When we say about someone, ‘they are mean’, or ‘they are so manipulative’, it’s the same thing. God told me I am NOT to say any of the above. He said my words carry missiles on them and to say something like that, seals those words over whomever I am saying them about. [as well, anything good I say seals it as well. The Word He gave me is pretty impressive, but I’m so worried about messing up, I am not looking at it from that point of view. yess yess, worry is a sin, would you rather I say I am ‘concerned’? eh]
I’m just your average Joe. That’s what God just told me in the hot tub. OHMYGOSH! FREEDOM! I had a dream the other nite, you can find it under ‘just my stuff’ the post about ‘i don’t think i can do this’.
I get a tremendous amount of revelation in the hot tub. Water. I’m a water baby. I love water, I thrive with water around me. Hence, I’m in the desert. It’s God’s joke. lol
But, I have a pool and a hot tub. So I can be in hot water wherever I am! LOL I was middling in my brain about that specific post. I have a lot of stuff in there that’s personal. But if there’s one thing I know as much as I know my own name, it’s that God wants me to be transparent. He made me transparent. That’s all I’ve heard for decades is about how transparent I am. [I used to think it was a bad thing, now I just think it’s one of ‘those’ God things] So just now in the hot tub, as I was pondering the dream..clearly President Trump is God, so God blew his trumpet and loudly told a select few, it wasn’t on tv or a press conference, it was on the radio! People LISTEN to a radio, tv they watch and don’t pay a lot of attention too, they hear and don’t pay a lot of attention too. But the radio…people listen to it, because they want too. But only a select group of people listen to the radio. It is THOSE people I reach.
So I say to God, ‘I’m sorry I put that on there about faith, maybe I should take it off. I don’t want to be disrespectful’.
God says, ‘leave it there’.
God, because it helps others
me, but it’s disrespectful
God, not it’s not, it’s saying how you feel
me, who’s going to hear? I’m just your average joe.
God, yes, you are an average joe. People need to see that everyone is the same. Most of the time they see ‘big shots’ that are unattainable and unreachable but they don’t see the realness of life, of walking with me. You are showing others that you ALL think these ways at one time or another. Janine, it’s not so much about you, as it is I want my children at ease, not stressing so much about what they THINK they should do, what they THINK they should act like. You are my vehicle baby girl. You ARE willing. So many aren’t.
Wow, this is huge. HUGE. This, THIS alone, set me free of a LIFETIME of living under the curse of being a perfectionist. I’m an AVERAGE JOE! HOW AWESOME IS THAT? I no longer have to BE what ANYONE thinks I should be. I no longer have to prove ANYTHING to ANYONE at ANY TIME. I can soar with God. I can fly! I can BE.
I can BE. If I’m overweight, SO WHAT! Am I loved anyway? YES! If I’m into herbs and flower essences and rocks and Jesus, SO WHAT! If I live however I want too, SO WHAT! I’M AN AVERAGE JOE!
WHAT A RELIEF! I NO LONGER HAVE TO HAVE STATUS TO BE A PERSON! I NO LONGER HAVE TO BE IMPORTANT IN THE WORLD, I NO LONGER HAVE TO MAKE MY MARK [I already met my goal of helping others with the business I just sold] I no longer have to help others, teach others. I can just BE. I can learn about ME, BE ME, have fun. THIS IS MY YEAR! 2018 is MY health year, MY YEAR.
I AM ÅVERAGE [that’s a halo over the A]
I AM AVERAGE!!!!!!!
God, I need you to let go
Me, I ‘m trying too. I’m trying so hard
God, stop trying, stop trying so hard, Just live, enjoy your life.
Me, but what about all these things I’m SUPPOSED to do, like pray and this and that and the other thing?
G, you’ve taken on more than you should. You said it yourself this morning. You took on things you shouldn’t have. MY yoke is easy Janine, don’t forget that.
Me, but God, I’ve been so disobedient and for so long.
G, yes I know. Did it break me? Did it break the bank?
G, then why stress over it? LET GO AND LET ME. Let me show you the things *I* want to show you, let me take you flying.
Me, rolling my eyes – there it is again
G, yes, there it is. Again. Janine, let go. Let go let go let go. Get that book of Gloria Copeland’s. Just LIVE your life, ENJOY your life. Don’t you think I AM can handle it and you? Don’t you think I AM can do what I’ve called you to do? Don’t you think I CAN?
Me. I dunno. I guess so, I guess not. I guess if I’m trying so hard, I’m not trusting
G, exactly. LET GO. It will come to you. Stop shoulding on yourself. Let go. Want to go for a ride? Go. Want to speak in tongues? Do. Want to listen to loud music? Do. LET GO
You have lived bottled up inside yourself all your life, for so long. I have taken the cork off but you keep putting it back on! Stop with that! Let your essence out of the bottle, the smell of you, the aroma of you, the joy of you, the laughter of you, the LOVE of you. Oh Janine, I have given you so much love to be given away. Just don’t abuse it.
G, Janine, baby, look up.
Me, I did, eyes opened
G, what do you see?
Me, the ceiling
G, what do you want to see?
Me, you, your angels, neat stuff in the spirit world.
G, how do you see it?
Me, I dunno, close my eyes?
G, keep them open, how can you have an open eye vision if they are closed?
G, when you least expect it, it will happen when you least expect it. This summer, this summer, I want you free as a bird. No cares, no worries, nothing holding you down.
Me, you’ll have to fix it so it’s that way.
G, I know. But YOU have to LET GO of control, fear, ties to the earth.
Me, ties to the earth???? Looking quizzically
G, yep. You want, you‘ve prayed, you’ve asked for, I see your heart. LET GO so you can SOAR so you can FLY with me.
Gd, stop putting on yourself that which you THINK I want you to do. I said that about the tea in the vision because that’s how *I* like it, not because YOU have to drink tea.
Me, I thought everything you say is a teaching thing I should do?
G, not always, sometimes we just talk. I just talk to you. Lighten up Janine. Remember the 2 yo. Remember how strong she is?
Me is? Not WAS?
G, no, is. She’s a part of you. You take her with you WHEREVER you go. You remember she is with you. If she can fight off the devil, so can you. Remember that.
Me, God, people have said to me that it’s odd to hear God as much as I do. Is it?
G, no, not when you’re listening. Not when it’s your predispensation.
G, certain things for certain people. Special gifts for those that chose to follow the hard path.
Me, Really?? COOL!
G, ask S what her’s is. [I did, she didn’t answer]
Me, but you’ve ALWAYS talked to me like this!
G, because I’ve always known which path you would follow. I MADE you my girl. Remember? LOLOL
Me, yes. 🙂 but what about free will?
G, Janine when you first came to me, you told me things and released your whole self to me, you completely let me in. oh sure, you have your own will, which you’ve exercised time and again haven’t you?
G, but like David, I know your heart. I know the heart of those that have been chosen to go down the hard path.
Me, if I was chosen, then how come you asked me if I wanted too?
G, because it’s always better to go willingly, as I’ve told you before. Willingly means you’re WITH me on this, you are aware and your heart and eyes are open, as opposed to hearing later, when not as much could be done. All in my time girl, all in my time.
Father, do I haveta put these on…
God, yes, why do you even ask?
Because they are SO PERSONAL GOD!!
Didn’t I ask you to be poured out this way?
Yes, but that was before, when it didn’t matter so much to me, that i was an open book and now I’m older and I don’t want to be so open. I really don’t want too. I really don’t want too.
God, ‘so what? Would you have me tell you to stop? Janine, you know how many people have stumbled across your site over the years. You know the pages have helped people and yes, there are those that have stolen what you have said and put it on their site. Yes, I will deal with them.
Neveryoumind about what you feel. Neveryoumind. Oh my daughter! YES I love thee, YES I cherish you, you KNOW that, but my people…Janine haven’t you been asking me for a vision of what I would do for the people of the Lord’?
Me, knowing what is coming…’yes Lord’.
God, ‘this is it. If YOU won’t tell them, who will? I have done MUCH work in you Janine and there is much more to be done.
Me, thanks God [sarcasm]
God, See?? You took the negative, what you thought was negative. You betrayed your self in the thinking. Why didn’t you focus on the positive?
Me, because YOU ended it with the negative??
God, true, for a lesson.
Me, thank you God. [no sarcasm]
God, back to the lesson at hand.
God, just do it baby girl. I know you don’t like this. I KNOW. I am so pleased you ARE doing it. Take off the thm stuff.
Me, yes Father.
God, this is about you and me. Not you, the world and me, but you and me.
Yes, Lord. Father, I feel like I’m spilling my guts for all to see. It’s bad enough that I have felt certain ways and been and are ways. It’s bad enough that I’ve struggled for SO LONG with all this, and yes, people have seen it, but not EVERYONE LORD!
God, you’re concerned with judgements.
What did I already tell you?
Me, Basically, too bad.
God, Janine, you know I didn’t put it that way. Honey, there will always be people who judge. All you can do is follow me, follow hard after me and do what I tell you to do. Right?
Me, hanging my head, ‘yes Lord’.
God, where’s that smile?
Me, smiled, not a sincere smile.
God, you can do better than that. Where’s that smile?
Me, smiling. ‘I STILL don’t want to put all this out there.
God, ‘why not? leave out the above reasons, why not?
Me, because this is the stuff people hide. It’s the stuff that should be weeded out already, it’s the stuff that is so personal that when people see it, they think less of the person.
God, So that’s it. You don’t want people to think less of you.
Father, yes, I don’t want them too.
But baby girl, don’t you SEE? Everyone feels these ways at different times. All I want you to do is show them it’s normal and to know that I take care of them if they press into me. If they hunger and thirst after righteousness. Don’t you WANT to be poured out for me???
Me, gads God, when you put it THAT way! This is part of the stepping out?
God, yes, in a way.
Me, what do you mean, ‘in a way’?
G I have already told you to do this. Years ago. I expect you to continue until I release you from it. If I do. So this isn’t as much as ‘stepping out’ because you’ve already been doing it. It’s stepping through your fears, your self judgement and setting others free through your obedience.
Me, thank you Father for the explanation. Help me get to the place where I’m happy to do this.
G, I will my girl. I will.
Update 2 hours later: Me, so what it is, is it doesn’t matter how I feel, it matters how other people feel and how much enlightenment they get through me showing my pain and learning.
G, yep. And don’t you worry about it my girl. I am your father and I will protect you and I will never let you down. I love you with everything in me. I love you. You are my cherished daughter, just like you pray every morning. You. Are. My. Cherished. Daughter.
5-5-17 Facebook is not my friend, it’s a tool. I may have friends on fb, but it’s not were friendship should be carried out.
Jesus is the visible image of the invisible God.
Frequencies are the minute pieces of Jesus’ healing power.
When I trust and write down what seems really odd, Jesus opens the door for more. She who is faithful in the little things! Luke 16.10
5-18-17 I had already asked forgiveness for doing things man’s way instead of God’s way.
me, Can we talk about putting Moringa and Myrtle in every essence?
God says, ‘sure, doesn’t everyone have fears about something’? Doesn’t everyone need a little more love? Doesn’t everyone need to know that things will be okay?”
G, you GUESS?
Me, I just think God, that some people think they don’t need..[God interrupted]
G, ah yes, but if people only got what they think they need, they wouldn’t have much of anything would they? they wouldn’t have what they truly need, would they?
Me, humbly and chagrined, in a small voice, ‘no’.
G, if I and we leave everyone to their own devices on what they think they need…well then Janine, do you understand now?
me, yes Father, thank You.
G, My pleasure baby girl. I’m not upset with you Janine. I did not say it with the tone of voice or attitude that you heard it in. That’s a filter that needs to be shattered.
Me, Father I ask You shatter that filter in me now, in Jesus name.
G, now? you want me to shatter it now?
Me, yes please, if it’s in your will and your timing to do it now.
G, it is, it may hurt a little, but you’ll be fine, as you know, you are always fine on the other side.
Me, please go for it God. I want to be more in you and less in me and definitely I want any filter that is not a good filter to be broken, shattered, in Jesus name. I ask for You to do this now. [I feel like I’m going willingly to the dentist]
5-20-17 – when WE think God is slow, it’s that WE have not used the authority that He has given us because we are His daughters and his sons thru His Spirit. HE’S not slow, he’s waiting on us!
My Prayer – I want to be free of shame and frear and doubt and unbelief. I want to know who you are God and how you operate. I want to know the greatness of your power, the greatness of your grace, the greatness of your favor. I want to enjoy this life that you have given me, free from the negative and fully learning and charging into all the things you have given to me.
I think, from watching Ken Copeland, that I can know you in many ways. I can know who you are and how you do. I want to know these things God. I don’t want to keep going along in life knowing a tiny bit but not fully understanding you. I want to be more friends with you. I want to have a different relationship, a deeper relationship and friendship, something more than what I’ve had.
I know I’ve had good things. I want more God. I want to know the greatness of yoru power. I want to have understanding and wisdom. If I am just to know one area, then choose the area and draw me into that however you will, God. Jesus has come to give me an abundant life. I want that abundant life. I don’t want to struggle anymore.
Up until right now, when I am talking, my life has been such a struggle. I’ve struggled for health, wealth, to understand you. I ask you Father, I come humbly before you and I ask you to give me breakthrough and knowing how to heal other people and understand frequencies and understanding you’re greatness and understanding and having your favor.
You are constantly giving me dreams. I ask that you give the understanding of those dreams. I ask that you open the eyes of my heart, open the eyes of my understanding regarding dreams, favor, your greatness, regarding all these things that you have given to me. Open up my understanding Father, please, in the name of Jesus.
That I may walk in your ways, that I may do what you called me to do, that I will understand what you’ve called me to do and go forth boldly, with understanding, wisdom and knowledge. Father, my life is not just for me, it is also for others to teach and impart and help.
But Father, if I’m not whole, wholly in you, then I can’t give out. I ask you for understanding of who I am in you, how I am and I ask that you give me power and the ability to go forth Father, in Jesus name
5-31-17 John 20.23 “If you forgive anyone’s sins, they are forgiven. If you do not forgive their sins, they are not forgiven”. Meaning we can ask forgiveness for their sins and their sins are forgiven of them. I think it has to do with the sins committed against us, personally.