I had been there. I went up to where he was sitting and massaged his shoulders. There was a place that he found was painful on his side, by his ribs, when I massaged it. He was surprised it was there. 

I asked if he liked the massage, he shrugged and said yes. 

It was time to leave, although none of we visitors wanted too. President Trump had to get back to work. The gal friend had on, at this point, a maroon coat and a maroon, knitted, slouch hat. ‘Jay’ had on a very dark green, knitted, slouch hat. It was winter outside. There was snow on the ground, the trees were bare and white. It was cold. 

We all were walking down a wide hallway. We were laughing, the President would smile every so often. I asked President Trump for something from the White House, like a match book or something, so people would know that I had been there. He kept walking, not saying anything. He went down the wide staircase. We all went with him. 

President Trump knew I was afraid to fly and he was trying to get my mind off of it. He showed us the snack place. It was at the bottom of the stairs, there was a popcorn machine, the red and white kind, on a stand, off to the right. It had fresh popcorn in it and round bins of all different flavors, sweet and savory. I knew I couldn’t have the popcorn due to what it does to my gut, so I went into a room on the left. In here were all kinds of stuff. Coffees, sodas, but what caught my eye were all the chocolates. The finest chocolates in the world were in here. I started putting handfuls in my purse. Even though I knew I shouldn’t have sugar. I did it anyway. Then after I filled up my purse, I looked at it and thought, ‘I can’t even eat all that, I need to take it out’.

But before I could take it out, President Trump got us all together, he was trying to get us shooed out. I was trying to take a selfie with him and get him to laugh. Its rare that people aren’t laughing when they are with me. He was so tall. The gal friend and ‘Jay’ were laughing it up over their antics on the left side of Trump, I was on his right side. Then I said something that he thought was funny or something happened he thought was funny and he started laughing and he really loosened up. That’s when i got the selfie with him. He was bent over at the shoulders, toward me, laughing with me. 

I asked him if he would say something in public about me the next time he was in public, so people would know that I’ve been there. I wasn’t sure he had heard me, but I knew he had heard me. 

When I was home I heard on the radio President Trump said, “Janine has faith”.

I thought it would be on tv or a press conference. It was on the RADIO of all places! I thought it was odd but that’s what he said and that’s where he said it. I wondered how in the world did he know I have faith or not? And why did he say THAT as opposed to something else? 

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 The day went downhill from when God said, ‘it’s not what they are doing, it’s who they are worshipping’. I thought I figured out a lot of the dream. I don’t eat stuff that physically hurts me, but i do eat stuff that hurts me, but I don’t feel it or see it. Sugar is bad for the bones. I need bone growth. [yes, I’m standing on His Word, even that was brought into this mess yesterday] So I do things I know I shouldn’t, disregarding their effects on me. The flesh is weak. Apparently I only pay attention to those things I can see and feel. 

So my prayer was, ‘Father deliver me from mindsets of fear. Fear to step out, fear to FLY with You. I knew it was NOT fear of flying in an airplane, cause I’m not. I’m afraid to fly with God. Which means I’m not trusting Him. 

I have fear of FREEDOM. [gads what kind of revelation is THAT???] Fear of making a mistake. fear of people, putting more stock in people’s thought of me, than of God’s thoughts of me.  

Right before I went to sleep on 1-5-18, this is what God said to me: Helping people to have visions, see themselves in the room with God, with Jesus, and Jesus healing their little ones. Using flower essences, guided imagery.

I freaked out. I actually said on my note I wrote [in evernote]. oh my God. [I never say that]

I also remembered when I went out back to sit in the rocker, I had had another dream. That dream was that the HUGE passion flower vine I have in my backyard was completely bare of leaves. Completely. 

Then I did a freak out on text to someone. “Is there REALLY enough TIME left to take ME from where I am to where He wants me????? To where YOU are???? Do I HEAR well enough? Can I get PAST the mindsets? Can I? Is it possible to counter the rigidity of Christianity? [other people, not me ] And who the hell am I to think ANYONE will listen to me? Where in the world do I fit in NOW? 

Once I publish a book, or write on a blog or open my mouth, it’s gonna be all over but the shoutin’. Oh, my, God. 

This word that I got from a gal on facebook on 1-5-18: “As I prayed and asked Holy Spirit to show me something for you, this is what I got. I saw in a field you dancing and praising the Lord. Then I saw a dandelion all in seed. I heard the Lord say Blow on it my Daughter and the seeds that you plant will go far and wide. Not to underestimate your words. I am the one that carries them on the wind to many places. You are a planter of many seeds. Your harvest is plentiful. Look into my face and see the joy you bring me. You are my beloved and I am yours. Be filled with Joy this day. For my joy is your strength and I will provide all that you have need of. As you walk and talk with me I will show you many things. Get ready for your harvest. You have planted many seeds.

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And I’ve been under attack ever since without realizing it was an attack. I _must_ remember that ‘what if’ is fear. That anything negative in my head, is not God. It’s me or the enemy. If it’s me, then it’s fear and fear is the enemy, so it all goes back to – it’s the enemy or it’s God. I’m the pawn. Why would I ever think bad things of myself? [besides being wired too because of my past, but that’s different]. The Bible says we are the pawns. Ephesians 3:10 New Living Translation: God’s purpose in all this was to use the church [people are the church, NOT a building!] to display his wisdom in its rich variety to all the unseen rulers and authorities in the heavenly places. That makes us pawns. Pawns with a Purpose. PWAP. I’m a PWAP

So the upshot of all this? no leaves on the vine – passion is gone, healing is gone. [no idea, just trying for something]. Trump dream, I have faith. That and 2 bits will get me a hair cut. I need bone growth in my jaw. [yes yes, i hear myself]. 

wow. I think the cat is out of the bag now. Re-reading this for proofing. I might as well publish the book, write the blog and start talking it. I already walk it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

1-5-18 just a convo

1-5-18
God, why did you want me to do THAT, [the essences] instead of something else? Hidden riches in secret places?
G, yes. And more. There are things I want to teach you. 
me, Why me?
G, why not you?
Well, money.
Gd, you’re taken care of, aren’t you?
Me, yes.
G, well then.
Me, well, I want to travel.
God, and so?
Me, so I need more money
And how am I supposed to fit in the book writing stuff and HOW do you want me to publish other’s stories when they haven’t written them yet and HOW do you want me to go about writing them for them? [if you do want me to do that]And just HOW am I supposed to get paid for publishing others’ books?
G, time, time will tell. As you go along, obediently, you will see.
Me, struggling to not sound bad. yes, but it would be very nice to know a part of the plan.
G, the next vision session we have, I’ll tell you some. The sessions are important Janine, stop putting them off.
Yes Lord