How She Thinks

God’s on Purpose Princess

Are you sad? Are you depressed? Do you feel like no one loves you or understands you? Do you wish you had at least one good friend? 

Were you molested, abused, ridiculed or tormented? Did one of your parents walk away and leave you, whether for a week or forever? 

Are you secretly sad? Is your skin a color you wish it weren’t?  Do you wish you were smarter, prettier, taller, shorter? Do you want to be loved, accepted, approved and liked?

God wants you to know something.

You are his Princess. He made you on purpose. There is nothing wrong with you. 

God is not in control of everyone. There are people in this world that do not acknowledge him as Lord. They are their own god, they do what they want, when they want to do it. You have probably experienced this at some point in your life.

However, God knows your hurt, He sees and He feels your pain. He knows, because he’s felt just the same.  There is a beautiful song, written by Dallas Holm that goes like this:

Jesus knows your hurt

“The pain some people bear no one would believe;
The hurt that’s sometimes there makes it hard to see
That in the darkest hour there is still a way;
Listen to these simple words I say;

Jesus knows your hurt, Jesus feels your pain;
Jesus knows just how you feel, ’cause He’s felts just the same;
Jesus knows your need better than you do;
Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you!

Sometimes you feel alone, does He really car?
Has He left you all alone, and does He hear your prayer?
Well, He has never left you or forsaken you one day;
Listen to these simple words I say;

Jesus knows your hurt, Jesus feels your pain;
Jesus knows just how you feel, ’cause He’s felts just the same;
Jesus knows your need better than you do;
Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you!
Just hold on to Jesus, He’s holding on to you!

Jesus knows your heart, better than you do. And God wants you to know, you are his Princess.

God made you unique. He gave life to you, because He wants you on this earth, fulfilling your life’s destiny. He wants you to have joy and peace and prosperity. He wants us to praise him and glorify him in all we do. He wants us as his family. That’s why He made us!

God loves you

Above all, God wants you to know he loves you. He wants you to know he made you the way you are. He also wants you to know that he, who is the King of Kings, made you and gave you gifts! He made you special. 

Sure, there are rough edges on you, just like there are on everyone else in this world. However if you give your heart and life to Jesus, he will make sure you get healed of all the pain you’ve endured. Holy Spirit will smooth the rough edges and heal your heart.

I would guess 99% of people come from dysfunctional families. Women all over the world have been cussed, cursed, used, abused, attacked, screamed at and generally mistreated at the hands of someone in their life.

BUT – God wants you to know who you are. You dear girl, are God’s Princess, his creation, his adored daughter. You are his gift to the world.  

He loves you. He’s aware of you. He accepts you just as you are.

You didn’t just happen. You aren’t a mistake. He didn’t mess up when you were created. You weren’t behind a door when beauty and wisdom and patience were handed out. You didn’t come from under a rock and you were not the-last-banana-on-the-boat.

You were created ON PURPOSE – BY GOD

Our Father made you the way you are. You are awesomely and wonderfully made. Gifted, talented and skilled. If you think otherwise, then you are listening to someone else. You my friend, are God’s ‘On Purpose Princess’.  To God, you are #1. He loves us all the same, which makes all of us, #1. God does not have favorites. He sees each of us as special. So beautiful, so sweet.

Yessss, some of us don’t feel so sweet or beautiful. We know what we’ve said, we know what we’ve done. We know what’s in our hearts. Well, God does too. And that is the reason He sent Jesus, his Son, to die for us, each of us, on the cross. Jesus took away all our sins and sicknesses.  All you have to do is believe it. Why is that all you have to do??? Because the work of having someone die for you, has already been done.

Once you believe Jesus died for you on the cross, you ask him to forgive you of all the sins you have committed. Then ask Him to live in your heart. Take your self off the throne and allow Jesus the Christ to be the Lord of your life.

Once you do this, you will have salvation. That means when your body dies, your spirit will live always with God. Our spirits will always live somewhere, either in hell with the devil or in heaven with God.

If you choose not to do this, God still loves you. The fact that He created you and accepts you is still valid. However it also means you will not go to heaven when your body dies. Only if you believe Jesus died on the cross, shedding his blood, to wipe away the sins of the world, of you, personally, will that get you eternal life in heaven. 

He wants you healed. He wants you whole. He wants to give you the plans He has for you. Plans to prosper you, to give you a future and a hope. [found in the Bible, Jeremiah, chapter 29 verse 11 usually written: Jer 29:11 ]

To do this, you need to belong to Him. You need to give your life to Him.

There is no time like the present to ask for forgiveness and accept Jesus as your Savior.

Your crown

And always, always remember, no matter what the devil on your shoulder tells you, no matter what other people may say to you, you shine up that crown, put it on your head and always tell yourself this:

I am GOD’S Princess on purpose.  He makes no junk, he loves me as I am. I am the head and not the tail. I have a purpose and I am loved. 

Parallel Universes

The Lord and I are having ‘sessions’ these days. This is where he and one of my no-longer-wounded-usually parts, talk and he teaches her. Most of the time they don’t know Jesus. It’s been a wild ride Mr. Toad. In these, Jesus is my Daddy. He’s not ‘God’, he’s my Daddy. He is giving me a story, called The Cork Road and he’s giving me lessons in and outside the story. Since no one taught me anything growing up, he is teaching all of us now. One age at a time. 

Yesterday morning, 7/11/18, he was telling…let me back up a bit. I am now at 8 yrs old. We’ve been thru the other ages. Eight has proven to be extremely traumatic. I have also been at this age longer than the other ages. Eight is when everything culminated. Abandonment, neglect, all those things. I won’t bore you.

In these times with Daddy, I ask questions. There is a backstory to all this, of course, but I’m not going there now. Yesterday I was asking what worship is and if it’s better to pray out loud or in my head? 

He said, “You can pray in your head. Anytime. But if you’re talking to the devil, since you have a voice, you need to use it out loud. The only way you can speak to him, is out loud. If you have a voice. If you don’t have a voice, if you are deaf, then you sign it.

Claiming my promises? Out loud. If you have a voice, it is best to do it out loud for the promises and binding and such. If you are praying in tongues? You can do that in your head or out loud, you can pray in your head or out loud.”

“THANK YOU JESUS!”

“My pleasure my girl.”

The next bit was on worship. It’s long and I won’t put it here. It’s really interesting though. He had me look up definitions and tell him what they said and what I thought they meant. So at the end of it, I asked, ‘so Daddy, what is worship?’

“What do you think it is baby girl?”

“Well Daddy, from what I read, I think worship is studying your word like we just said. And I think it’s loving on you. Telling you how wonderful you are and great you are and all that. And also being obedient. And being aware of you. That’s really hard, to be aware of you all the time. Do you know that?”

“Yes baby, I do.”

“I think worship is being mindful of you in my life and acting on that instead of..whoa! Wait a minute God! If that’s the case, then if I say something from your word, or positive, but really, from your word – when something bad happens? Then that means I’m worshiping you, right?”

“Yes baby. You have a very good mind Janine. You are a very intelligent young lady.”

[he calls me Janine when he’s talking to ALL of us] {{I get this might be weird for you, but just flow with it}}.

He called me a young lady! I’m smiling all over the place and I sat up straight.

So that was yesterday morning. Last nite/wee hours of this morning, I have a huge recollection of something. I realize that what I thought before, was me thinking thru my feelings. This remembrance gave me clarity thru my mind, not my feelings. There is a difference. With feelings, you only think it was that way, or you feel it was that way, when it may not have been. It’s kinda like perception – thru feelings. I’m pretty sure you, the reader ‘gets it’.

But this memory recollection, took me down the path of remembering a WHOLE LOT more and realizing, my memories from my feelings WERE accurate and I saw just how accurate they were.

I was sobbing. Absolutely sobbing. I was floored that not only were my feelings accurate, there was so much more and it was all accurate. I KNEW I needed to respond well from the lesson that morning.

Because I was in the middle of all these feelings, there are only so many scriptures that will come up in my memory. I was also eight years old during some of this, as well as the current age.

I gave the only scriptures I knew. I am the apple of his eye. He loves me with an unfailing love. I am the apple of his eye.

I KNEW from what he told me earlier that I needed to speak positive things from his word. Not just ‘positive things’, but from his word. And I knew I had to forgive. I did. I forgave everything of this person [my mother] that I could think of.

Today I see a deeper truth. It’s like we are all in parallel universes. If we response from our flesh, our anger, that is the devil side. If we respond with the word of God, that is the God side. IF we respond to ANYTHING in our flesh, we will walk in that universe and reap the results. If we respond from the God side, we will walk in that universe and things will be different.

I was on the precipice last nite. However as an 8 yr old, I’m more inclined to do things how Daddy says, because I’m not all tainted with the flesh yet. I spoke the word in both ages. I forgave and today…toDAY, I am slightly in shock. But if I had responded thru the flesh, I would be numb.

We all walk in parallel universes. We can choose which outcome we want in our lives. 

Demons On The Doorstep

While in prayer today, 4-5-18, the Lord said when we judge someone else, the demons of that person are allowed to stay on our doorstep. They are allowed to attach to us, because we are agreeing with evil.

We are not to judge another. We are to forgive everyone. Even if they do something really bad or mean against us, we are to forgive them. To judge another person is to throw God off His throne and tell Him we can do it.

That’s like saying, I can fly this jet and take over the controls, even though we’ve never had pilot lessons. So you’re up in the air and then what?

As a human, it is our right to judge. But as a child of God, it is not our right to judge. We are to give our rights, all of them, to God. Let Him do what He needs to do, what He wants to do. Yes! It’s hard! NO! It’s not impossible!

We cannot leave bad reviews on a website about person or business, unless we have been released by God to do so. When we do that, we are then putting that person in prison, through judgement. Other people, Christian or not, read the bad reviews, then they will judge that person or business, from that review. Then it continues to exacerbate the problem and it becomes a huge problem to unravel. 

This is exactly how Satan runs this world. He gets at the underlying problems. Once there is this huge ball of judgement, it affects everyone involved. Demons are allowed on our doorstep, they are allowed to be in our homes and attach to us because we have judged another.

I repented for a lot of stuff. I took reviews off Yelp. I do not want to be agreeing with the devil in anything. I release it all to God, HE can take care of it.  

Do You Think It’s Gone?

Do you think it’s gone? Do you think because you are this age, that your childhood is gone and you can’t get it back? Do you say to yourself or God, “I can’t re-do it! I can’t get it back. what do I do”? Do you think you are lost or too far gone in any way? PLEASE stop thinking that way. Try to stop thinking that way. Try for yourself. If you follow Jesus , there is nothing further from the truth.

I know this because for the past 3-4 months, Jesus/God has been teaching my little ones. I better explain that. We are all made up of the ages we grew up through. And, if something bad happened to you at a certain age, that will create what is called a “wounded part”.  This wounded part has it’s own personality, it’s own anger, it’s own fear, it’s own attitude. Usually these wounded parts are trying to help the core person in some way, in ways they think are appropriate. But rarely is it appropriate. 

Some people call them alternate personalities, but that’s a scary term to my little ones. Besides they weren’t ‘alternate personalities’ because they never shut down reality for my core person and acted on their own. So, they are wounded parts. They are wounded little ones. [Others call them fragments, but mine are all people and they are real, they are not a fragment. That’s me, you can call them whatever your heart wants too]. I had a lot of wounded parts. I went through inner healing and deliverance for 9 or 10 yrs. I’ll probably write a book on it one day. 😉 

Some of my back story sucks. Let me say this and I think you’ll understand. My parents had one child, my sister. My mother wanted another child. It was me. But all she wanted was another child. She didn’t want to raise it. So she didn’t. My dad taught me some stuff, different times when she would send me away to live with him or my grandmother. Needless to say – I didn’t learn the things kids with one or two caring adults in their lives learn. I didn’t really ‘raise myself’, cause I didn’t know anything. This has made my life exceedingly difficult to get through. I managed in some areas, others have been sorely lacking. 

I read Ana Werner’s book, “The Seer’s Path. In it she has us do an exercise to start seeing in the spirit. I’m already a seer, so that wasn’t hard. However, when I started this, I met with Jesus and He told me ‘this is going to take a while, are you willing to sit with me and do this’? I said yes. LITTLE knowing what it would entail.

So what is Jesus doing?

He’s taking me through each age and healing and teaching. DON”T THINK something can’t be undone!! IT CAN BE. Thru Jesus. I am now at 7 years old. I just transferred to 7 from 6 last week, March, 23, 2018 to be exact. That’s also when I learned, as a 6-7 yr old, that God is real, He’s not a figment of my imagination. I do hear Him and He really, really loves me. I know He loves me because He’s listening to me. He’s answering my questions, He never once has told me to shut up, or stop talking or stop asking questions. That’s love. 

Always happy girl

He has taught me so many things already. Some of them He’s taught by words and some by, the only way to say it, is osmosis. He’s teaching me things underneath the words and lessons. I know this, because I am acting and speaking differently than before. As an adult.

I want to encourage you to never think your past is done and can’t be undone. It CAN be undone with and through Jesus. There are stories Jesus wants to write with others. You may be one. Those who have had a bad childhood, no matter whose fault it was, no matter the reasons why. It could have been just a short space of time or a long space of time. Since 99% of people come from a dysfunctional home, I would guess you had something rough in your life. Jesus wants to sit with you and He wants you to come to Him and take the time to listen and write your story. It will take time. He wants to be with me every day, to tell the story. This is besides prayer time. When I am in this stage, I actually regress to that age and sound like a kid. 

I will start posting installments of the story. Now mind you. I have this blog because God told me to put my personal journal online, that it will help others. So when I post the installments, some of them are just lessons, a part of the story. Yep, I’m gonna let you in on all the ‘stuff’. I will put it under the category of The Cork Road. Because that’s what Jesus calls the story, The Cork Road.

I promise you, if you take the time to sit and be still with the Lord, to envision yourself with Jesus at a table [what does the table look like? what do you see around you?], to talk with Him, to spend time with Him and I’m talking time, not 5 or 10 minutes, but 30 or more; He will give you a story. He will heal your little ones. It just takes one step and it has to start with you. 

Shofar About To Be Blown

Update: 10p.m. 3-7-18. I was reading a post by Keith Ferrante and something he said about California awakening reminded me of this word and God told me to blow the shofar/it will be blown on May 17, 2018.

This is a word the Lord gave me to me last November 17.2017 at 5p. Today, 1-14-18 He told me to put it on here.

The shofar is about to be blown. A wake up call to God’s people. A wake up call, His time is coming and His gifts. This final dispensation of a great move of God is here. Shofars will be blown all over the world. In cities, in homes, over people and over things. To start a new project.

The  time of the shofar to be blown is coming. To wake up My children from their slumber of doing things like they always have. 

Father, Do I Haveta Put These On…

Father, do I haveta put these on…

God, yes, why do you even ask?

Because they are SO PERSONAL GOD!!

Didn’t I ask you to be poured out this way?

Yes, but that was before, when it didn’t matter so much to me, that i was an open book and now I’m older and I don’t want to be so open. I really don’t want too. I really don’t want too.

God, ‘so what? Would you have me tell you to stop? Janine, you know how many people have stumbled across your site over the years. You know the pages have helped people and yes, there are those that have stolen what you have said and put it on their site. Yes, I will deal with them.

Neveryoumind about what you feel. Neveryoumind. Oh my daughter! YES I love thee, YES I cherish you, you KNOW that, but my people…Janine haven’t you been asking me for a vision of what I would do for the people of the Lord’?

Me, knowing what is coming…’yes Lord’. 

God, ‘this is it. If YOU won’t tell them, who will? I have done MUCH work in you Janine and there is much more to be done.

Me, thanks God [sarcasm]

God, See?? You took the negative, what you thought was negative. You betrayed your self in the thinking. Why didn’t you focus on the positive?

Me, because YOU ended it with the negative??

God, true, for a lesson.

Me, thank you God. [no sarcasm]

God, back to the lesson at hand.

Yes Father.

God, just do it baby girl. I know you don’t like this. I KNOW. I am so pleased you ARE doing it. Take off the thm stuff.

Me, yes Father.

God, this is about you and me. Not you, the world and me, but you and me. 

Yes, Lord. Father, I feel like I’m spilling my guts for all to see. It’s bad enough that I have felt certain ways and been and are ways. It’s bad enough that I’ve struggled for SO LONG with all this, and yes, people have seen it, but not EVERYONE LORD!

God, you’re concerned with judgements.

Yes Lord.

What did I already tell you?

Me, Basically, too bad.

God, Janine, you know I didn’t put it that way. Honey, there will always be people who judge. All you can do is follow me, follow hard after me and do what I tell you to do. Right?

Me, hanging my head, ‘yes Lord’.

God, where’s that smile?

Me, smiled, not a sincere smile.

God, you can do better than that. Where’s that smile?

Me, smiling. ‘I STILL don’t want to put all this out there.

God, ‘why not? leave out the above reasons, why not?

Me, because this is the stuff people hide. It’s the stuff that should be weeded out already, it’s the stuff that is so personal that when people see it, they think less of the person.

God, So that’s it. You don’t want people to think less of you.

Father, yes, I don’t want them too.

But baby girl, don’t you SEE? Everyone feels these ways at different times. All I want you to do is show them it’s normal and to know that I take care of them if they press into me. If they hunger and thirst after righteousness. Don’t you WANT to be poured out for me???

Me, gads God, when you put it THAT way! This is part of the stepping out?

God, yes, in a way.

Me, what do you mean, ‘in a way’?

G I have already told you to do this. Years ago. I expect you to continue until I release you from it. If I do. So this isn’t as much as ‘stepping out’ because you’ve already been doing it. It’s stepping through your fears, your self judgement and setting others free through your obedience.

Me, thank you Father for the explanation. Help me get to the place where I’m happy to do this.

G, I will my girl. I will.

Update 2 hours later: Me, so what it is, is it doesn’t matter how I feel, it matters how other people feel and how much enlightenment they get through me showing my pain and learning.

G, yep. And don’t you worry about it my girl. I am your father and I will protect you and I will never let you down. I love you with everything in me. I love you. You are my cherished daughter, just like you pray every morning. You. Are. My. Cherished. Daughter. 

When You Know You Are Loved

                                                      

not perfect

When you know you are loved, you don’t worry AS MUCH about what others think of how you look.

When you know you are loved, you have a calmness about life and relationships and things.

 

mistakes forgiven

When you know you are loved, you know, deep in your heart that mistakes you make, will be forgiven.

 

When you know you are loved, you walk straighter, you have a bounce in your step.

 

When you know you are loved, you have this assuredness in the deep part of your heart that you are not alone, you are worthwhile, you are worthy.

 

confident

 

 

                   When you know you are loved, you have confidence

 

  • Confidence that you can 
  • Confidence that you’re not a bother
  • Confidence in how you act
  • Confidence in who you are
  • Confidence that you belong
  • Confidence you are protected
  • Confidence not ‘will they like me, but confidence that you are fine if they don’t 

If you know you are loved like this by a human, it points you to how deeply God loves you. If you know you are loved like this by God, you can do exploits. Click To Tweet

 

To my human – thank you for teaching me, thank you for your patience, for showing me love and for showing me how much God loves me, to what depth, with what kindness.

heart to heart

 

To my God, thank You for choosing a human with a heart like Yours, to show me to what depth and how much, You love me. Ephesians 3:18

Abundant love

I Have A Choice Today

which choice?

11-6-17 I have a choice today. A choice to stay angry and hurt at all the things my ex husband is doing, since he started staying with me 2 weeks ago while he’s in between jobs, or to choose to live my life differently. TODAY. I have been practicing forgiveness and praying for him for 2 weeks. That’s not an easy thing in itself already. It’s not like it’s a once a day deal. The reasons we are divorced are still there. We normally get along, unless we are together for too long a time. Three days is usually the max. This has been 2 weeks with one left to go. 

But this morning, before I even got out of bed, it seems to all have come to a head. I had a bad dream about him, caused by my own accusatory mouthiness the night before.  So all I have inside me is anger at him being the way he is and not caring enough about me, to make changes. At least, that’s how I see it.

A friend of mine on face book posted something this morning that said, “Be the gift, be gentle with each other today” and I realize I have a choice. That choice ‘they’ all say we have. That choice that is a step and is most of the time, hard to take, because it’s easier to wallow in self pity and staying angry because we’re so used to being angry at that person or situation. It is easier to stay in the crummy mood we’re in, because we’re so used to it. Or because making a decision to stop being angry means we have to change the way we’re thinking and change is hard. Or because we have to turn loose of being offended, of having our rights, the right to be treated better, the right to be loved, the right to hurt, we have to let that all go. 

I am smack dab in the middle of letting go of my right to be hurt because someone is being himself. [yes, the import of that is not lost on me] I am crying as I write this. It’s hard to be hurt and let it go. It feels like I am pushing down, burying, my feelings. Like I’m not allowing myself to hurt. But that is a lie from the enemy of my soul. Satan. That is an old ploy and I recognize it now. I am not burying my feelings. I am crying, therefore, I am feeling them. I am writing about them, therefore i am feeling them.  

Because I realize this, now I am set free in my inner woman. [woo hoo!] 

We all love having choices right? My choices are to remain in a state of stress, like it’s been for some days, or make a conscious choice, without using force on myself, to accept those things I cannot change and to stop trying to change those things that will not change. To tell myself, as we did in basic training, ‘this is not the Army, this is only basic training’,  AND to celebrate the days left of him being around AND to LAY ASIDE every expectation, every hurt that comes my way and leave it alone. Don’t pick it up, just leave it on the ground or let it zing on past me. Those poison arrows are, indeed, intended for me, but if I don’t pick them up, I can’t be hurt by them. It may seem like a tall order, but in reality, it’s making a choice to live in health. [God reminded me this morning to take a flower essence, I’ll have to see which one deals in stress]

TODAY, I make my choice to be unoffendable. I take back the power I’ve given to another to offend me, make me angry or hurt me. [the understanding of this concept is coming to me] I make my choice for my self. To attend to my needs. To love me more than another and in the doing, I will love them. Love your neighbor as yourself says the Bible. 

I choose to BE and ACT differently than I have recently, thereby changing how I feel in the process. To celebrate these days he will be here and to not expect to make silk out of a sow’s ear. [and I choose to leave the house for a while and to open the windows and doors to the beautiful 80F weather, exchanging the inside air for the fresh air and negative ions] 

                                                                           I choose life over death. 

 

 

 

 

May 2017 Revelations

5-5-17 Facebook is not my friend, it’s a tool. I may have friends on fb, but it’s not were friendship should be carried out. 

Jesus is the visible image of the invisible God.

Frequencies are the minute pieces of Jesus’ healing power. 

When I trust and write down what seems really odd, Jesus opens the door for more. She who is faithful in the little things! Luke 16.10

5-18-17 I had already asked forgiveness for doing things man’s way instead of God’s way. 

me, Can we talk about putting Moringa and Myrtle in every essence? 

God says, ‘sure, doesn’t everyone have fears about something’? Doesn’t everyone need a little more love? Doesn’t everyone need to know that things will be okay?”

Me, yes. 

G, you GUESS? 

Me, I just think God, that some people think they don’t need..[God interrupted]

G, ah yes, but if people only got what they think they need, they wouldn’t have much of anything would they? they wouldn’t have what they truly need, would they? 

Me, humbly and chagrined, in a small voice, ‘no’.

G, if I and we leave everyone to their own devices on what they think they need…well then Janine, do you understand now?

me, yes Father, thank You.

G, My pleasure baby girl. I’m not upset with you Janine. I did not say it with the tone of voice or attitude that you heard it in. That’s a filter that needs to be shattered. 

Me, Father I ask You shatter that filter in me now, in Jesus name.

G, now? you want me to shatter it now?

Me, yes please, if it’s in your will and your timing to do it now.

G, it is, it may hurt a little, but you’ll be fine, as you know, you are always fine on the other side.

Me, please go for it God. I want to be more in you and less in me and definitely I want any filter that is not a good filter to be broken, shattered, in Jesus name. I ask for You to do this now. [I feel like I’m going willingly to the dentist] 

5-20-17 – when WE think God is slow, it’s that WE have not used the authority that He has given us because we are His daughters and his sons thru His Spirit. HE’S not slow, he’s waiting on us!

My Prayer – I want to be free of shame and frear and doubt and unbelief. I want to know who you are God and how you operate. I want to know the greatness of your power, the greatness of your grace, the greatness of your favor. I want to enjoy this life that you have given me, free from the negative and fully learning and charging into all the things you have given to me. 

I think, from watching Ken Copeland, that I can know you in many ways. I can know who you are and how you do. I want to know these things God. I don’t want to keep going along in life knowing a tiny bit but not fully understanding you. I want to be more friends with you. I want to have a different relationship, a deeper relationship and friendship, something more than what I’ve had.

I know I’ve had good things. I want more God. I want to know the greatness of yoru power. I want to have understanding and wisdom. If I am just to know one area, then choose the area and draw me into that however you will, God. Jesus has come to give me an abundant life. I want that abundant life. I don’t want to struggle anymore.

Up until right now, when I am talking, my life has been such a struggle. I’ve struggled for health, wealth, to understand you. I ask you Father, I come humbly before you and I ask you to give me breakthrough and knowing how to heal other people and understand frequencies and understanding you’re greatness and understanding and having your favor.

You are constantly giving me dreams. I ask that you give the understanding of those dreams. I ask that you open the eyes of my heart, open the eyes of my understanding regarding dreams, favor, your greatness, regarding all these things that you have given to me. Open up my understanding Father, please, in the name of Jesus.

That I may walk in your ways, that I may do what you called me to do, that I will understand what you’ve called me to do and go forth boldly, with understanding, wisdom and knowledge. Father, my life is not just for me, it is also for others to teach and impart and help. 

But Father, if I’m not whole, wholly in you, then I can’t give out. I ask you for understanding of who I am in you, how I am and I ask that you give me power and the ability to go forth Father, in Jesus name

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5-31-17 John 20.23 “If you forgive anyone’s sins, they are forgiven. If you do not forgive their sins, they are not forgiven”. Meaning we can ask forgiveness for their sins and their sins are forgiven of them. I think it has to do with the sins committed against us, personally.